Cadcam

All we have is life. We have a limited variety of ways to live in life, and we also limit our behavior. What makes life worth living? Are you living to fulfill obligations to family? Are you satisfied? Would you want your life to carry over into the next one? Do you think the environment and laws are the same as here? Do you think the next life will go on forever? If one believes in a God, the idea is that that God is immortal. Do you think that God limits itself? After existing for eternity, do you think God is bored? If there is a God, is it the Creator? If so, how do you think the world is upheld? How do you think the afterlife is upheld? Is it someone's job to take care of these worlds, and the souls that are in it?

The original God may still be here, or he's off in another universe.

1. God creates all of reality. 2. A species on earth evolves either genetically or scientifically to transcend death and physical limitations. 3. The new God creates new life and reshaped the planet, possibly multiple times, having control over life and death, perhaps even all physical laws. 4. This God species preserves all life after death to gather a world of infinite personality and experience.

Suppose, as many do, that God and the devil are real. These beings and their kin interact with humans to guide and mold identity and actions. Do you suppose they would rather that one was aware of this interaction, or oblivious to it?

I've concluded that God as we understand it has probably evolved from the earth. Being that this world and the universes are billions of years old, it's not inconceivable that a formerly mortal species evolved in physicality or science to become immortal, and have power over the physical realm. Probably this species created life as we know it, and it's worlds are infinite, with each of us being an immortal inhabitant of the many planes of existence.

My opinion is that there are humans, or other species that call this world home, but they are removed from our sight, like they exist in a different way physically. They take possession of people for various reasons, probably to use us as experiments, possibly to harvest our souls for other reasons, perhaps to take them into their world?

From what I have witnessed, the gods or demons or whatever aren't too exceptionally malicious but it wouldn't surprise me if they could do anything they desire. Imagine what it would be like to be an immortal being with all power over this level of reality. Might be boring.

Ever since I was young, I've been a rebellious, and lawless person. This has changed, but as I reflected on my past, I had memories of different things. For instance, I remember when I was about 8 or 9 years old, standing in the middle of my bedroom and calling out "Satan be my god" around that same time I stopped going to church, totally refusing it. This drive my parents nuts. I remember walking to school, and this spirit was giving me lessons on chaos and order, and I, not being happy with how things went, decided to cause chaos (not the right decision). I used to harness this idea of chaos, as I would interact with others. It gave me a spiritual strength. Eventually I found myself manipulating energy with my mind. It was a form of magic. This all came back to bite me in the ass.

That's what I'm saying. I think that words and their meaning have subconscious power, and steer us in the direction of that meaning. So when the spirits took hold of me as a youth and had me say Satan be my god, I subconsciously became a Satanist, and my behavior followed along with that definition. Think about it: how many times can you say you've said or done something without conscious knowledge of where that choice came from? That could be the interaction of a spirit. In my adult life, I've seen this is true, and in reflection I realize that it happened as a child. I think there's a lot we don't know about the spiritual world. We think we have free will and make every choice, but of that I am not so sure.

As a person begins to retract from wanting, one of the first things to go is lust. In order for this to subside, one must be free from the draw of beauty. When beauty dies, so too does the preference for it over things that are not beautiful to a person. This can lead in all sorts of directions. For myself, I find that I am no longer compassionate, I do not have the empathy I once did. It takes a lot for me to be moved by either beauty or suffering. I find that life plays out like a movie that I have no attachment to: I'm just viewing it and not moved by it. This liberation can lead to negative behavior.

I think at some point initially it was deliberate but that was a long time ago. Now I just don't know what to say, or how to respond. I listen and understand, but have no reply.

When I was a youngster (under 20), I suppressed my emotional responses to other people and their actions. As I matured, I started to look at people's lips to understand them, rather than look them in they eye as we spoke. Idk, I just don't knee jerk react, I think about things first.

I have always been one who thinks first, and then feels a response. I wonder if that is common. Who or what, those are good questions. I was meditating one day many years ago, thinking that the world was order. It suddenly occurred to me that no! it was chaos! Then my head cracked open and I had a vision of a being on a throne that spoke. Then my awareness flipped sideways and it felt like something was implanted in my lower right brain below my ear. Eventually it felt like wires were inserted and over the years have overtaken my brain and body, leaving me now in this static, non thinking condition.

I definitely feel cut off from the flow of existence. I have no impulse to desire. It is apathy that I feel. When I think, I wind up in entropy. I'm not moved by things. Neither beauty nor suffering. Every response I give is methodical. It's my head, you see. There are these wires of energy that tie my thoughts down.

I don't think I'm lost in nihilism deliberately, this all just evolved partly from thinking, but mostly from my physical state. Everything is flat. I don't emotionally respond, I don't intellectually respond. I hear and understand, but have nothing to contribute. There is no joy, there is no lust. It is quiet and sterile, and I have to sit like this because trying to come out of it creates suffering.

It's difficult to imagine the personality of God. I believe we exist as toys, for what other purpose could there be than to give God company, and something to do? And, being powerful enough to create such an enormous and intricate, complex system of life, what do you suppose a powerful and immortal being would do with this place? We tend to imagine, in our supposed free will, that no one is watching or guiding us, but I can no longer live that way.

Looking back upon my life, and my deeds, and the direction it took, I wonder if I didn't make some kind of pact with Satan, and that is why I behaved as I did. Idk what made me call on Satan. It seems that children don't always know what they do. I've witnessed in my adult life that spirits interact with us, and can speak through our voices. It could be that I was simply chosen for these things. I really don't know how much we are actually responsible for.

God is the best of us; our ideal state in being and action. To project ones mind upward and outward towards a God grants us a real or imagined supernatural strength. Certainly, if history is correct, the new God of Love, creator and all good, was better than the previous gods, whom were irrational at times, and to be feared. Perhaps having a God of Love gave us a linear logic, and acceptable morals, and that is why that God has endured.

Though it is a nice idea, and I'm sure God appreciates our love, I don't believe that God must love each of us individually as is often suggested by Christianity. God gave us free will to choose to love, and loving everyone unconditionally leads to problems. No, people have to earn love. God too, has the free will to choose who to love, and can you imagine, with the billions of people born throughout history, and all their virtues, deeds, and talents; how hard it would be to attract God's attention and earn God's love?

Well, I've been through hell and have seen that God, or whoever, is capable of manipulating reality. In this time of torment I have investigated my life, my past, and my desires, and I've come to a point where I don't see much to want or to say. Life for me is pretty quiet, I would say boring, but I really don't want to do anything, so it's not a bore, it's just sterile.

I think there is a particular something within each of us that is uniquely you. It's the combination of parts and pieces that results in a voice that emanates from the mind. It's made up of our voice, our experiences, our impulses and choices.

For if there is a creator, the main attribute they gave us was freedom. God is freedom, and not love. Love is something we do, and certainly God could love, but it is not the binding, driving glue that mystics imagine.

The main attribute that God gave man is freedom. Love is secondary to this, and is a choice or impulse. As such, I think the Greeks had it figured out, and when you consider how much of our civilization comes from them, it should be no surprise. The Creator is Chaos, because freedom breeds chaos, freedom being the first attribute God gave humanity.