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Now that my meds have taken hold, I'm stable. It's been about 4 months of normalcy, thankfully. I can't believe how insane I became.

They already have that one

You can come up with a unique premise that illustrates something fundamental about existence, and then we branch it off to become all inclusive

What's it even matter, anyways? Everyone has their own beliefs and experiences, it's impossible to agree. It's all chaos.

The only emotions I experience are sadness fear and grief, from witnessing the world's imperfections and suffering.

That's interesting. I too no longer feel joy or happiness. It stems from a time my friends all turned their backs on me, and I thought "all I want is to give them my love" I realized this was codependent and selfish, and I abandoned the desire to inspire joy in them. Something changed inside of me, I became more centered and focused on my solar plexus. Now I sit and don't oner reach. I'm content, but miss joy

We are our responses to what we encounter, based on what we are told to believe.

Yes we can experience joy without suffering, and vice versa. I tire of people saying we can't have this without that. We appreciate it more when the other comes, that is all.

I am at a stage in life where I see all the chatter online and I look out my door and it is quiet. It gets me thinking about the life we experience. I once mourned that the world is not led by kindness and a voice asked me if they should destroy it, I said no. So now I wonder, as I get along in years, experiencing the suffering of age and disease, and seeing it around me, I ask: is there more joy than suffering? Have I made a mistake in saying not to destroy this place?

Along with good and evil, it is worth contemplating and recognizing ones concepts of love and hate, desire, and happiness. When one understands these, and their expectations of them, they can understand much of life's actions and choices.

The world can be understood by contemplating and cataloging thoughts on chaos and order. Remember, chaos is an illusion, for everything is, and everything has an origin and reason. There is no chaos, just ignorance and misunderstanding. In nature there is reason, and the elements follow an order. Animal life has an order as well, and animals do not have much of a moral code. It is human beings, with their ability for logic and language, that is defined and organized by morality. Indeed, morality and moral tales define much of humanity, and the Order that controls chaos in humans can be explained by a cultures sense of good and evil.

Perhaps I am a little too Cynical. I feel betrayed by philosophy. At the end of the day it seems like it all fails. I appreciate my education though.

Sounds like you have it all cataloged well. It's a nice outline, full of hope! Even has an account for God's and creation.

Yes! Where is it

We need a central thesis, one that catches the mind, and that can be used to craft other observations. Something like " man was meant to create beauty"