Thank you guys, this was following a strange mix of unconscious forces prompting me to get my life in order, kundalini and possibly entities trying to take advantage of the situation by going after my weak spot a.k.a solar plexus which was burning for a couple of days. I prefer not to go into details here to preserve sanity of others.
I thought I was going straight to adrenal fatigue due to intense stress and that was getting me worried, I like to believe that I will mainly deal with trauma here wich is fine I guess, I worried too much that I would be irreparably exhausted.
I was advised to reengage with the world to gain some self confidence back, which is on its way again. I found a buddhist mentor that will help guide me on the path and course correct. I increased my mindfulness during activities and relax more into the pristine background of thoughts. I resumed studying scriptures, all of that calmed things down a lot in the "getting life in order" department.
Otherwise, one thing that remains is fear of lack of energy protection (mostly self-created), I was considering white light protection which is praised by /r/kundalini subreddit, it seems to be working for them. It makes me behave in ways that makes me contract and feel like I am doing something wrong and is quite depressing.
