Nikeir

Hello, I started meditation in 2018. Because I want too hard from the start I had 3 instances of ego death.I stopped them with pills but they made everything worse.Does anyone know any teacher that can help me overcome the anxiety and fear that comes with ego death ?

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I just used some app I found. Thats why I am searching for a teacher to teach me the right way

Mainly counting my breath and some advanced stuff like erasing my self in my mind

Hi dwai, I practised breathing meditations. I felt like a panic attack (like I lost control) and I used benzos to stop it