Vajrahridaya

Ah... ok... yes I was confused. EDIT: Yes, I know nac, took me so long to write this little thing, but I was in all these other conversations at the same time...

Thus as the Buddhas first statement, mind and it's phenomena are, pure, unborn and uncompounded since beginning-less time. The entire Cannon is an expression of this simple but incredibly complex statement. It's the quality of dependent origination that allows it to work.

"One can acquire everything in solitude except character." - Stendhal

Non-duality in Buddhism doesn't mean substantial oneness. It means that all experiences or experiencings are equally empty of inherent existence, thus transparent and translucent. It doesn't mean complete union of all mind streams on a substantial level. To know what this means is hard I think it seems for most. It means that one can indeed look through someone else's eyes. Or that one can influence another's karmic patterns. It doesn't mean that one literally becomes or is absolutely one with that persons stream. But rather that both streams are empty of inherent existence, so the one that has realized this can freely see through any paradigm. One can even say... I am you and you are me, because we are equally empty, but we are not one consciousness, as in Buddhism, even consciousness is empty of inherent existence and dependently originated. But, the awareness of this is a omniscient omnipresence.

Oh, I forgot to say that when I got that energy to turn internally very strongly. The erections stopped being so powerfully focused on externalizing the energy. Like my inner interpretation of the experience of erection stopped being so centered around ejaculation. It started to feel really pleasurable to just have a strong and hard erection. At times when I meditated, it would forcefully push upward into my navel. Muktananda talks about this in Play of Consciousness. But, it would push upward very strongly but wouldn't feel like it needed to inject anywhere or release anything. I remember contemplating the pleasure of the energy itself when I first started, but over time, it would just be that way and not feel the need to externalize. My interpretation of the energy completely changed from go out, to just be.

I'm online talking with my girlfriend... so I just happen to be up, nodding away every few minutes. But, during one in between state. This kind of came to me. The difference between hinayana and mahayana is the difference between creating the will to overcome the violence of communication with many different types of people, with wisdom, turning that violence, or friction of the attempt, which is avoided through the hinayana view by just being silent and going, "swaha" (sacrificial offering) to people who just "wouldn't understand" and really engaging with people with an attempt to connect on their level and channel wisdom in a way that they can see it in themselves for themselves merely by being the appropriate type of mirror for them.

The King has some good advice above. I didn't read every post by everybody. But, I'll just share my own experience to whatever degree I'm able to lucidly at this time at night. The first month of my new years resolution of 1995, I had two emissions, and the second month I had one emission. After that I had none. First of all I had a goal in mind. I wanted to transform the externalized form of desire to an internal form that could be satisfied without repression per-say but by realizing that the outer form was a microcosmic expression of a macrocosmic reality. That of form (penis) and emptiness (pussy). We don't have to get into that. We can use the idea of creativity and receptivity. Or space and light. Even yin and yang, sure that's fine as well. X and Y chromosome? So, merging is a natural urge, we want to become one with paradigm opposites as a way to experience wholeness, we do in the fulfillment of any desire, it's all sex really, food, sleep, movies, etc. But, through first conceptual understanding, one can see that all dualities exist within the one that see's dualities. You. So, I decided that by turning my sexual urges from outward to inward I could realize the basis of desire itself, which is a sense of lack, a feeling of unwholness. First of all I stopped going to movies, and stopped watching T.V. because these expressions feed the desire to find happiness through product, through external means, as that's the meaning of life according to capitalism. I only did yogic practices, meditation, chanting, hatha yoga, selfless service at a nearby ashram in Oakland, CA. I stopped looking at women below their eyes entirely. Everytime I thought of a women sexually, I just reminded myself that true happiness comes from within. Because all an outer object can do is reflect our inner potentiality to the degree that we are aware of it. So, through meditation and such practices I also started mentally focusing the energy to go upward through the central channel located in conjunction with the spinal column in the physical body, using breath and mental focus utilizing contemplation of the nature of desire. I would contemplate how infinitely open my crown chakra was like a beacon for higher consciousness. I would contemplate the meanings of the different chakras and read lots of books by realized saints from India or other spiritual traditions of antiquity. Only books by monks, not scholarly works, but directly the works of monks from different traditions. Those that practiced transformation internally and experienced the fruit of it. As our mental and physical company creates our destiny, because mind becomes what it focuses upon and thus action follows the impulses of our mind. So, I would read these different explanations and their logic and reasons, integrate that information with my own life. Thus would come a real understanding of why I was doing it in the first place, then just practice all the time, no matter where I was or what I was doing, at work in a restaurant, as that's what I did for about 15 years of my life, to walking down the street and I socialized very little. Just apply, apply, apply internal alchemy. I had one conscious desire, to know the Truth. I didn't socialize unless they were people after the same Truth and I didn't look at women below their eyes. I wanted intensely to know the nature of sexual energy and the hidden power that it could hold for me as I had read in spiritual books from Eastern tradition monks. I won't bore you with every detail of my unraveling. But, as the intensity became more subtle through contemplation, it slowly turned into bliss, and thus it stopped becoming expressed externally as it was experienced internally as a kind of cosmic union between finite and infinite, like a drop of the ocean realizing that it indeed was not a drop and never was. My ejaculation stopped being a physical one out of the tip of my penis and it became a spiritual one out of the top of my head, filling my heart and my entire being as well as my entire field of perception. I would be filled with great heat and would experience "Bhastrika Pranayama", deep strong breathing through my entire being quite often, or different types of "Kumbaka" or retention of breath both inward or outward where it just stopped and my entire being became transparent and completely still even if there was movement around, I would experience movement as stillness. I could experience great joy at will, or calm peace at will, and I loved everyone and forgave at a moments notice. So, I would experience bliss of different types throughout every day and the heat of this bliss would burn the sexual fluid into spiritual energy in my being. I slept much less, I had incredible dreams, I was very aware and lucid of subtler activities within my being, and saw directly the causes of various shortcomings and neuorotic behavior patterns. I would transform them into virtues by applying the knowledge that all these different limitations themselves came from a deeply rooted sense of limitation that identified with a body that was born, will have experiences and will die. My sexual energy and experience became all sorts of spiritual experiences, visions, inter-dimensional travelings that helped day by day loosen this knot of limited identity. So, I stopped having night emissions and stopped thinking of sex all together, even by accident. The most that would happen would maybe the word "sex" would enter my mind sometimes. But, I would just shake it off and move on, seeing it as a delusion based upon an idea of separation that was not really true. I've come to a different understanding of the entire thing at this point of my life, but that can be talked about some other time. I went through this period of my life about 14 years ago. It was a phase and it was a very important phase in my life and spiritual questing. I recommend it for anyone and everyone who wishes to realize deeper states of their own existence. My syntax has changed since then, but I tried to write this in the spirit of my understanding as it was then and what worked for me at that time. I wish you many blessings on your endevor and may you experience it's blessings through and through!!

That's interesting. I like that. Realization of the nature of the 10,000 things is very simple, but doesn't dismiss the existence of these 10,000,000,0000000000000000000000000000000000 add infinitum things. Integration of the birds eye view with the endless tree's is absolutely necessary. Head in the clouds, feet on the ground.

Thank you! Well... for one, the only reason why Vajrayana survived was because it flourished in Tibet during the time that it died in India. I think esoteric Taoism survived only based upon how underground it got. Or up in the mountains. I find Taoism to be the closest path to Buddhism. As it doesn't reify the ultimate nature of things as an ultimate omnipotent intelligence.

If happiness alone was the path to liberation from unconscious rebirth, then the gods would all be liberated as they live in bliss 24/7 without insight into the nature of their bliss, it's causes and conditions. All these experiences arise dependent upon a cause, even non-conceptual experiences. The Buddha taught that vipassana was absolutely necessary. Not taking away from your joy of meditation, I experience that joy as well. It's wonderful and decreases bad habit energy because one becomes inwardly satisfied. If he thought that alone was the path to realization, then he wouldn't have taught the 8 fold noble path. One needs both meditation and insight which don't necessarily happen at the same time. If you can't see complexity and simplicity simultaneously. Then you haven't even truly seen simplicity as simplicity is. They are not different... the complex is simple. Simple is the true quality of the complex. There is no omniscience of the true nature of things without that realization. The cosmos is quite complex in all it's way's of flowing. Guru Rinpoche means precious teacher. But in this case is referring to Padmasambhava. Who brought Vajrayana to Tibet in the 900's. Siddhi's are super natural powers, and a Buddha has them all, including the power of liberation. this is called great bliss. His teachings dispel all obstacles, both inner and outer, as in psychological and physical. Mara is a representation of the state of delusion, or attachment and craving. The Buddha vowed to influence beings eternally, so we ask that he influence us and grant us guidance as blessing. Secret obstacles are ones that we are not aware of but are there none-the-less. The Mahayana intention is that one attains enlightenment for the sake of all beings. It's not complicated at all really. It's not for me at least. I don't feel that the Buddha taught that enlightenment was a state of no thought, or a state of bliss. Bliss is a side effect and a quality of liberation, but is not liberation itself. Insight is, or prajna. Thought or no-thought, it's all the same and equally empty of inherent existence. It's all relative.

No, he taught that absorption alone does not work. One needs Vipassana which utilizes the teaching of dependent origination which integrates the realization of emptiness with every aspect of one's life. Of course, for the Buddha, every moment of life was beyond meditation and non-meditation. Every moment was meditation on transcendent realization. But, if sitting alone could bring complete realization, than we'd all just sit. This alone is not the path though.

LOL! Whatever...

See for Buddhism, it's dependent origination that's infinite potentiality through the quality of emptiness. Emptiness is not an existing non-thing that pulsates potentiality. It's the quality of phenomena that grants infinite variableness. In response to the rest of what was quoted in this post: If one really reads the Pali Suttas, one gets the Mahayana interpretation from them. It's not that Hinayana is even a slandering, which is what Hinayanins don't get because they want to protect their egos. It's saying that the interpretation of the Suttas as self liberation is a Hinayana view, it's not an absolute interpretation of the Pali Suttas as the Mahayanist interpretation of the Pali Suttas is Mahayana as the Buddha even said, "I'm doing this for all of you" when he left the palace. You can be a Theravadin and have a Mahayana view and practice about it. Also the Buddha himself taught the Mahayana to certain disciples at the same time that he taught the Hinayana view. The first Mahayana scriptures were recordings of things the Buddha said while he was alive, then some later ones were recorded from higher realms as he left through the 4th Jhana which leads to the Peerless Deva realm where he taught countless beings from even after he died. Yes, because Hinayana is just a way of interpreting, and not the scriptures themselves, as the scriptures themselves do teach a Mahayana view if one reads them carefully, though not as clearly as what are attributed to the Mahayana scriptures. Through technological globalisation, there are a lot of gaps being closed.

Yes, all things are definitely empty of inherent existence and all is relative, that's an assertion that is ultimately true regardless of it's realization or not. But your saying that emptiness itself is ultimate reality then. The way things work is endless interdependency through the truth that all experiences and experientials are empty. Emptiness does not exist though as a fundamental reality, it's more of a quality. Yes, we are not inherently individual mind-streams. But it's closer to the truth of things than to say we are one big mind, or a single consciousness. It's true that we intermingle, so we are not fundimentally individual. Still sounds like Brahmanism. One can never truly know unless fully enlightened like a Buddha how people inwardly experience concepts, as that's very subtle. Still emptiness is never a wholeness that pre-exists the universe. It never exists from it's own side as the Tao Te Ching seems to apply the Tao does. Though, unless you are just talking about the illumined realization of inherent interdependency and thus the emptiness of things as the endless process and thus just saying... thus... or, the way of things... or... the process... or the unified field of experience that pre-exists the conceptualization of such yet is also the conceptualization of such simultaneously.. Anyway... You could be right, maybe Taoism leads to the exact same realization. It doesn't ever seem to be reified as a cosmic will, which is good.

Indeed! That is cool. I've read that story before though...

Of course... as the Buddha said, "Don't follow anything because it's rumored to be true, written in books of antiquity, followed by a majority, only when it is deemed as true and good for the benefit of all should it be implemented." This is a paraphrase, but that's what the Buddha taught, to not even follow his words blindly just because the words came out of his mouth. He wanted his students to really understand the meaning of things and use discernment.

Actually, I found that when I started really practicing Kundalini Sex, that holding the power and union with seed retention makes my penis HUGE!! LOL!! Very rigid and hum like a tuning fork. But, one feels the energy through the entire spine and it's integrated with a deep sense of peace and bliss, your body feels translucent. If she's sensitive, so does she and she may even lick blue light from your third eye while sitting in the karmamudra posture. None of this is recommended by me though. This just happened naturally through contemplation during the act.

Practice makes perfect. It helps to have a teacher, or a guide. In Buddhism, we not only have the teaching to take refuge in. We take refuge in a teacher and a group of students who practice "the way".

My genitals definitely started hugging my lower region after some kundalini work and experiencing and they still do that mostly. They don't fall or drop like in most men. One of my girlfriends was like, "why are your balls like babies balls?" She was into Kundalini yoga so I could tell her that my energy is running up my spine instead of down like in most men. I also get carded a lot when I buy beer. People comment all the time on how young I look for my age, etc. I get comments pretty much every time I go out. I know it's just the fact that my energy mostly runs up instead of down now.

Everything is already transcendent, so it lies in eminence. I'm just yanking with ya.

Yes, I would think you would have thunk that.

Also, "Play of Consciousness" and "Kundalini: The Evolutionary Energy in Man." and also, "The Sacred Power: A Seeker's Guide to Kundalini". "Heart Drops of Dharmakaya" which is a Buddhist Vajrayana approach. The first one is an autobiography of a Yogi who gets his kundalini awakening through initiation from a wandering renunciate yogi and sets him on his journey and it talks about all sorts of spiritual experiences and wisdoms one can have and the scriptures that talk about it. The second one is an autobiography from the perspective of spontaneous activation and how wild it can be, plus it goes through the chakra system. The third is some personal experience from the Swami having it activated by the person who wrote the first book, and how smooth and beautiful it can be. As well as a scholarly approach as how it is revealed in different traditions around the world under different names which is very, very interesting. Buddhists don't have open to the public books about this for the most part except maybe in "Heart Drops of Dharmakaya" which talks about secret stuff publicly. I have books on the Tibetan style stuff but you have to get transmission from a lineage teacher before you can have access. So the above 4 books are very good and found inexpensively on Amazon.com. Yeah, mostly I was just being kind of playful in that last sentence, though it's true.

Don't forget cigarettes too. Anxiety habits.