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I guess by now one has to ask what does not kill cancer?

Unnecessary. I know the moon when I see it. You are just looking at the finger pointing at the moon.

You want to impose changes to your liking onto every human being. If someone doesn't want that change, he's seen as a problem/enemy by you. That's imposing your will unto others. That's a desire for control - power over men. So there's the desire. And how do you deal with obstacles on that path? Do you exclude your clearly stated desires for changing the world? Are those exempt? Somehow better/special? This is difficult to explain to someone who believes the opposite. If you are in non-acceptance of a part of life, you don't want to see that part as it is, and that makes your perception deviate from reality, or your actions focused on a goal, not on current reality. As I said, difficult to explain, but I've made my experiences. The path to success is very elusive, for it is invisible when looked at. Please read the Dao De Jing. It is full of obvious hints at those seeming contradictions that contain profound wisdom. Negativity will propagate. If you think your mindset will radiate outwards, then I suggest you embody the constructive change you want to see in the world, not your rejection of the world. It is basics even in psychology that if you try to convince someone of your view and you totally reject that person's view, you will not accomplish much. Then you might fall into delusion and believe that force is the way to go. If you want the world to become something that you don't hold inside of yourself, you will lose your center. Ironically, once you embody what you want the world to become, you no longer hold that desire, because you are content within yourself. And then - surprise - the world changes. Then I guess everything's fine in Iraq now. Because ... you know ... there's no backlash. There's no hatred bred through warfare. Also: Answer me this question: Who/what is it that calls someone "enemy" here? What makes someone into an enemy? And why? Apparently you never internalized any of the spiritual basic teachings, otherwise you wouldn't be stuck at the very beginning where you think that the world can be healed through force and warfare. Right now, you are qualified to be a politician; certainly not a buddha. Be aware of the logical fallacy you did here, for that is part of misunderstandings. Accepting the world as it is now does not mean becoming corrupted. Accepting the world as it is begins with dumping that extreme view that "The whole world is Corrupt", because then you reject the reality of uncorruptedness in the world and cannot act based on that. It means that everybody is your enemy. (This reminds me of a funny scene from The Venture Bros. where the Monarch was talking about his "war on everything". Very according to this here, he's an arch-villain and a comedy/tragedy figure.) I've heard something that makes sense to me: Personal success in this life depends on how well we can relate to others. EDIT: Judging by your aim (an alleged realm with mind-only beings), your mind is troubled with the bodily. That means that the problem resides in the mind. Still your mind and the bodily will be alright. Then your mind won't hold onto unhealth in the bodily anymore. Did you watch the video I linked? If not, please do!

The latter is what drives tyrants. People only in for their own selfish reasons are operating more in the background. You are 'on a mission'. But look at historical examples of people aiming at what you are aspiring to. Look at what fate meets them. And then look at people that work on themselves, that are modest. Mere history should be suitable for guiding you on the way of happiness, peace and prosperity. ... How can you reconcile your state of being on a crusade against desires and at the same time embody grandiose desires? You are extremely driven by desires to transform the whole world because you cannot accept the world as it is. But that way you exclude yourself from the ability to transform the world. You first have to accept it as it is before the universe allows you to influence it. With rejection you separate yourself from it, and all you can add to the world then is your perceived problem, not the solution. Fighting something makes it stronger. I am thankful that life taught me those lessons. In another thread, someone posted a video that is suitable for this matter, too. It is about how our mind gives power to and creates problems. Maybe it can inspire you. I think you are struggling with a barrier like that.

@hagar Thank you so much! That video describes, explains and clarifies the barrier I experienced, and I remember very well now how I have been shown that message. I kept making myself miserable, and ayahuasca allowed it. I could vomit on command. Whenever I believed that there is something I have to purge, there would be, and I felt miserable. And that repetition and misery wore down my defenses, my mind's will, and I became sick of feeling sick and gave up the empowering of the problem-perception. Now I practice not giving energy to that mindset.

The average European Christian churchgoer might spend their time in church with grave subservience, intimidated awe and self-guilt.

Thank you for your contribution, Don Vedo. I am hesitant to write extensively on this now, since it glosses things over with intellectualism. But judging from certain unmistakeable signs I received, I have to assume that this huge fear-barrier is just sending out bullshit in order to preserve itself. (If not, then it would mean that I was confronted with some extremely worrying truths about reality that would make anybody sick in their guts for all eternity.) I'm quite sure now that crossing that barrier will only leave me better off and will not remove any part of me that I might miss, that goes against those aims in my life that I know are 'good'. Or maybe not, haha. Maybe what happened is exactly what I wanted to happen. - Anyways, I had a vague feeling that what that frightening threshold is related to is a huge blockage in the area of my lower dan tien. Too big of a chunk to be relased in one piece. Almost felt like some kind of anchoring to normal reality, but as I said, at the same time there was a very vague suspicion that this is just a defense of a deep fear, and that was in parts because it felt as if my head needed work in order to release that. As if there is a program in my mind that creates that blockage in the abdomen. (Could be self-preservation itself though. I guess if the ayahuasca spirit senses that there's an opening for 'complete awakening', it won't see any reason to consider that undesirable.) Ah... you see... still no idea. It is a tiny bit frustrating that I couldn't find anybody to talk to who has passed that kind of barrier. I had four psychedelic ayahuasca experiences now, and I touched that or a similar barrier each time and shied away. I would have preferred either a much more fierce approach that doesn't leave me a choice or a more gentle one that enables me to get used to the feeling and slowly erode the fear. Nevertheless, all experiences were helpful, healing. The ayahuasca spirit surely is a wise one (if not ultimately wise) and when you think you failed, you have no idea. It feels as if ayahuasca's wise circumventing of control issues is already a kind of healing. I experienced that if I tried to prepare for breaking that barrier in order to be more successful next time, that, too, is a control issue of the mind and ayahuasca sent me in another direction towards the same target, and again I was relatively unprepared and freaked out. I will heed the advice of one of my teachers and try not to be greedy.

Makes sense, since Qi Gong is about drawing in energy from the environment. This is probably a good example for the usefulness of Nei Gong. (Or maybe not. Maybe the problem is openness in the wrong direction in both cases.) Haha, that's an awesome way of showing people. Very playful, subtle yet direct.

"Okay, the Moon is 14% bigger than usual, but can you really tell the difference? It's tricky. There are no rulers floating in the sky to measure lunar diameters. Hanging high overhead with no reference points to provide a sense of scale, one full Moon can seem much like any other." It is not explicitly said, so I can only assume that they mean 14% larger diameter and not 14% more surface area of the 'disc'. That should be noticeable.

I think rarely any trees are cut down for books anymore. One factor is a high degree of recycling, another one is that paper can be made from substances that don't originate from trees. (Not sure about the details though.)

@tulku Be aware that you are displaying a classical mental development process of a future tyrant. It is very clear from your statements. It is like your intellect is a wild beast driven by pain it cannot handle, in a control-frenzy, grabbing spiritual statements, using them as weapons, throwing them at people. You might be farther away from spiritual awakening than anybody you perceive as unawakened. You cannot see depth, because your egoic mind is grabbing everything and holds it tight, preventing it from sinking in and revealing its profound wisdom. It's a defense mechanism. The mind knows that there's good stuff in those things - stuff that can remove those parts of the mind that are a creation of fear. You are driven by inner demons, and as is very common in a state like that, the inner demons will distract from themselves by projecting demons onto the outer canvas. Maybe with the passing of 2012 you will stop posting here. That would make 2012 a truly wondrous and spiritual year. Relax and don't take life so serious. Allow yourself a long vacation from unease. Focus on the positive things in your life. We create reality, and problems are there because people feed them energy. If you feel unable to focus on positive stuff, doing less will accomplish more. Then may I call you out on your crap contained in the words "I feel I have a duty"?`

This technology has the potential to further widen the social gap. People who dedicate their life to amassing great power/wealth for the sake of it will be able to greatly prolong that course. I think humankind has more use for technologies that strengthen the wide base in society. Healing comes from balance.

I noticed a slight ringing in my left ear. Not sure when it started. I noticed it a few days ago. Sometimes I have the same ringing in the right ear, but only for a few seconds. I did a lot of detox on all levels recently, combined with pretty healthy diet, so I'm a bit surprised it occurs now. One idea I have is that maybe all the ayahuasca tripping I did left me with too much energy in the head. Can that cause tinnitus? And what about the one-sided thing? The same ear sometimes also makes audible blood pumping noise when my pulse and blood pressure is heightened. I feel magnetic energy in my head almost all the time now, at third eye and crown. I am doing a lot of belly breatching, focusing on the lower dan tien, and sometimes just putting my palm on the third eye and elbow on the chest, trying to redirect energy somehow. But I can't really get the energy to stop doing its thing in the head. And this condition has been there for quite a while. It's just that recently I noticed the tinnitus and the energy feels stronger. And sometimes it's not there for a while, no idea why. If you are good with TCM, please ask if you need more info. P.S.: I've read http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?/topic/13918-medical-treatment-of-tinnitus-ringing-ears but it didn't help that much.

Thanks. It's still a bit strange though that I notice it now, after making some positive changes to my lifestyle. Also, I did some 5E standing and other Kunlun system stuff, and the sound is still there, and only on the left side. Maybe I should ask my TCM practitioner. Got a massage appointment, and she also does acupuncture.

Hmmm... I still have sympathy for the Kunlun system. Max said that about listening to the sound? On one hand I don't really like the idea of the sound getting louder, but if it really can help loosening up back of neck and shoulders... that's a problem area, so I could use that a lot.

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Yeah, for some reason I didn't form thoughts like that. I simply tried to handle the fear. But to some degree I entered the experiences with questions and aims, but didn't get any message. The only communication were the visions with the frightening implications. I guess at that point I was too scared to form questions.

I wrote an account of my recent ayahuasca experiences and it didn't feel wise to write it down, because it's probably highly metaphorical. I remembered some stuff from the earlier ones, but it's the same stuff all the time and I can't make much sense of it. Other people keep talking about how they are shown messages that make sense to them, make them know what to do or recognize the source of a problem, but in my case, it's not like that. All I can do is not focus on any impression, but only on the outcome, and cultivate that. It's almost as if the plant tries to force me into total awakening, and I'm not ready for such a big step. I mean... surely I have a lot of stuff I can work on, but why am I confronted with the same stuff all the time? Is nearly everybody else past the barrier in me? Do I have to break through that extremely frightening barrier before I can receive 'more ordinary' help for living a good life? But it's not like there is no stuff I can take away from the experiences, it's just confusing that no-one seems to be able to give me advice based on my experiences - that it's so unlike anything I've read so far from other people. If I take the things I saw and felt as purely random, only serving a specific purpose, then I can only guess that I have to resolve an issue of being torn, being between two worlds. Who knows... maybe I have to cultivate what I have learned in normal life a lot and reach a breakthrough there, before the ayahuasca visions change. Maybe the plant won't help me with specifics unless it knows what direction I want to go. (Not that I don't know, but another direction might be active less consciously.) Seems there is an imbalance between mind, heart and root. When root and heart are strengthened, the mind can handle more profound insights. So far, I used my powerful mind to dig into the very basics of reality, and despite repeated attempts to overcome the fear connected to it, I failed. I don't even want to talk about the details anymore, because it sabotages my attempts at restoring balance. Now I actually understand the words I spoke to the coordinator: "I see too much. I have been shown everything. I just wish I could forget all that." Let's just say that the colorful dreamer-buddha I saw and called 'the source' was only something my mind could deal with. There was a wholly different level I dug into that was so frightening that I chose to forget about it immediately after the trip. And the recent trips made me remember what it was, but it was still very frightening, and the step coming after that - total self-annihilation - was an impossible barrier in that state. I don't intend to do any more ayahuasca soon, and the same probably applies to other psychedelics. It is unhealthy to (want to) know more than you can handle. The mind should only be used in tandem and balance with the heart. So I realized that there is a profound difference between 1) hearing a statement and deeply BELIEVING it to be true, and 2) KNOWING it is true. Once you attain deep knowledge of a truth, your mind can't fool itself about it, and if the implications of that truth are harmful for the ego or for fears you can't get rid of, then it becomes frightening. Here's an example: You might think that seeing the future is an awesome gift, but if you KNOW that what you see is the future, the implications of that can mess up your whole view on reality and scare you shitless. ... I admire people who are confronted with death in their ayahuasca experience and are ready to face it. (Because it's like in a dream: You don't know that it's 'just psychedelic'. It only works if you are actually ready to die.)

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See fate more as something that is predetermined, that is already there, but your physical being, with your mind, you are obeying the flow of time, so you don't see this. You are still part of the the whole creation. How can you not be responsible for something that is your own creation? Responsibility is a bit of a limited idea here. Look at it like a movie: You buy the movie, and it is already complete. It has been played out to its end and recorded. But still, while you are watching it, the actors acted, although it was all predetermined. Now would an actor deny any responsibility for his participation in that movie just because he followed a script? Relatively lame comparison, but it's difficult to catch the essence with the mind. If you decide to act totally irresponsibly based on the idea that everything is predetermined, then that will be predetermined. If you decide to act responsibly, that, too, will be predetermined. But that doesn't mean it has happened already. Happening is something that only exists in the realm of time. I guess the point is: Enjoy your illusion of freedom of choice. It is totally valid, because it is embedded in an environment that is an illusion, too. You know, applying my ayahuasca experience to your idea, it was like when you start having the idea that you don't choose your actions freely, the universe will continually slap you in the face until you start believing you do. The mind is designed for a limited purpose, and trying to apply foreign concepts to it is not skillful for ordinary life I guess. Maybe 'enlightenment' comes naturally when you use the tools given to you for their intended purpose. Life is for living. Do your best with that. If there's other stuff after life, you'll be given proper tools for that, and those then define how to act.

They are similar in that they are both third eye breathing, but they are profoundly different in approach. (Also, only RP 1 is that, RP 2 and 3 are other stuff, involving the whole body.)

How about: Your fate is already decided and you bear full responsibility for your actions. How can you see stuff in your dreams when you are unconscious?

I found something ironic on that website. Read this story: http://kunlun-tao.com/2010/09/a-journey-called-life/ and after that check the sponsors at the bottom of the page.

Can you provide evidence for that statement? No, since nobody can know what you remember and what not. So the statement can neither be proved nor disproved. And apart from that... The thesis didn't go through a beer review process.