Suishou

Well I feel ashamed asking about this but... I told myself to, "go into the state required to see subtle energy." (I call this a meta-state since I don't have any idea what the state actually is before hand.) I went through a series of states and finally after a few days arrived at this dark place in my brow area and I noticed that I kept having thoughts about how huge the universe is and how tiny I am or how infinite time is and how we never stop exploring...forever. My heart really couldn't handle this state and I got some panic/fear. It felt like my heart was suffocating almost. It seems any time I direct too much energy toward the brow my heart doesn't like it. However, I can direct my energy out of my body very far and usually I have no trouble. I can project far enough empathically to get an understandable fear reaction sometimes, but it is never in my heart like this sense of suffocating panic was. I assume this means I just need to meditate more on my heart before trying to access my subtle vision? Or could I have something blocking me..? Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.

Hi, I am a new member. I have a bunch of questions. I saw some posts by drew hempel (sp?) and I really wanted to talk to him more. But it says I can't send private messages. I'm an empath and mostly I hang out in void states since those are what I can tolerate long term. Staying in any one state that is not empty for too long feels really grating and restrictive. I notice if I enter other people's bodies there can be an energy exchange, and I can encounter all kinds of weird shit, so usually I don't do that. I feel like I have some innate competency at moving my awareness, but don't know much about energy work. One experience I had doing awareness circles in my abdomen caused this intense ball of heat and gave my body intense alternating hot/cold sensations for an hour and it also gave me a fever for 3 days. I have no clue what that was or how to use it. Some of it rose to my heart and while only a tiny amount of that energy was able to rise to my head my mind still felt fried for 2 weeks after. No one seems to want to give me a straight answer as to what that is about.... Anyway, hoping to learn from you guys.