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Jesus wasn't so much a prophet as he was the fulfillment of prophecy. The reason for mankind's life and struggle had some loose ends, and so God sent his son to clean things up. Jhvhs witnesses believe jhvh and Jesus existed prior to the creation, and that Jesus is the designer.

I stand by my statements. Obviously not every crime gets noticed or punished, and I said philosophy is either opinion or fantasy, mostly they are just opinions.

When it comes to wisdom, all a person really needs to know is that harming someone is bad, and will be punished by law or retaliation. Strength and symmetry, and firm color are beautiful to the eye, and humans like these things over weaker and feeble versions. I don't know why that is, it's just innate in our species. Things of this nature get favor, or opposition. The rest of philosophy is simply opinion and the esoteric is climbing a tree of knowledge based on the opinions of what I said to be true.

In fact, nearly all mysticism, magic, occultism, and Philosophy is either opinion or fantasy. I've traveled these worlds and it all fails. There's actually very little that is necessary to know and follow. I can't believe people worship this stuff!

You guys know this is all just made up bullshit, right?

When I was young, I dreamed a lot, but they were loose ideas and not very storied. Now as an adult, I find that they are like movies, with a plot and dialog. They are very involved and realistic, though not always bound by the laws of nature. I'm wondering how mystics magicians and occultism account for them, because from my POV they are designed.

I'd have to call bullshit on that one.

It's all made up, and even if a God or Demon gave someone their true name, they wouldn't respond unless so inclined

Well yeah, the question is that couldn't a creator control the production of evil, and destroy it when it arises? Personally I think man is a little too lofty in its thoughts that we blame our own evil on God.

I'm finally doing well. As I improve, I can look back at all the damage and pain, and can measure my now and say I am much better. Thanks everyone

Essentially mystics and philosophers and artists want to describe and define life and God. The world is beautiful yet nature is dangerous, and so is man. We want to know what kind of creator would make it this way and why we are here, so they invent stories and myths to explain it. Take it all with a grain of salt, for it is all invented, and if based on reality, enhanced with myth. Basically the world is imperfect and can't be all good, or at the very least, is prone to corruption.

There is the biblical Satan, and the esoteric one. The biblical Satan works for God. He tests and tortures man. Another version of Satan has him fallen and disgraced, but yet God does not destroy him. He roams the earth with his fellows luring man away from God, and inspires them to act against man. In the new testament he is known as the prince of the air and has power over this world until Christmas returns to correct this place.

I don't believe my energy was that bad, my language was simply very pointed. I personally like a lot of Christianty, but under scrutiny, combined with experience, I become disgusted that it is so popular with all the flaws. Yes I suppose a God can do anything but really, wow, what madness

I don't like Christianity because 1. They believe in miracles, done not only by Christ, but of saints as well. Heck, there are miracles being performed by priests every day at mass as they have the power to bless, and transfiguration the bread and wine into the actual body and blood of christ. This is reason enough not to believe in Christianity, but then when you tell one of them about something supernatural, you are met with disbelief. 2. They don't believe in birth control. 3. They think sex is reserved for man and woman.

It's tough, because I always believed that there would be some final, good outcome from my delusions and suffering, that it had a purpose. I see now that it does not, that it was just my descent into madness, which has led me through the existential crisis of expectation and belief to dismissal of reason and faith. I see now that individual life is like a short lived bubble on the river of time.

It's hard to do. I can't walk very far, and I don't like doing much. Mostly I just have to lay here.

I am feeling better, thank you all for your thoughts and concern. I don't have anyone I can vent these things to.

Idk what I'm looking for, honestly. There's nothing anyone can do for me. I guess I'm just sharing and looking for a place to express my pain.

I'm in pain, that is common, but when I said I didn't want to exist, it was from observing that there is nothing secure in life, and that compounded my pain. However, I wasn't suicidal. I was once very strong and accepted things of this nature, but the prolonged suffering I've endured has left me weaker. I'm OK now, yes sometimes it is difficult to sleep. I am seeing a dr.

Thank you for the concern, and the tips. I'm all cried out over it. Realizing life is not a safe place always. I sometimes just want to cease to exist

Can't stand how my head feels. Hard to explain.

Yup, pretty certain.

Right, they're doing something that others disagree with, or they have information that is valuable. The esoteric societies we can purchase today are crap.

Idk, what do you suggest?

Oh, no, I definitely was psychotic, for many months. Had me running in circles. I think back... and I'm just shocked and terrified. So many stories.