ddilulo_06

http://www.marinko-on-shyness.com/

Does anyone know where I could get that on a bigass poster?

Thanks Trunk "(By the way, "semen retention" refers to when there's been aroused sexual activity, approaching orgasm, but no ejaculation. Saved aroused jing is more problematic than unaroused.)" Oh... I guess I don't want to do semen retention, but no masturbation at all. I actually am refusing sexual thoughts. I don't want to risk arousing myself. "This essay is not about solutions; it's about identifying areas of risk." Do you have any links to articles about how to go about this in the least risky way? I see that 90% stat and I'm somewhat spooked now. Have you gone 100 days?

whoa... what a cool pic!

Revised mine: I earned all A's and B's this semester @ Sierra College I have chosen a whole new level of self-acceptance. Kunlun - I attended a Seminar, gave it my best effort, and completed 74 days of celibacy as if my life depended on it... because it does. (day 74 for me is Dec. 31) I have a great time serving and average 50$-60$ a night.

So it just comes down to self-discipline and focus. I like this quote: "Procrastination is the thief of time" That puts a whole new perspective on things! You guys know what the irony is? While I was making this thread, I was procrastinating on my homework. I'm going to use this: http://dontbreakthechain.com/ Requirements for a red box for me: -woke up @ 7:09 or on another thought out schedule -celibacy -keeping up with my kunlun practice - not being lazy - wise use of time So far, my record is 8 boxes. Hmmm... is this just more procrastinating?

Self discipline is the practice of putting off what you want now for what you REALLY want later on. It's a simple choice in every moment. In my experience, keeping daily focus on the target is essential.

I feel this is appropriate: http://marinko-on-shyness.com/

I only got drunk a few times... it was kinda nice to be able to let go a little, but it makes me feel like shit. I tried it again 6 months ago, and it still sucks. It wouldn't surprise me it it screws with one's energy system, but that's just a guess. The main reason I got into all of this was to be able to have a social life - I missed out on a lot growing up (I'm 20), but it led me here, so I'm grateful. Now, I find if much easier to just go to school and enjoy people. It's working quite nicely. I find myself having the intention to give + play more and more each day, rather than attempting to suck energy from others in the form of approval.

I started a week ago (has it only been a week ) I haven't been to a seminar; I just have Max's book. Here is my journal: http://www.thetaobums.com/Holy-Moly-t7121.html

"One is responsible for one's intention, not for the outcome." "Intention isn't trying; it's allowing."

Are you giving advice that's not asked for? Are you being an ass kisser? Something seems off. Either way, unconditional love does not mean being a doormat. If you take out someone's trash, and they whack you with a bamboo stick, when you don't take out the trash for them again, it doesn't mean you don't feel compassion for them. You need to love yourself FIRST, while understanding they have issues that aren't about you. (assuming you have high self esteem)

My opinion about McCain + Obama is... I don't have an opinion about McCain + Obama.

Hey guys, I am really intrigued about this Kunlun stuff as I have been reading about it for the past few days. I bought the book yesterday and it should be here within a week... can't wait! I'm curious if any of you have noticed improvements or maybe even cured social anxiety with Kunlun. I still seek approval from others to try and satisfy my ego. I care about what others think to the point of building myself into an "approval prison". I notice I speak quietly and I'm too careful not to step on other's toes as to piss them off. I'm self-conscious all the time I'm around others and I have sweaty palms much of the time in situations like sitting in college classes. It's a good day for me if I can just have a good conversation with someone and make them feel good instead of awkward. I'm totally preoccupied with this and I've been like this as long as I can remember. From what I can tell, the root cause is being attached to outcomes. I've been controlling and critical instead of allowing and accepting. I believe this is what it boils down to... I'm looking to see if Kunlun helps with self-acceptance, shamelessness, and getting into FLOOOOOOOOW. So, what say you fellow bumz? Anybody transcended their shyness issues with Kunlun? This forum rocks! Thanks for your responses. Dusty

I'm at college now (Sierra College in Rocklin for you locals) and this seems too gfood to be true... edit: yeah I was hungry while typing this... I'm leaving that typo. My social anxiety for what I consider to be above average levels of social freedom has vanished about 95%. I was going to post this after the first night of work, but I wanted to make sure it wasn't just me being overly excited about my new toy. Now, I 've done Kunlun I only 4 sessions for a total of 140 minutes including close down time and I can state with absolute certainty that I am a changed man. I had A LOT of trouble holding eye contact before the first session of Kunlun. After that one session, I wasn't the same. Now, it is amplifying/deepening to the point where I found myself walking around today with a subtle smile on my face for no apparent reason. I'm noticing people being pulled in by this energy. People are curious or something... that's the best way I can describe it. Don't get me wrong... it's not like I'm at the point where I could go do a Kunlun session out in the middle of Rocklin Road holding up traffic, naked, on national TV or anything. But this is a ridiculously effective way to let go of social anxiety. I'm all smiles now.

All these good reports about Kunlun... I now see why so many are very skeptical in the beginning. I was skeptical as well, and then I did a couple practice sessions. I can't wait till Max comes to San Francisco... that is, if they go through with it. _/\_ Thanks for sharing.

Well put James.

Bingo: IMO, these are the result of a lack of the natural love/bliss feeling. It's a hankering to feel fulfilled again. When one feels so peaceful, they don't need to escape and get high. I think when the old traumas, emotional baggage is purged, and the good ol' feeling of self acceptance and self love comes back, these addictions and unhealthy desires dissipate all on their own.

http://www.thetaobums.com/ddilulo-06-f89.html I would appreciate if some of the experienced Kunluners would take a look at my questions. Thanks, Dusty

Yeah, I'm able to let go more and get into it. 'Tis very cool.

http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/ I was surprised how well it pegged me. I'm a 5. It made some of my egoic tendencies very clear...

Happy big 4-0!

I *THOROUGHLY* enjoyed that title + cover pic. Thank you. Let me share some links: http://www.myspace.com/shelleylubben http://antipornographyactivist.blogspot.com/ http://www.shelleylubben.com/articles/pornstarsspeakout.pdf http://www.marieclaire.com/life/sex/advice...-life-porn-star http://www.pornaddiction.ca/porn-addiction-videos/index.htm I've been too busy (whacking) to fully read all those. (joking) Make of them what you will. Do you guys feel icky after wacking to porn... shame guilt? I do. I've also heard on this board somewhere by a respected member that porn really throws off your energy...

Maybe Chris, Mantra68, should answer this... or perhaps someone on here is *VERY* advanced in Kunlun. I've been reading all the very informative (thank you) Kunlun posts on here and I've see Chris post a few times about direct experience with our divine true nature such as this post: "Beyond physical sensations and benefits, Kunlun can give you direct experience with your divine true nature. In this state answers to many of your questions become clear." I interpret that as it's not permanent. I thought once the ego dies... you're done. No more pain, suffering, reincarnating etc. If followed through to the end, will Kunlun allow one to transcend the ego for good? Does Kunlun induce the ULTIMATE state of becomming the all, like the over-used metaphor of a drop dripping into the ocean to become the ocean? Confused, Dusty