Vajrahridaya

I honestly think Europeans give it up easier, unless they're in NYC. There's just something about NY that makes women want to have sex?? No matter where they're from!

HAHAHA!! Not the nicest place to have a Kriya! My wife loves this video! I sent it to her years ago and she's been a fan ever since. I've seen Krishna Das live both in Clearwater FL, and in NYC a couple of times and have wonderful experiences every time. There's just something about that mans voice that transports one into various altered states of mind. My most powerful experience of him was in Clearwater FL. I had a lucid vision of Neem Karoli Baba sitting next to Krishna Das throwing "Blue Pearls" into everyones heart. My head went back uncontrollably as the kundalini just ravished my body and my spine, my eyes streaming with bliss tears and my throat gargling like a baby. Needless to say I couldn't chant for a while due to the immense energy coming through taking over all my faculties. !!

What Sunya said... Yantra Yoga By the way, Love the Avatar! I happily lost myself in it for a while. Besides, I'm a big fan of paisley ever since I was a little boy.

LOL! Thanks Kate... very sweet of you.

No need, it happens automatically. BS.

Ah, that's why you mentioned him in the beginning. Got it!

Awesome! Thank you! It's so awesome the way you've written this and I can completely understand every aspect of your intentions through this writing style of yours. I also have friends that took philosophy at NYU and Columbia and I can't mention the amount of times I've burnt the nighttime candle to the mutual rapt attention of both me and others, sharing beautiful energy through words and deepening insight all night long without placing everything in the perfect place for an English professor to degrade. Because?? All of us were into Tantra more than philosophy. We used philosophy as a way of expressing Tantra, not the other way around, or completely dismissing Tantra as these guys do as fantastical thinking. There are also plenty of philosophy professors who think along the same lines, completely dismissing the view of these guys here in this thread. I can name so many of them. Including my own Mother who teaches "Womens Arts and Spirituality" as well as other Art classes at Eckerd College in St. Petersburg, FL. I also love Nasrudin stories... I grew up with those as Muktananda and Gurumayi used so many of them to deliver points.

Just like you do to me buddy. How do you like it? You call everything I say circular, and blind faith, and I'm a victim of religious hierarchy. It goes on and on and on. Seriously. Look at yourself and the things you've said to me and how mean lots of it is. You are completely blind. It's quite astounding actually. I laugh many, many times at how dumb it comes across. I am not bashing others by stating my opinion of Buddhism, which is also backed by the major philosophers of Buddhism, including the Buddha. If you take it personally, then that's just you, getting your panties in a bunch. You can't take criticism of religions. We have to all huddle together and say they all lead to the same place and are all the same otherwise we get bashed with personal attacks about lacking logic and reason by people like you? It's dumbfounding, how locked in your myopic interpretation of my words you people are and you don't stop. You just keep attacking and attacking and attacking. I'm saying all this with a smile too... you're probably thinking that I'm seething right now. But I'm not... I'm just amazed at how dogmatic some of you guys are but oh no... it's me who is dogmatic. Dogmatic is limited thinking, and you guys are plumb full of it. You guys should be more agnostic, but your not. You're so sure about your take on things. I question my take on things endlessly... all day long. You haven't even come to an understanding of why the Buddha and Milarepa and Nagarjuna say that most paths merely lead to higher rebirth, but without insight into dependent origination as exposed by the Buddha, there is not true liberation from fixed views. I believe this, based both upon logic/reason and direct experience through tantric practice and meditative contemplation. This is very real to me, but your opinions are not. Just like what you believe is very real to you, but my opinions are not. Blah, blah, blah!! Seriously... move on!! Just do it... please. I enjoy writing with some people on here and I enjoy talking about Buddhism. You guys are in a Buddhism thread where someone asked specifically Buddhists about Buddhism and you guys are ruining it by attacking me with your pompous nonsensical projections. Get a life!! Also most other threads where I appear are ruined by your constant attack of me. People who don't like what I've had to say just don't respond generally speaking. But you guys are as if I had a tail that was attached to my spine. Every word I use that gets underlined by my Windows 7 word check, I look up and yes sometimes I use creative approaches to words. But, many times you have said things about words that you use which I did look up. Many times it is you that are completely wrong about my word usage. That's me dude... which doesn't mean I'm going to turn in a paper to a pompous dogmatic thinking professor who thinks like you and use the same creativity in words. I don't care about your linear minded BS and your take on my writing. Plenty of people love my style of writing, including my PHD mother. So just go put your finger in a socket because you'll get more open reception from that than you will from me concerning your personal opinions of me. I am not humble to your person, or your way of being. I am not open to you. Just as you are not open towards me, at all. So... move on! Be like Blasto... he's smarter than you in this sense. He just moves on, for the most part. I haven't heard a word from him concerning anything I've said until recently after he gave up on me last year. You are so freakin' pompous dude. Really... you actually are. It's in your tone, it's in your mental dogmas which you are totally clueless about. Your view of me gets red marks all over it. You flunk big time!! Do you get some kind of pleasure taking out your hate of Buddhism on me? I don't hate other religions and I even quote plenty of times from all sorts of saints from other traditions who I deeply respect to prove points, and positive ones about these other traditions which lead to incredible states of consciousness, but not complete liberation to me, the Buddha, the Dalai Lama of which I've read directly from some of his writings even though mostly he's a political figure who is deeply friendly towards other religions, just as I am in person. You guys find so much power in judging me, when all I've done in the past is talk about Buddhism as it states itself, as the superior path to liberation as it is consistent and clear. To me and many other Buddhists this is so, but not you... fine. Move on. So now... I am judging you... very much so. I don't really care if you don't like my writing style... this is absolutely your opinion. I write on here in much the way I talk, spontaneous and coming up with words as I go along sometimes placing them in the wrong place. I don't have to be perfect on here... not every thing I write has to pass your super professorship pompous perfection. Go read your books, but judge someone elses writing, someone that actually wants their writing to be judged by you. My mind is closed to you people, yes, closed, shut. I contemplate everything to myself and learn anything I can from you guys from there, but you will never know about it. You guys ruin thread after thread with your attacks of me. So many times, it's just because I mention the word emptiness and dependent origination. Just for mentioning the words, you guys jump down my throat, over and over again. You guys are blind man... really. It's like you guys have those horse blinders on so that you can't see anything other than the narrow view of the path you've been walking on for years. It's true what they say, that the brain looses it's ability to change as you get older. You guys are definite examples of this fact. You have fixed views about me, totally misunderstanding dependent origination and anything I have to say about it, much less the Buddha or anyone of greater importance than me, who I agree with. Wow... Bricks in the wall. That's about as much compassion as I can muster for you ralis. Please, get done. I've begun to think of you guys as my demons or something. Not a very happy thought. At times, it's like I can feel when you read my stuff and the energy is so murky and stuffy, and I get online and sure enough, another ridiculous response with little understanding of anything I've said. Other people can understand the things I've said, but because you can't... it must be my writing style, because oh my, it doesn't fit within the small scope of your mental receptability. Yes, I made that word up, get over yourself.

Yes, this is very true! Ok... time to cuddle with my wifey and watch some comedy! I'm sure you use Om Namah Shivaya? I have a shawl that says Om Namah Shivaya on it all over and it's yellow that was blessed directly by Swami Muktananda a year or so before he took MahaSamadhi. I use it every time I do my sitting practices. I have a blue wool one blessed by Gurumayi as well. Plus I have a little chunk of carpet one foot by one foot that was in Muktanandas room in Ganeshpuri before they took down his old room back in 95' which I sit on, or put my chanting books on when I chant. It has Om Namah Shivaya vibrating from it. Anyway... I was just going to say Om Namah Shivaya but decided to share more... hehe! Om Namah Shivaya, still one of my favorite mantras even though I mostly use Om Ah Hum now or Om Mani Padme Hum. I sometimes use all 3 at the same time on repeat high speed within my body, running it up and down my spine and during making love with my wife. Actually, without mantra, I can't pull back my ejaculation. It's only through mantra that I'm even able to do this. It's pretty cool! Wonderful trick. My dear... you are a great being. But, I also know these feelings of mortality and residual fears even though I've had so many past life experiences and have had visitations to higher lokas, and beings from higher lokas it's still a nasty and very deeply ingrained samskara that pesters my conscious mind from time to time. Sometimes for an entire day. Like 2 weeks ago, I felt it so intense, that it felt like my body was going to dissolve and I felt the numbness of a heart attack on my left arm. I felt so floaty and vulnerable and I felt like my thoughts were so loud that I was hurting everyone and I felt like every thought or look from people was making my eardrums hurt, just thoughts were making my eardrums hurt and peoples looks at me felt like they were cutting through my entire body. I finally just had to cry in public, good thing I was wearing my shades as to not bring any more attention, but this crying was surrender to the cosmic process and was filled with great spiritual energy. I saw white light everywhere and I felt like my water element was being purified. Anyway... as you know the practices make me more deeply fearless, that's for sure. I just haven't fully died to death yet. I hope before this life is over that I do. As well as you my dear. Remember that every time you experience it, you get a closer view of it's nature, so through contemplation your wisdom should shatter that dream of a mirror... eventually. NOW!! Take care Shaktimama!! I know I probably don't hold a candle to your level of experience and I always feel a little intimidated talking with you. But, I thought I'd share just to let you know that you are not alone! Big fat kiss on your mortality samskaras... may they be healed!

Thanks bro, I have tons of Muslim friends. They're great friends of mine and their moms or wives can cook like WOW!!

Sometimes my skin smells like sperm after a long hard day of work, or after intentional sperm retention for elongated periods of time. I guess it's just because it's being reabsorbed into the body. But, I've never smelt a women who's skin smelled like sperm unless it was my lover and we decided to take the day off and bath in each others sexual excretions. HAHA! I know my skin has definitely smelt like female sexual excretions plenty of times in my straight male life. Drew would probably call me a pervert for such things... Which is fine with me! I like you Shaktimama... by the way. Sometimes I think I connect with you and I get really blissful and see blue light everywhere. Thanks for being a great person!

It might not be. But, yogi's in Tibet sit in Full Lotus sometimes for many days at a time without laying down for sleep while they are in caves. They actually make little hay filled wooden boxes with just the bottom cut into the Earth that is tight enough to keep them in their position and they just sit and sit and sit. These guys though don't eat much at all but a bit of barley and yak butter during these extra long retreats of 3 years, 3 months, 3 weeks and 3 days. I don't know many of the specifics as I've never done a retreat like this, but plenty of my teachers have. But again, they are exceptional people.

I'm not very impressed with your own lack of self questioning. Quite sad in fact. I think all of you older people need to realize that us younger people are far deeper and more spiritually experienced due to being both "indigo or diamond children", just due to the time we are born into. We deal with far more psychic phenomena just naturally and see far more beyond the 5 senses while you old people just sit in your dusty jars, completely stuck in your Earth bound rationality. Not all old people, but definitely you guys. Also not all young people deal with 6 sense and 3rd eye phenomena on a constant basis, but most of us definitely do. Get off your rocking chair guys... or rather, just stay on your rocking chair, but get a life guys. Seriously. You have no idea what you're talking about or what you are dealing with here. I am not a fundamentalist. I just see as the Buddha said, that Buddhism has a particular special place in all world religions. I think all spiritual traditions are good and worth while. But you guys are under the weight of so many ignorant presumptions concerning the nature of experience that it's almost completely a waste of time to even debate with some of you. Just as you think it is to talk with me. So, just ignore me... it's better than looking as foolish as you guys look right now. ~ SORRY FOR THE OFF TOPIC DISCUSSION HERE ~

At least this is partially compassionate of a post towards me. Thank you. Though... you are still highly assumptive and Earth bound.

Definitely off your rocker. I am truly amazed!

You people are truly amazing. Not in a good way though. I'm sure there is more to you people than these far gone reply's. But, definitely not for me. :lol:

Just so you know, I made 395 tonight pedicabbing. I make anywhere from 500 to 1000 a week here in Ft. Lauderdale as a pedicab driver only working 4 to 5 days a week. In NYC I made more. My Ebay account was pulling in 80,000 to 100,000 per month, but mostly client money. I made anywhere from 5,000 to 10,000 a month as my own profit after shipping and paypal and ebay fees, but I worked 12 to 16 hours a day, sometimes 24 or more hours a day just to keep up. Last December my wife had to help me big time with shipping and I was going crazy dealing with all this responsibility on my own. I found very little time for practice, even most of the time I was just thinking about my business so was loosing focus. I also found very little time to get a good nights sleep as I could feel when people were writing to me from over seas, so I would wake up constantly in order to write back to people who had to know answers to their questions immediately!! Otherwise I would most likely miss the sale. I'm connected to wonderful warehouses in Brooklyn and Jersey City and I sold high end electronics through the GBP or UK currency which is worth more than all other currencies in the world. I mostly sold Archos devices and pocket cameras of the newest and highest quality to people overseas. Most of my ad's were in the UK based ebay site. A few in Spain and Italy, but Italy is bad to ship to so I dropped that. I would use online translators to translate what I wrote in English into Spanish and sell through the Euro on my European accounts. But, due to the fact that I just sat in front of the computer, I got fatter and fatter. Plus Paypal started putting large reserves on my incoming money which got in the way of profit due to their own probably well deserved paranoia. They eventually shut me down because I was pre-selling and didn't have items on hand. Instead I was basically advertising for these warehouses and making lots of profit through the sales. Paypal doesn't like that so they started putting high reserves cutting directly into my profit. At first they said that they would take it off after a month, but after the month rolled by, they didn't take it off, but kept it going, eventually ruining my business. The details involved are complicated as I was also using my mothers Paypal account and my wife's Canadian Ebay account while selling from Florida and advertising over seas. It was just too much for them, plus business was booming due to my ability to undercut most of my competition in the UK because they pay exorbitant amounts for high end cameras and Archos multi-media devices. Also, my incoming money grew way to drastically for them to feel comfortable with my sales. I started slowly just selling things around the house and out of storage in order to get a high enough feedback to advertise overseas and sell more highly priced items. I went from a couple thousand in one month to 50,000 in incoming money, mostly client money, but they don't really see that, they just see... "money" and how much was coming into my account and how much I was just transferring directly into my bank account. Since I had 100 percent positive feedback, they just made calls and asked questions, but they would only talk with my Mom or my Wife which made things even more difficult. Deeply difficult in fact as they had no idea how the business was being ran and I'd constantly have to remind them of details while they were on the phone with paypal people, which made it even more difficult for them to feel comfortable. Anyway... with all my knowledge and connections concerning Ebay, Paypal and the warehouses I have connections with in NY and Jersey, I could partner up with someone and make lots and lots of money. Me and my wife had lots of fun while it lasted though. I should have put it towards her paperwork in order to get her legitimate working permit. But instead, we made visits to various places and spent too much money playing and buying gifts for people and my wife. If I get this up and running again, I'd hire a couple of people to deal with various things such as shipping and labeling and do it much, much slower like over a period of a year instead of full steam ahead. Plus I'd have the same name on the paypal and ebay account locating both in the same state and country, even if advertising overseas. Anyway, pedicabbing keeps me really strong and fit. I burn out there. Plus I meet great new people from all over the world and have lots and lots of fun, sometimes hanging out with the people I just met after work. Just so you know how assumptive you are in all your posts towards me. Honestly, you have absolutely no idea what you are talking about when you talk to me. Most of your words come straight out of a box. Therefore, you actually don't talk to me, as you are merely talking to an assumed projection of me that you have in your mind, labeling it as me, but since it's not, you are basically always wrong. I hope this humbles you as you need plenty of it. As far as my spiritual experiences go... thank goodness you have no idea. YAY!! Yes, I'm great, and I love myself and people who meet me, Love me! I don't bash people with my religion and most people don't even know how serious of a Buddhist I actually am as I just share my energy with them. They say, "Wow, you have wonderful energy, and so much of it too!" I get that all the time doing my job, which is why I looooove pedicabbing and will most likely do that throughout my school carrier if that manifests. A new roommate just moved in who's job is to help people get grants and loans for school and he's going to help me for free. So, I guess things are going to look up for me in that department, if it's meant to be. I hope your words taste good, because this is basically you eating them. Which you really need to do. Get some pepper though, as they are Saaaaaalty!! You'll probably just use this as more fodder for your erroneous projections. HAHA! Seriously bro, get a life. If you would notice, I talk way less on here, but everytime I say something, you guys just have to jump. So sad. Anyway, I'm dumb tired after working for 10 hours straight without a food break. I need to take a shower and eat some food and play with my wife. P.S. My wife loves my strong gluteus maximus! My legs though are so strong that I look like a grasshopper! I leap tall buildings in a single bound without the cape or gay tights. HAHA!! I Loooooove pedicabbing!! I burn everything!!! I'm a living furnace! All my past lovers used to think and still do concerning my wife, I was a heater or had a fever due to how hot I burn and how strong my metabolism is. Yeah baby!! I am obnoxious... but I've always been so. I'm an Aries with super powers! HAHA!! Plus I've always had it good with the ladies... it's just part of who I am. But, I have enough humility to bow to all my teachers, and deeply mahro pranam to all the earth shedding many tears for the sake of global upliftment, not that it does anything other than purify my mind stream and well honestly... I know it does more than that. I have no problem admitting I am wrong if I am adequately proven to be wrong. I've done so many, many times. Dude, you need to clean out your third eye because you are reading some faulty news papers. I'm serious... it is a bid sad to see how you guys go on about someone who doesn't even exist.. namely, your false projections and assumptions of me. I'm so happy to not be the person you think I am. YAY! Points for Harry Potter... which is what all my friends on the pedicab call me due to my magical abilities. I may be obnoxious... which works in my line of business, but you guys are pompous. These are what we call Pedicab legs and they are mine.

I used to sometimes fall asleep in half lotus and have really cool experiences while sitting up. At that time though I would often deprive myself of sleep in order to do intense meditation practices and thus sometimes I'd fall asleep while practicing, LOL! It would always turn out to be a really cool lucid dream of some sort though.

I know. Duh! I wonder why you people even bother? I'm like a brick wall anyway. Right? Move on... Leave me alone in my myopic thinking patterns. Ah, but you justify your emotional reactions towards my posts over and over again as an attempt to help me, don't you? Or to help others see the waywardness of my expressions, right? That's how you justify your Witch hunting and burning? Isn't that so? Well... it's the 21st century and I'm allowed to be a narrow minded, immature religious ignoramus.

You are amazingly dogmatic and accusatory. You state your mental dogmas in all your posts. You bash everything I say, every chance you get. I'm glad you'll be gone for quite some time.

Patrick seems like a good guy! Very nice credentials.

All of my critical analysis of you is entirely based on your postings and nothing more, nothing less. It's more like, you are not what you think you are. I have no problem with Blasto and wasn't insulting him. I just feel that his type of Buddhism is limited and that is all.