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1 hour ago, steve said:

Two simple practices could potentially be helpful from my perspective.

 

First practice - opening your heart with the seed syllable HUNG (the syllable in my avatar). Connect to the feeling you have in the heart center. Be open to whatever comes up for you when you connect there. No need to engage or analyze, just experience what is there in the body, the inner speech, the thoughts, and feelings. Sit with that for a few moments and then begin chanting the seed syllable HUNG (u is pronounced like oo in book). Feel the vibration of the HUNG in the heart center. As you sing HUNG, imagine and feel a radiant, deep blue light emanating from the heart in all directions. Repeat this as many times as you would like. When you are finished, stay connected to the heart center and notice if there is any change in how you feel. In particular, be aware of and connect to any sense of openness, spaciousness, or warmth there. This could be a sense of physical warmth but also a sense of comfort, of support, of kindness - for your own struggles and those of others. Rest your attention fully in the openness of the heart for as long as it remains fresh.

I'm a definitely a fan of short mantras/syllables as "formal" ones scares the living out of me due to karmic sicknesses (I put them on hold for a little while..),.

I recently started chanting "OM" freely throughout the day due to vagus nerve benefits and restoring overall balance, I just love the simplicity of it.

I am curious to try this practice, it will probably provide the same benefits on healing the [nervous system]/[vagus nerve].

I also like the idea of visualizing blue with attributes of comfort, of support, of kindness. Sounds grounding and balancing to the yang expanding aspects.

I assume you enjoy this practice considering your avatar, has it personally helped you with the heart center ?

1 hour ago, steve said:

Second practice - sky gazing. Sit or lie down in a comfortable position such that you are able to see the clear, open sky without obstruction. Ideally the sun is behind you. Bring your attention to the heart center. Open to whatever comes up as you rest in the heart. Open your eyes, if they're not already open, and allow your gaze to rest in the open sky. Whatever comes up in the body, inner speech, thoughts and feelings is allowed to come and go without any suppression, engagement, or analysis. Just notice what comes up and continue to rest in the embrace of the open sky. As you feel the openness of the sky, feel the openness in your heart. Notice the distinction between inner and outer and how, with time and patience, the boundary becomes less well-defined. Rest your body, speech, and mind fully in the openness of the sky and the heart. Once again connect to any sense of spaciousness and warmth that may be present and stay with that for as long as it's fresh.

This sounds good as it will encourage me to get outside more . Here the only thing I am afraid of, is to want to the hide away from the vast expanse, but I guess doing it in nature would provide the grounding.

Really appreciate your concern and your helpful suggestions.

2 hours ago, steve said:

Any questions, feel free to send me a PM.

I hope you don't mind having asked a question here. I like to leave things in the open for other folks.
Anyways, thanks for your openness.

10 hours ago, Giles said:

Sounds like it might be an overactive pingala nadi. 🤷🏻‍♂️

 

If that's the case, you might need to find someone who is competent to teach you a serious daily nadi shodana practice.

 

Thank you Giles, I remember doing this more than two years ago, I felt better at the beginning of the practice but then the blockages in my system "clogged up" fast and felt worse.

I will give it a second shot to see how it goes..

Humming "Om" seems to help calm things down on a side note.
 

5 hours ago, johndoe2012 said:

Sounds like dissociation from your feelings. 

 

My initial impression. 

Yeah, there was a lot of that I can't deny, I have been working specifically on this the past few months and will work with therapist to see if anything is left unresolved.

Fortunately, I feel a lot less dissociated although I am still having the aforementioned symptoms of energy buildup in the chest, I learn to go with it anyways. Thank you.

Hello,

I have been meditating a lot for two years, I reduced off from 8 hours daily to 2/3 hours over the course of two months in order to focus on my life, be more independent and less dissociated. During this time I believe, I cleared out a lot of "stuff" from my energy system.

I feel most of my energy working around the heart chakra, like a "lock" in the center of my chest. My chest feels "full" with heat and pain accumulating in the heart, some head pressure aswell along with some level of mental fog. I have felt lots of clearing out of the chest with what felt like (and continues to feel like) dirty chi (feeling of bubbles) pouring out from the feet which happens occasionally throughout the day. Otherwise tension leaves my system as "tingles" (at the crown for example), very different feeling than the "bubbles pouring out".

Pressure keep accumulating in my chest, I do the bare minimum of meditation just to release excesses.
To ground myself: Tai Chi, "earthing" barefoot on backyard, Hakuin soft butter meditation, walking in the forest, I go out in public places like the beach more often.

Theses things alleviate a lot the symptoms, they are manageable.

I am not waiting for a magical fix of course, I intend to take full responsibility for myself. Just interested in your perspective, ideas and any resources I could check out to have a more rounded approach in general.

Thank you!

Hello everyone,

I have been lurking a little bit around this forum as I find topics related to Spirituality quite interesting!

I am dealing with "excess" energy working in the heart at this moment, have been through an extreme of asceticism. Now looking forward to balance my outer-life with inner-life through lifestyle/herbs/practices/therapies/mindset/etc..

I already do some Zhan zhuang and Tai Chi (learning from youtube), walking barefoot. At this moment trying to go back to more social interactions and resuming professional life ("shop wood, carry water"), adapting to my "new" innerlife, going with it.

Might share feedback of new findings or whatnot, cheers.