Cameron

Ok, who else is on Myspace? I have a page but havent done shit with it yet. Everyone on MMA.TV says it is the ultimate booty call service but I have never had good luck with internet dating. Unlike My Dad who has scored with countless woman on the internet. Fess Up!!

That's that therapy talkin' right there champ! Is shorty mac your sister? Does she like the desert? *sips strawberry cream flavor green tea from the Coffee Bean while parusing Sean's sister/friends strawberry colored hair*

Master Yoda and I were chatting and this topic came up. I have actually been thinking about it quite alot lately as I have managed to do retention for around 50 days and noticed some refinement of my energy. Basically what Ken Cohen briefly mentions in his book that " Both Daoism and Yoga compare spiritual wisdom to a sweet and fragrant flower rising out of muddy water. When this flower blossoms, that is, when the mind is clear and serene, you will sense a flowerlike fragrance around your body and a sweet taste in your mouth, like honey." When I met Ken several months ago I actually smelled what seemed to me to be a fragrance like fresh flowers around him. Like the pure, refined qi within actually becomes noticable on the outside. Through the eyes, smell and taste. When I have managed to practice qigong consistenly along with retention I notice a sweet honey or sugary taste in my saliva. Definetly motivating to keep up my practice so I can smell like flowers and have a honey taste in my mouth all the time! Yoda asked what I thought created this and my guess is retention, meditation and qigong together produce hormanal changes in the body producing these superhormones(or something?). Maybe Bill Bodri knows more about these homronal changes. Just wondering if anyone else noticed these kinds of things?

Ok, umm..so I just saw a picture of what appeared to be a red headed guy wearing a woman's nurses uniform with a Red Cross logo..and umm..well... I think i'll stop now and just limit my myspace searches to woman in my area.

And drink green tea and take tao in a bottle. And if you ever get the impulse to go off on Mrs. Yoda or kids do 100 straight hindu pushups first. Or take all the high energy and develop your stand up rountine/open mic night. The crowd will probably start laughing from your crazy high qi vibe alone. Trying to develop a Tantric sex/retention practice and raise kids= Comic gold

I think this is a good opportunity for both of you to "let go" of past grudges and hurts. As I told Sean there are not too many people around working on this stuff in one form or another it is nice to get feedback from other pracititioners. Part of the lessons of eastern spirituality for me have been to be light with yourself and others. Have a sense of humor about yorself. I think Max is a good guy and definetly once considered him a friend. We havent spoken in years despite my attempts to reach out for a friendly chat and that's cool. Max is busy with his life and obviously has strong feelings about what he beleives in and what cultivation entails. I would say Max main fault, however, is not being respectful or acknowledging so much what others beleive in and what others feel is important. I don't think Max does this out of arrogance but he really feels his way is the best way and others are deluded or going to hell for following false paths(A sentiment I have heard alot as a kid growing up Roman Catholic) I love Buddhism. I love the teachings of not being so absorbed in the ego self and caring about others. Doing good deeds for others, not hurting others. But when we get too much into " Lord Buddha said such and such" I think this is a little off track and actually not what Buddha wanted. I think Buddhas teaching, if the actual Buddha really ever existed to begin with or was created by others and given a story, is about finding the truths of life for youself and not falling into dogma. This is the right way and this is the wrong way type thinking. And Sean, I didn't mean to imply one ONLY do emptiness meditation but that it would be important to add the practice for serious long term retention, along with sexual qigong excercises which I do daily. Cam

I sleep 8 hours. Sometimes more. I usually don't do well on 6 hours. Read my cultivation journal for details of the end of my retention attempt.

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That's right Matt I remember reading about nectar somewehre. When the jing is overflowing and fiils the brain and sort of mixes with the higher energies of the head/heart or something. Then this honey or sweet taste fills the mouth. The way I decribed it to Yoda before he told me to go fuck myself is it's like your tasting your energy. Sometimes I taste my energy and it is crap if that makes you feel better oh great green one. Ok, so Matt is the only person to sort of exprerience this? I wonder why more people havent experienced it. Are they doing something wrong. Maybe our thoughts are impure or something?

6 guests, 4 members 0 anonymous members SheepishLord, Cameron, sean, Lozen LOL. Apparently I am not the only one bored at work today? My bad Sheepish is an e guru, Sean goes to work at like 6 PM and Yael screws around all day and acts busy if management comes around

Ok then .I was under the impression he needed to read it first per some agreement or something. In that case no worries.

Sure give me a call. Yes, Ken. I wonder why he never got back to you?

So did he get back to you yet?

Heather Graham better watch her back. http://www.iamimmortal.com/OG/bjgay.wmv

I would be down to goet together for the BJ Penn and GSP showdown. Better get tickets fast though. Actually I asked Sean if he wanted to go to the enxt UFC since I am in vegas anyway but it is totally sold out and you can only get tickets for like $500. In addition, it's super bowl weekend so for me to stay a couple more nights at the MGM Grand is like $1500. I'll watch it on tv this time. But yeah if you want I would like to check a future UFC. Just need to plan it well in advance.

Actually it didn't bug me I was sort of joking on myself. Not really serious or anything. I am all for self deprecation as long as it doesn't venture into blatant disrespect or hate. Having a sense of humor about yourself and life in gereral is very good I think.

Ok, ok Plato. Yes, your right, in a real situation you hit first, hit hard and it is over. I have trained for this a little and one of my Aikido teachers who I told you about years ago always would train that and always say that in a real fight it's over with in seconds. And incendently, yes, in the 2 real street fights I have witnessed, both when I was a kid. First up at NY Military Acadmeny during summer camp for kids with no discipline(the black kids from the Bronx ran a gambling ring, I thought it was a joke until I saw the short black kid with an uppercut like Tyson take out this huge Asian kid who refused to pay him his money, LOL) Then that beat down incedent in the west village I also told you about where a gay man said the wrong thing to the wrong street thug and got severely beat down as I walked by. Pretty much over and done with after the first punch. Realisticically, unless soemone is a college level wrestler or submissions master he isn't taking me down. As one BJJ guy told me my first night of class " your base is really strong" etc. It's a sport. I enjoy practicing it. It also is an awesome workout and builds mental focus, discipline etc just like Matt Furey says in Combat Conditioning. It is also part of my heritage and culture. I used to wrestle my cousin in front of my entire family in White Plains when I was a kid. They would cheer us and it was alot of fun. My father just showed me an awesome picture of my three uncles wrestling eachother as kids in Iran. Most guys love watching there football and basebal I have always loved martial arts and wrestling. Whether it was WWF as a kid or BJJ Mundials now. And I have enver been in a street fight so won't speculate as to what would happen. Like you said i try to always have the intention to avoid trouble to begin with but my guess is all the training I have done have helped me be able to handle myself if that situation ever arose. But if it never did I would be fine with that I don't want to have to chok someone to death or breaking someones limbs. Though my guess is I could control whatever with stand up unless they are really good. Good luck.

Fedor highlight with some behind the scenes clips of him training for Yoda. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-3...7618442&q=fedor

Also, Rosinke, Wand doesn't go to the ground because, even though he is a BJJ black belt, he isn't very good on the ground. His guard is ok and prevents him from getting tapped but he isn't going to tap any top fighters. His teammate, Rua Shogun, who by many accounts is even better than Wand, is really really good on the ground along with crazy stand up/striking. If you watched the last Pride FC grand prix you would have seen Shogun tool Ricardo Arona, a BJJ black belt and Abu Dhabi champion, using a combination of BJJ/grappling and stand up. Saying grappling as a whole is gay is moronic. I guess wrestling, which is the national sport of Iran along with soccer, is gay? I think not considering the act of gay sex is considered a crime under death in that country. Although by your account all the gay Iranian wrestlers and Pahlavans are just expressing there respressed gayness Anyway, none of this is going to prevent the inevatable showdown at Renzo's in midtown that is going to happen between us. Seriously, go in there and start training your minutes way from probably the one of the best BJJ schools in the country. Ask Renzo what he thinks about your grappling and sexuality theories I am sure he will happily debate you.

LOL. Whatever you say man BTW, you are the official DRAMA QUEEN of online Taoist circles And I still think your a pretty entertaining guy no matter what your views and I have no intention of making you" eat balls" or whatever your fantasy. Realistically, there are probably about as many gay men in BJJ as in football, tennis, baseball or any other sport. I just look at it all as martial art.

Fedor and his brother Alex fight! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMBnBudXwUE Sick takedowns.

The problem is most everyone has there own version of truth As far as my personal truth, what I consider important. Well, alot of the things I consider important are probably somewhat wierd to some people so it doesn't make sense to make a big deal about it. Like if I am having dinner with a group of friends. One is a Christian who beleives it all comes down to your realationship with Jesus. Another is a Vegan who thinks it all comes down to not hurting the animals and living off of natural and organiically grown food. One thinks God doesn't exist and it comes down to having a sense of personal courage and not relying on diety for answers. So should I say " Your all deluded it's all about doing qigong and if your a man not spilling your semen!". Everyone sort of has there own style and beleifs and stuff. So, here I am, Mr. Pseudo Tao guy who likes qigong and dabbles in zen and alchemy and maybe a little yoga. I am still just scratching the surface of these practices. Sure I have had my share of cool experiences but I don't think it warrants me saying to someone who doesn't beleive in God that definetly God exists and I have felt her presense. Or tell my Vegan family member that I am almost 100% sure you need atleast some animal protien to be very healthy or atleast strong. If your talking about more personal realtionships, a lover or boyfriend or whatever, it probably would need to get more "real" as the realationship matures. In the people that I have seen who got divorced it seems they just arent on the same page anymore. I don't know if it is about honesty so much as just not growing together and sharing. In more intimate realationships like a marriage it seems to me you sort of have to be open to commincating your feeliings with the other person and sharing your life goals and stuff. And the other person is ideally very supportive of those goals. Like a friends's current girlfirend and I were getting dinner and it just seemed like everything he was saying she was disagreeing with or tearing down. Sure she was being honest but do you really want to be with someone who is always tearing you down? I sure don't. But by the same token probably it is still good she is being honest because unless he is really stupid that will tell him she is not the one to be with long term. Unless he wants to slow torture himself. I want to be around people that are honest with me and critical but in a helpful way. You can critisize someone and tear down there self esteem or confidence or make comments that are helpful and constructive. Lately, I try to give some positive feedback if I have to say something negative. Like, if your really messy or disorganized maybe if you take 1 day a week to clean your house or office or whatever that would help. Or just always put the dishes in the drawer when your done eating instead of being a dick who just goes "your a fucking pig!" or whatever. Sort of be helpful with the honesty if possible. Treat others as you would like to be treated that whole thing.

So I am going through the mass of cool info that is Rmax and I see this add for this 1 day seminar Scott is doing called "The Path" and that it is the culmination of his lifes work. It is a one day seminar from 9am to 6pm in Portland OR on Apr 22. Then as I am scrolling down the thread to see what it's all about I see our own infamous webmaster has already signed up and is going to be there with Lezlie. I am still on the fence about it but if Master Yoda agrees to go it may push me over the edge and get my early bird discount and plane ticket. Though that is highly unlikely since he doesn't like to travel. Seriously, you have until like Feb 1st to sign up with the discount I think this would be a cool opportunity for some of us to meet and also meet Scott. Atleast I know Sean and Lezlie will be there http://www.rmax.tv/thepath.html

http://news.yahoo.com/s/eo/20060118/en_tv_eo/18170

Ken Cohen says the finger lock leads to jing stagnation. Michael Winn says it's bad. Eric Yudelove was a big fan of the practice. End of discussion IMO.