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Thanks for all the responses. "I think" I have gotten a glimpse before: I was severely depressed - contemplating suicide. At the time, life seemed like a struggle, like I was always working and never playing. I had let my capacity to enjoy life dwindle into self-pity and secretly (even to myself) enjoying being the victim. I had been reading David Hawkins stuff at the time (GOOD stuff!) and I had just set my intention to surrender to God. Everything. It was like a mantra, then it became an attitude, and then a feeling. This happened over 3 days. I did nothing else - I was unemployed and to emotionally distraught for college. I would say stuff like, "Lord, I surrender to you. Make me a flute of the divine song. Please, take me home..." etc etc. This is all I thought about for 3 days. My self-created pain allowed me to think about nothing else. After the first day, instead of me doing the surrendering, I began to perceive what "I" was doing as "I" was being surrendered... seemed to be happening spontaneously. Letting go more and more, it was like my consciousness floated up about a foot and a little behind my head and was there... just watching the body do it's thing. It was weird. "I" could "control" the body, or just let it do whatever. Really really weird but AMAZINGLY COOL! That's the best I can describe it. I didn't feel any bliss or funny feelings in my body, by my perception was like... not in my body, while in about a 2 foot radius around the body's head... It was as obvious as looking at an apple and saying "The apple is red." No faith needed. I thought I was "home" but it was just temporary. It sure relieved suffering for the moment though! Does this sound like a glimpse, or something else? Whatever it was....WOW! Hella cool.

Thanks guys. As soon as my Kunlun book gets here, I'm gonna devour it like a prisoner getting out of prison devours pussy. Thanks for the reminder to spend more time outside Yoda... may the force be with you. Spectrum, what the hell is "gung"?

Is this video still in production... just looking for an update.

Thanks Cat, I might play around with it later, but my Kunlun book shipped today. Depending on the response I get from the PM I sent sean, I might get a forum up containing my Kunlun practice journal. Stay tuned! Dusty

I don't have any suggestions as to how to deal with this, (high quality problems, eh? ) but I do have a story: It was my grandma's funeral. The ceremony was about to come to a close. You know those shelfs they slide caskets in to be sealed off from the world forever? This is where my grandma's body was going. The music ceased and they were preparing to stick her casket in a the droor thing to be sealed in with a 2' X 2' tile. Sure, we were all sad, but this cleared that up for a good 15 mins... So the "tile man" pulled out a caulking gun to start sealing up the tile. My brother, mom and I looked at each other funny as this guy and his assistant started to work on the tile... like a construction project. Funerals... are supposed to be classy and polished you know? After they were done with the caulking, they pulled out DUCT TAPE.... "RIIIIIIIIP" was what we heard as everyone was trying to grieve. " I, after battling my laughter, I look to my right where my mom and bro are sitting and I noticed my mom's head was buried in my brother's chest and she was SHAKING... lots of emotion coming out of her. My heart sank and I was concerned! It was when I made eye contact with my brother and he gave me a smirk that I leaned in closer to my mom. She was trying to pass it off as crying, but was almost suffocating from laughter about the duct tape thing as well. I about shit in my chair... We got DIIIIRRRRRRTY looks. One of my best memories.

http://www.mercola.com/ Search on whatever you want to know about. He also has a book out.

Definitely mark me down as "Interested!" If you guys haven't set the date, mid to late December would be perfect - College gets out on the 11th.

Can you tell me what that is, or is it copyrighted?

In the end, abiding in the state of surrender is what I think we all want... but I could be projecting.

So in a nutshell it's seeing how we create our problems more clearly, saying, "That's insane!", and then waving bye bye bye choosing something else. Neato. I just looked at the Kunlun level 1 seminar dates and locations. I'm in Folsom, Ca (20 mins east of Sacramento) and I see there is one in LA beginning on Oct 30. That gives me 27 days from now. I should have the book by late next week. (down to ~20 days now) Couple days to read it (18 days). I need to decide about a week before if I am going to arrange time off work and school. (11 days) My question is how long does the average joe need to practice it to feel something? How long do most people practice before the sun beams down from the parting clouds with angels playing harps and shouting, "WOOHOO!!! THIS IS FOR ME! EUREKA!" $300 (probably more like $500-600 after hotel, gas, food) is a LOT of money for me. I'm only 19 and work in a restaurant a couple days a week. Will I have practiced long enough (11 days) to make a somewhat accurate judgment of if this method works for me? If I don't go to this seminar, will there be a closer one to Sacramento soon? Does Max make yearly rounds or something? Thanks all for sharing so much, Dusty

Some very promising responses here guys... thanks. I don't want BS myself into being "above" needing approval and turn into a narcissist. My intention is to let go of my insecurities so I can enjoy people more instead of trying to get reactions from them. I want to give vs take. My attention is still in the domain of trying to be comfortable with me instead of forgetting about me (self consciousness) and focusing/listening to them and sharing, joking, etc etc. I don't want to thrown off by others' reactions so much, that's all. I don't want my happiness to be based off of how others' perceive me and be so stuck in self presentation. I want to be rooted in happiness whether I'm approved of or not. Me thinks this comes down to self approval/acceptance. Is this just a simple choice? To accept onself, or is there more to it? Do I just need to make the choice to just do whatever, and not worry about outcomes... (read: surrender)? I've found that other's only love me as much as I love myself. And I love others as much as I love myself. It's the same energy, directed in in different places. Please... I keep hearing happiness comes from within... but I haven't really figured this out yet. I think me seeking approval is an attempt at replacing this happiness that I'm not feeling. Does happiness come from sticking to your own principles (integrity), self respect, and self acceptance? Is that what people mean? Or do they mean happiness comes from within when you get out of your mind and somehow feel bliss/connection/fulfillment with "the one" or your higher self... god??? Does removing the emotional blocks with Kunlun help allow this feeling to come forth?

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Hey guys, my name is Dusty. I found this forum after searching google for "Kunlun." This place looks friendly and informative. I'll just be poking my head around about the Kunlun stuff. I'm interested in the personal journals. I haven't bought the book from kunlunbliss.com because I don't know if I want to give the Kunlun thing a try yet. I've been email Chris... (I think he's mantra68 on here???) Read some of his posts and he seems informed and compassionate. The $300 transmission thing made my eyes roll. I hope to find evidence that this practice is worth a $315 gamble. That's why I want to take a look @ the practice journals. About Me: I'm 19 and don't really know what taoism is... a religion? a spiritual practice??? I want to learn more about that and will do some searches. I guess you could call me a spiritual newbie. I've read Power of now, some Osho, Stephen Covey, read up about the Chakras, and my favorite: David Hawkins stuff. I'm a former cultee of Ideagasms.net. (Hi Sean... and Lezlie if she's on here. I was "Big-D" on the Ig Forum... yeah the guy who went "coocoo" ) So... how's everybody doin'?