Majerus

This will seem like a crazy question, but I have tried to visit Rongbuk Monastery in Tibet on the Chinese side four times. I signed up for the trip four times, and the trips had to be cut short and/or cancelled. I've made it to Lhasa twice, and didn't get to go twice. Furthermore, the fourth time (a few days ago) that I signed up for this trip, the earthquake happened a few hours later! The first time was January 27, 2020 and my group was scheduled to visit Qomolungma National Park and go see Everest at Rongbuk, but upon approaching the national park. We were told by the workers at the entrance gate that a new virus had happened and that all tourist sites were closed and we all had to get out of Tibet. Then when Tibet reopened in July of 2021, my boss (in china) forbade me from traveling, even though it was vacation time. So I cancelled the trip and got a refund. Then in August of 2022, I arrived at the Lhasa airport, and IMMEDIATELY upon exiting the airport, we learned that Tibet had had it's first COVID case, and that the city would do the standard lockdowns. So we had to leave Tibet again. Then the fourth time, on the evening of January 7, 2025, I signed up for that tour again and the earthquake happened almost immediately afterwards. I'd say twice in a row would be bad luck. But this isn't right. This has to be bad karma, specific to this region. Furthermore, it seems the consequences keep getting worse. First, everyone's vacation was cancelled. Then People got sick and quarantined. The final attempt corresponded with 126 people dying and thousands of injuries and destroyed homes. I know it's preposterous to believe I CAUSED this, but still, something is working against me here and things just keep getting worse. Well Dharmic faiths have a strong sense of karma, and the Tibetans believe that places are sacred. I have had repeated, and increasingly intense misfortune in visiting these sacred locations. The Tibetans believe Miyolangsangma, a former Bon diety, who rides a golden tiger, lives in Everest. She used to be a demoness, but was converted by (I believe) Milerepa to become a goddess of inexhaustible giving. While I don't believe that an actual Tara riding a tiger is causing scourges to prevent my access to her abode, It really seems like there's a block, and I really want to do this before I die. During the first trip, everyone was merely interested in seeing the giant mountains, and wasn't too interested in Tibetan Culture. So I decided to educate myself on the culture and try again. Then I couldn't even get past Lhasa. Now an Earthquake. It's not for lack of trying, it's because of the proverbial wrenches and pianos falling, which are beyond my control. What do I have to do to absolve this streak of misfortune? I took the money that I set aside for the trip and donated it to victims of the earthquake, via a source that wouldn't be syphoned elsewhere. To those keen on the laws of Karma, and perhaps the law of attraction, what gives? Thanks for reading this.

I'm Majerus. I've studied martial arts most if my life, mostly Kajukenbo, with some Kenpo, Aikido, Kendo and Jiujutsu. For most of my life I was mostly interested in the practical realm of martial arts, but have recently come to appreciate the esoteric realm as well, though I still struggle to perceive them as one and the same. What got me into the esoteric aspect of martial arts were two failed trips while living in China. Or should I say many failed trips to two sacred mountains: EBC at Rongbuk in Tibet and Huashan in Shaanxi Province. Every time I signed up for a trip, or made it to a nearby proximity to these places, something crazy would happen and the trip would be cancelled and I'd have to go back to my city ASAP. I've wanted to visit these places for over a decade and I wondered why I had such bad luck, time and time again, only with these places. After learning about Tibetan Buddhism and the laws of Karma, and the doscovery that matter doesn't really exist, and that consciousness actually holds it all together, I've concluded that it these disasters were not luck at all, but karma. Given, I'm usually a rational person who studies debate and logic, but I'm also no dialectic materialst. I understand that everything we do think and feel has consequences, even if imperceptible to other people. So why just difficulties visiting these two mountains? Well various Tibetan mountains are deemed highly spiritual, with Kailash being the most so. Everest, or Qomolungma in Tibetan, is considered the abode of the Goddess Miyolangsangma. If someone wants to just visit EBC for an Instagram selfie, they'll probably get it. But if they want to view her piously, they must be pure, or they'll supposedly keep encountering misfortunes on the journey. As for Huashan, I lived nearby for 3 years, but could never make it to the town, after about 5 attempts to visit. It's considered a Taoist mountain, and my reason for wanting to visit were to take a friend's ashes there, whom always wanted to visit. I've visited and climbed countless mountains, but none of them special. I doubt a mountain can be "Buddhist" or "Taoist", but I do believe there are special places and these are too examples. Tens of thousands of people climb Huashan every year, but only a minority do so as a profound endeavor. As for Everest, I have no intention of climbing, just viewing, but it's a special place too. Kailash perhaps even more so. I've concluded that if I want another chance, I'll need to become a better person. I'm aware of my vices and transgressions, and know what I need to work on, with the paradox being if I'm just being on good behavior to get a reward, then I'm not really improving. So this leads me to the realization of the lawa of karma. As for Taoism, I've read the Tao Te Ching, but it seems more practical about everyday life. How am I to improve my Karma? Well I should minimize or eliminate vices such as intoxicants and anger and lust. if I can't eliminate a vice, I'll have to manage and cultivate it. As for wrath, I must be more accepting of esoteric martial artists in my martial arts community and understand that inflicting body damage is not always the primary goal of martial arts. I shouldn't drink, or only do so for a toast in moderation. For lust, I should take one nun's advice and imagine a beautiful woman in the future as an old lady. Not that it's always bad, but should be reserved for love. Basically, living like a wrathful rockstar would obviously exclude one from accessing some sacred places. It's a no brainer now, but it took me a while to figure this out. I'm starting to read Buddhist literature and meditating some (though not enough). I need to forget thinking I'm the poor kid who didn't get to go on the field trip. I need to work on being better so that good things can happen to me and those I care about. Anyways, this concludes how I reconnected with my spiritual or esoteric side. Look forward to chatting more. Cheers. Majerus