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Thanks again. I had one beer tonight. It was enough to tweak me into depression and despair. No alcohol for a while, full stop.

Okay, have booked an intro counselling session for Thursday. Saw my family today, caught up with my brother, then went for a swim and cooked myself a good meal (Chilli con carne, and boy I made it hot..). Seeing some friends tonight and not drinking any more than one drink over the course of the evening.. I am hoping to start "Unwinding the belly" in conjunction with the counselling. I can feel that layers of my abdomen are constantly tense and can prod around and touch feelings of anxiety and fear in there. ACT - is this something you can do by yourself, or does it involve having a therapist trained in it?

Sincerely, thank you to everybody for posting. Its hugely appreciated. Just told my family what I am going through. It was unpleasant but necessary. Finding a counsellor tomorrow. Thanks again.

Really useful replies, guys. Thanks. I got circumcised four years ago. Its a psychological/stored trauma thing that needs releasing. Unfortunately, this breakup, living alone, and having taken psychotropics has made this very noisy to me. Vortex - "Sexual blocks could easily arise from bad sexual experiences or vows of renunciation in past lives, for example." - I've thought this before. However, I've had bad sexual experiences in -this- lifetime. Not in the form of abuse, just in the form of having negative first experiences of sex due to being unable to feel anything and learning to expect disappointment! Is Mak_Tin_Si open to being messaged, do you know? CarsonZi - Yeah, I feel quite afraid of altering my consciousness. Even 10 minutes of IAM meditation is enough alteration to cause gut-level panic reactions. Funnily enough I joined the gym last week. I need more hobbies to distract myself from the self-analysis trip also. Anything to do be done for the Iodine? I had a blood test today so that will pick up any Thyroid discrepencies (and hopefully none of The Hell Creator, The Happiness Castrator)! Is there like.. a good breathing exercise I can do to ground and release?

Hi Carson, "Shit". Yeah, 2-CI has been taken three times in this lifetime. The last time was probably a year and a half ago. There was some other 'legal high' from a headshop last summer though, combined with kratom, weed, a box of wine, vodka, etc., led to a scary month afterwards... I saw the ex yesterday which bought up a load of stuff for me, went to a friends afterwards and blazed through a few joints also which does NOT help me, I am realising. Letting that one go. Help at all?

Hi, I'd like to make a friendly casual hello, but my reason for joining this forum is actually in seeking assistance with some serious energy burnouts. I essentially feel disconnected from myself. I feel anxious, stressed, depressed, vulnerable, insecure. Mentally I am obsessive, self-analytical, self-critical. Physically I am getting back pain, leg pain, erection difficulties. Now.. I'm seeking professional help; getting blood tests, getting physical ailments checked out, seeking therapy, etc., But if I could explain a little background, perhaps some of the people here may have some suggestions of practices that might help me to recover from all I've done to myself. I am seeking practices to ground, to release the unconscious material I've bought up through abusing practices and substances, to BALANCE, to actually feel a degree of peace in my life. I'll go to someone trained for therapy, but suggestions of useful practices to help fix the energy body would be appreciated - at the moment it is borderline psychotic. Is this a 'safe place'? Thanks, Jack

Thank you for the replies, Yoda and apepch7. Thanks for the advice, apepch7. I've posted somewhat laboriously on everything at the following thread. Any advice welcome: http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?showtopic=9365 Thanks Jack

Hi Carson, You know me already from the AYP forums - my handle there is Jack - who would have thunk it? OK, I will make a thread.. will post the link here when done. Jack