No, I'm not being escapist, in fact I have a very active social life. And I didn't become a librarian to escape, I did it because I like to help people find information. Perhaps I was phrasing things the wrong way. Perhaps I should ask, how do I practice daoism? After all, this site has a forum for people's practice journals. I find it hard to believe you don't do anything to practice the philosophy. I'm just trying to overcome some bad habits, that's all.