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It helped me few days back, I wonder if it delays / prevent the necessary build up of tension for the heart chakra area to be cleared out by flowing energy back down. For this I am quite puzzled, I am not confident yet to answer this question. Yes read, also take with a pinch of salt and make your own conclusion It is really helpful tool, if you are interested in grounding / front channel release, regardless.

For information, I have been doing a simple practice from a link I found on an other thread. https://www.aypsite.org/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=3296 It has taken the load off from the heart, no more heart pain, my chest feels a lot lighter from doing this. I still have the brain fog / head pressure issues from energy overload but I am more relaxed and it seems to help digestion also. It helps cope with too much energy in the chest much easier and avoid hypertension. A big relief to have found this.

Sleep is okay between 7 and 8 hours of sleep daily at the moment, I usually sleep right away, yes. I meditated 30 minutes yesterday before sleep, it helped getting to sleep more easily with less pain. I focused on the lower abdomen, breathing deeply without forcing, I will keep doing that for now. While focusing gently on the lower abdomen and not concerning myself with the rest of the body, my breathing is deeper and more relaxed but still constricted between sternum and throat for known reasons. 2/3 times 103 movement form for the day ~30 minutes. Tai Chi helped a lot, but it did not regulate energy in the trunk that much in my case. Yes breathing deeper and deeper, I didn't pay special regards to that, that was the missing link, extra care on deep diaphragmatic breathing. With that in mind I feel confident to practice more as I enjoy it a lot. Wow this is very dynamic, what style is it ? I personally learned alone from watching David Dorian Ross. You seem quite involved and enjoying it too

Hello, A quick follow-up/refresh for informational purpose, stemming from @Sahaja and @ChiDragon suggestions. Lately I stopped all meditation practice, it was a little bit tough due to being attached to it. For now it does not make things easier, I might resume if it gets too hard. Still doing a little bit of Tai Chi. At the moment I am getting migraine headaches and strong heart pain especially before major releases. I have watched videos about Damo Mitchell on Qi Deviations, I was a bit reluctant at first but he speaks about this stuff with appreciable tact, the main takeaway: Stop being introspective with internal practices, instead focusing more the attention outwards using the physical body (walking in nature, going to the gym, biking, hiking,...) and socializing more. Yin anchor not strong enough. To build the anchor, eat dense heavy food, building the body (perhaps even better to build stronger legs). My added ideas: earthing, absorbing moon energy, forest bathing, Yin herbs (any suggestions?). Building the Dantian. All of them could be theoretically be useful for all kind of Qi Deviation, "dragon" sickness, kundalini syndrome, excess Yang Qi rising, etc.. I will see if any of the previous points can compliment / make the process a little easier, by strengthening the foundations while going through it and gaining more clarity on the way.

Thank you but I will leave it on hold. To be honest, I am not sure I can take it at the moment. I hope you will understand.

My disbelief of western therapy and my own one-sidedness got the better of me. Yes, you have keen eye. The disturbance is difficult, at the same time obstructions are almost constantly cleared out thus relieving pressure, so thankfully there is no alarming stagnation.. I assumed the [shen disturbance] / [heart fire] went hand in hand with the process of opening the heart chakra, so I stopped worrying too much about it. I tried grounding the energy doing Hakuin melting butter visualization for 2h30 a day, it went fairly well but it was too much effort only to have it build up again when stopping. I gave up trying to control it and left it to follow its course. That sure is a tough one to digest. I always struggled to be "grounded" on this earth and have not managed to come to satisfying answers regarding this issue. A strong psychic storm blew my fragile foundations and things went out of control. The DNOTS was my starting point so to me, the personal experiential facts of the path are what they are, I can't say about anyone else how it goes, I have no idea. Nowadays I do my best to reinvent my self despite all this. You woke up a deep wound haha... It'll take a bit to settle what it triggered in me, thanks for your honesty anyway.

First, thank you for your reply on this thread and your helping hand. I am not sure there is much to do about headaches / fog / confusion / disorientation when something as significant as heart chakra opening is on the way (I still make room to be proven otherwise though). Otherwise, I don't know. Since I watched this video from master Nan Huai-Chin, I am reluctant to focus on the dantian. I might be misunderstanding something, in which case it's my loss.

Thank you, this is useful.

As a teenager I was under "lower" instincts too, I was no exception. It was probably a LOT less than others though.

I was already glad for your previous answers, no worries. I can't deny anything about that. I was lost and stuck, that's right. I have been guided with lots of spiritual resources which I am grateful for. Now I am trying to make the bridge between spiritual and mundane life (so to speak), C.G. Jung and consequent (personal) dream work has been useful recent addition in this regard. The main stuckness I feel now is devoid of unnecessary stories, I do struggle with living with the intensity of the heart opening still rather disturbing in terms of mental confusion/spaciness/overload but I don't dread it so much any longer (you contributed to my new stance too ). In my opinion, being aware of non-duality creates a great tension of opposites between "spirit" and "matter". At least in my case, it's as if I had to consciously make an extra effort to stay grounded in the mundane/phenomenal world, keeping the "bridge" was harder. I hesitated to edit out the post after posting the negative parts, but I thought it would be better to leave my demons in the light and not falsify what I first wrote. I was about to drop my limiting stories and hold on to my new prospects instead anyways. Curiosity, understanding things deeply, team work, social interactions, nature Balance/middle-ground between "spiritual" and practical life, expressing hidden parts of myself Good to hear for him. I let go of emotional projections I had about my previous field and technology while still keeping in mind how it could be dangerous or even useful, it is out of my control anyway. I tried out of my good will to retrain, I just had no will nor mental capacity to restart from scratch, so I let go. I'm trying for now to find a job that is not too mentally demanding for now that allows room for energy unfoldment. Yes, I realized long time ago, I had no choice but to drop a lot of stories anyway, starting from external ones, moving on to internal ones. This has been hellish, I can't hide it. I would if I could I have some troubles asking for help, not wanting to be a burden or bother others. And in my specific case here, I felt embarrassed to talk about it as someone who went to an extreme without guidance and feeling lost and confused afterwards when coming back to earth.

Due to the sensations shifting when releases occur, I am intimately convinced that this is the result of energy purification. I remember wanting to take an appointment with a cardiologist only to see that they were all booked for months. With that said, I will consider your words of caution. A part of me wants to follow your suggestion, especially if no medication is involved. I can't help but be skeptical especially if the physicians are not familiar with energy symptoms. Might be worth a try. I prefer this approach which seem more plausible to me. I don't know yet of anyone in my area who could assist. Thanks for your input.

I guess this sort of big crisis just happens in a cultivator/meditator life, it forces one reassess things.. Due to energy blockages I found I could not hold a particular concentration technique which seemed only to interfere. I am glad it helped you. For a time I tried different techniques, in the end, neutral awareness and letting go seem to be the best also in my experience. Outside of sitting, I like to practice "allowing" my experience to be as it is when I remember, helps me snap out of negative mind patterns especially regarding happenings in my body or how life "ought" to be. Never been on group retreat, I sit alone. I do have contact with close family though. I meditate only 1 hour per day now so I can focus on attending more on practical life matters like finding a job, learning new things, resuming social life... Vipassana is one technique I am particularly drawn to, sounds good. I will probably give it more time once I get a bit more solid ground in mundane life. Thank you.

I live near Bayonne, but might be in Toulouse one week-end per month to study TCM. Next week-end is 28/29 september, I have not sent my registration yet so it is not 100% sure. I might be there earlier or stay a little bit longer so as to have days with more spare time. This is not confirmed. I will keep you informed for sure as to how it goes, this would be a good opportunity.

Sure, why not, if it's no bother for you. You mean online ?