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So it is day three and I am feeling a lot better actually. I mean i still want to smoke but I don't think I physically NEED it anymore

Well, I was down to a half a pack a day before I decided to do this. My schedule is kinda grueling and I totally know what you mean by "need to smoke" versus "want to smoke." The problem with this is once I promise myself one later if I make it so far, or I cut deals with myself I just end up back at square one. I'm a quiet eccentric IRL... if I started yelling at people they would probably have me put away The main thing I'm noticing now is how tired I am... Is there a way to make up for sleep through meditation? I've been looking into it and a lot of it seems like it could work and then a lot of it seems like that might be b.s.

I usually use "Quiet, you." In an attempt to not only quiet the errant thinking but to also acknowledge the separation between my Higher Self and my monkey brain...

I have been looking to Taoism for awhile as an answer to a longing that I've had to know what's going on. I was an Atheist for a long time but I can't really make that claim anymore because there HAS to be something I'm missing. I still don't believe in a personified deity and this seemed like it might make the most sense.

Thank you both very much.

Singing heals my tongue clicking like an obscene clock with no direction