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I started meditating to relax and I ended up sobbing with rage - am I stange?
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I started meditating to relax and I ended up sobbing with rage - am I stange?
Apotheose replied to Apech's topic in General Discussion
Very interesting. Off topic, but this reminds me of ancient theurgy, which was performed by neoplatonists. Which today many call high magic. Passive meditation to contemplate; active meditation to create. I remember reading something from Iamblichus that was akin to âthe art of active contemplationâ. -
I started meditating to relax and I ended up sobbing with rage - am I stange?
Apotheose replied to Apech's topic in General Discussion
Genius I like him already -
I started meditating to relax and I ended up sobbing with rage - am I stange?
Apotheose replied to Apech's topic in General Discussion
Wow. No words can describe how much that makes sense to me. Iâve also experienced failure in meditation many times when I just wanted to relieve stress. In my experience, aggression âas a biproduct of stress and confusionâ should be gradually dissolved not by sitting meditation but by other activities. -
I started meditating to relax and I ended up sobbing with rage - am I stange?
Apotheose replied to Apech's topic in General Discussion
Very cool topic, Apech. I see it in two ways. The 1st could be the misinterpretation of what meditation is. There is a narrative which popularized some decades ago that meditating is sitting and managing to just not think at all. Well, that would be almost impossible. Meditating is actually achieving a higher state of consciousness which transcends the duality of thinking and not thinking. So, one who tries to sit and not think will of course be frustrated and maybe angry, since the very desire to not think will lead to thinking about not thinking. The 2nd possible explanation âin my perspectiveâ could be the process of undoing the mindâs knots. The art of knowing oneself via meditation will inevitably lead to this gradual process of âuntying the knotsâ of what was learnt since the development of the ego âin the early childhood. Some knots are dissolved unconsciously and others consciously. The latter phenomena can be challenging, and thus can lead to discomfort and periods of âinternal probationâ that can include aggression. This aggression can be a mere symptom of this process, or it can be the very knot per se. -
Thanks for sharing that, Siker. And, again, I wish you a very successful path. I agree with Nungali. Since youâve just returned home from such a harsh activity like fighting for your country, it may be a better idea to let Time settle things down for now. And, as SnowyMountains mentioned, therapy would be highly recommended and a great start. In the future, if this desire sustains and you decide to begin the spiritual path, it would be great to have a âreference-personâ to freely talk about the occult⌠a friend or a relative who is experienced in it. Mysticism â per se â is very safe, but you should always have someone around who you trust and that can clarify your doubts. Walking the spiritual path completely alone would not be a good idea.
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Thatâs a great insight. I view it differently. Personally, i see two possible meanings of it. One of them being akin to Blue Eyed Snakeâs view of it. In much of the Bible, especially in the Gospel of John, I see verses which can be viewed both from a purely-religious and a mystical point of view. In order to be didactic, letâs put (i) the purely-religious view as something which corroborates the idea of a more âSeparatedâ relationship between the Creator and the Creature; and (ii) the mystical as a point of view which corroborates the more âUnitedâ view of it (macro/microcosmus) (âas above, so belowâ). Dissecting John 3:8 would lead, in my perspective, to both views. So: John 3:8 - âThe wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.â First Iâll explain the purely-religious possible meaning: a- [The wind blows wherever it pleases] - meaning that wind is free. It can go all directions. b- [You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going] - meaning you can hear the wind, but cannot know its path. c- [So it is with everyone born of the Spirit] - meaning that, the same way we cannot understand the wind - but only hear it -, we cannot either understand the Rebirth. Itâs miraculous and fabricated by the Spirit, not something plausible for human understanding. Our senses are limited to perceiving the wind the same way they are limited to perceiving the Spirit. Now the mystical possible meaning: (since âwindâ and âSpiritâ mean the same in hebrew, I prefer to only use the term âSpiritâ for better understanding) So, âThe Spirit blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.â a- [The Spirit blows wherever it pleases] - meaning that It is ultimately free. The Spirit has Free Will. b- [You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going] - meaning you can âhearâ his Works, but not understand how He does it. You can see the results, not the causes. He cannot be understood by man. c- [So it is with everyone born of Spirit] - well, now I see a different meaning⌠Letâs consider the Son not only as Jesus, but every Redeemed man, for better understanding. So, it can possibly mean that the Redeemed/Reborn is as unintelligible as the Spirit in the perspective of ignorant men. He - the Son/the Redeemed -, as well as the Spirit, has (a) Free Will and (b) cannot be rationally understood by common man, meaning that men can see his works in the world but cannot know how he does it. Since heâs been reborn, he âlives in Christâ. He has ways of perceiving reality and acting in the world that the âblindâ cannot comprehend.
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Mirror mirror, what should be my next step? I want to be a wise man! âListen, do not overstep⌠A wise man you can become, But first you need to be a Bumâ
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Just to correct myself⌠I donât think I made my point of view clear: I donât think that, in John 3:5, Jesus refers exactly to the baptism ritual. That wouldnât make sense in the context. But, rather, I meant he was referring to the generic internal process which is symbolized by the mikvah/baptism: water + Spirit (fire).
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Thank you very much for that, Daniel!
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Perfect!!!
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good one! Donât worry, I have faith in people! Iâve never participated in any forum apart from this. And I decided to join because I was surprised about how people are thoughtful here. It really fascinates me.