the buddha & the beast

i completely agree with you. i think that the whole "stay with me forever; i need you" thing is very selfish & not @ all real love. real love would just want the other person to be @ peace, with or without the romantic relationship with them. so many songs and movies and books around here are based around this concept of suffocation and insanity with "love"...it's kind of scary.

i think i mainly meditate to see if i can. my "goal" is to attempt it Bcause i'm working on getting rid of anxiety, but i always feel better about my attempts, whether or not the last time works the best. i think my efforts alone are showing "me" that i have more control over my mind.

i had a year left in sociology & ran out of $ so i did a quick free course & became a nursing assistant. i think after i have my baby, in a year or so, i'll go back to finish college...not in sociology, but in education for kids. i joined the bums when i was trying to learn how to manage anxiety while pregnant. this is one thing i've decided to do since. i'm always so worried about doing everything just right for my kid because i feel that they are our future and they deserve a lot of things many of them never get...like i'd love to just sit and listen to a kid's thoughts like we do with each other a lot. anyway, i feel that completing a degree in education is a way i can pay it forward to all of you for teaching me so much. i'll remember, though, that some of my most important knowledge did not come out of a text book!

i know somebody who almost died because of something she did to herself. she doesn't remember anything that happened then, but she says when she came back to, that she felt something inside of her that wasn't there before. i've often wondered what exactly she meant. it was implied that she knew she wanted to live from then on so is this her feeling different energy in herself, now that she knows she wants to be here? or does it mean she thinks something or someone outside of herself gave her more of a will to live? either way, it's an understatement to say how bittersweet one thing led to the other for her. it seems like certain things like death impact people more than they could ever expect...they could be more broken than ever before, but when they face death, they realize how full of life they are.

interesting...i've never heard this theory before. that would be really cool to see a person who only wins his "battles," though i wonder how you know when u'r sure to win.

If: 2 X 0 = 0 2 X ∞ (infinity) = ∞ (infinity) Does 0 = ∞ ? If 0=0 & 0=+ an infinite number of things & - an infinite number of things Then does that mean when we go from seeing the world in duality to seeing one single thing... that we realize that 0 (Nothing) made everything, (instead of "God")?

it's nice 2 meet you; that's 1 reason i joined the bums, 2.

ok i think i understand better now. "understand the other party's points" & "don't wait till you are in a dangerous place to practice" helped a lot...well, i think it all helped a lot lol~but i guess i'll find out next time i'm in a conflict-situation, huh?

well mayB it depends on the person & where they are on their path. if some people improved their life with hope, then that's awsome. but for me, it causes pain...i've been looking @ what my head does that brings me down & it's usually when i put an expectation on how something has to be. i get hurt Bcuz when i do this, i start to need what i hope for. perhaps some1 stronger than i could hope 4 something w/o letting the end result cause them n-e pain?

i like songs that kind of punch you in the face like... ATWA by system of a down a lot of stuff by a perfect circle Crazy by gnralz barkley I Was Walking w/ a Ghost by tegan and sarah Bright Eyes Girl Anachronism by the dresden dolls the Yeah Yeah Yeahs MSI

sounds 2 simple, but i just chew on little ice chips or eat a freezie pop & my heart~burn completely disappears!

TRUTH>on this path, i am home<LOVE ~me flow like water ~me i don't want my life to be something i've already seen in some movie ~me screw my house & this education~you are my teachers & the world is my mansion! ~me an erection does not count as personal growth ~anonymous !MORE LATER!

hey i found this site accidentally but it wuz perfect timing. i've alwaze been very laid back but now, i'm pregnant...and worrying about everything wayyy tooo muchhh! taoism has alwaze been important to me, and the idea behind it is one i've had since b4 i knew "taoism" was a word. i know seeing what others have 2 say here will help me a lot, as i hope some of my words can for you =) o & btw, i'm 24, physically female but androgynous @ heart, & i work @ a hospital. i love adventures, writing, & debating philosophy. thanx 4 reading!

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aw thanx for all the compliments =) ...& as for tea, i've never had a kind i didn't like but my favorite is orange spice with honey.

i've been battling with things like reallly bad anxiety a lot since i got pregnant because i have all these ideas in my head of how everything has to be for my baby. i wuz worrying Bcuz i cared but if the worrying wuz doing n-e-thing, it wuz making things for both me & the baby worse. i am trying to learn how to let go of my expectations for the future Bcuz the future doezn't exist. and when i manage to stop letting my head control me for a second, i realize that i am okay Bcuz i am just in this one moment. An endless list of everything that has to happen in the future: that's extremely stressful for me, but just being in the here and now never is.