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Nungali do you consider yourself to be an atheist?

I like the story as told from the perspective of the jews, but I think it breeds superstition. Second guessing ones own thoughts, words and deeds...but really, it fits together nicely. God is good, and the devil tests us to see if we are worthy of grace or punishment. When you compare them to Muslims, they're really quite liberal, and in the form of Christianity, rather lenient and forgiving.

Suppose, as many do, that God and the devil are real. These beings and their kin interact with humans to guide and mold identity and actions. Do you suppose they would rather that one was aware of this interaction, or oblivious to it?

Well, it's been over a year since I've suffered any major psychosis. I still struggle with depression. I think on how far I traveled in the occult, religious theology, and Philosophy, just to wind up with little thought or desire. I have no mental constructs to work with, having to clean those things out of my psyche. Now I just sit or lay quietly.

The way harnessing chaos works is, you appraise a situation and understand the way it is running. Then you imagine the confusion and change, and opportunity to realign it with new ideas and actions, and you mentally apprehend the energy that this would create and direct it onto the environment.

When I was 22 I had an existential crisis. I was disillusioned with myself, and the world. I didn't trust academia, had no idea what to study in school or how to get a good paying job. I didn't know who to be. I laid in bed depressed. Then my spirit guides visited me and as I fell asleep, they said when I wake up, to imagine a new beginning, to imagine that life started over. I awoke and didn't feel burdened by my past. I asked myself what did I know? I decided I believed in God, and that God was love. God made the world, and so the world was love. I found myself open to trusting people. I became curious about everything, and wasn't afraid to ask people questions about life. I became a thinker, and would spend long hours contemplating simple ideas, and meditate on them. Finally, years later, I started studying philosophy. I journeyed through a two year course, and it affirmed a lot of what I had thought about in my 20s and 30s. However, I couldn't understand why it seemed that love did not prevail in the world. I had blamed God, for if God was love, then why do we hate, and why do we diminish others, and why is there violence and poverty and suffering? It too k a few years, and as I went along trying to learn and understand, I was afflicted by demons, and made insane many times. Then one day as I tried to defeat this chaos, it occurred to me that it was the act of desire that was to blame. It was humanity's ability for free will; that we all had the ability to choose. I saw the world then, and still do, as chaos and order, and our ways of responding to it, and how we choose to react. This enlightenment is not much different than what I knew before, but it is the journey of knowing, and then having that knowledge destroyed, and the rebuilding that is important. Now I have my evidence of God, and I understand life and people, and have my peace.

Though it is a nice idea, and I'm sure God appreciates our love, I don't believe that God must love each of us individually as is often suggested by Christianity. God gave us free will to choose to love, and loving everyone unconditionally leads to problems. No, people have to earn love. God too, has the free will to choose who to love, and can you imagine, with the billions of people born throughout history, and all their virtues, deeds, and talents; how hard it would be to attract God's attention and earn God's love?

All we have is life. We have a limited variety of ways to live in life, and we also limit our behavior. What makes life worth living? Are you living to fulfill obligations to family? Are you satisfied? Would you want your life to carry over into the next one? Do you think the environment and laws are the same as here? Do you think the next life will go on forever? If one believes in a God, the idea is that that God is immortal. Do you think that God limits itself? After existing for eternity, do you think God is bored? If there is a God, is it the Creator? If so, how do you think the world is upheld? How do you think the afterlife is upheld? Is it someone's job to take care of these worlds, and the souls that are in it?