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I love my family. I don't love my enemy. How does that work?

Need to relax. Get a general relaxation massage and see if the sexual desire becomes more managable. If this is the case, it's a sure sign you need to relax more.

I used to cultivate with energy very heavily, as the years have gone by I find myself doing less and less through meditation and more and more through changing my actions, what i'm doing, and what I eat. Cultivating, then eating foods that do the opposite is an uphill battle. Eating the right foods and changing my activities can have the desired effect, all without purposefully cultivating energy through meditation. I guess my early cultivation was helpful though because it gave me the sensitivity to understand what different foods and activities were doing to me, and realized the correlation between my body and mind. Now i become aware of things before they become a problem. I have to say, I think knowing how to cultivate is very important, much more important that high level maths or science which I never use, but the cultivation skills I use many times every day. Cultivation should be taught in schools.

Or also 2, observing everything or knowing one thing

Also i have used soft qi approach in kykoshin, it automatically changes that way when im tired. I become more the observer. My punches have less force using less of my energy but the opponent still seems to use us much energy trying to avoid my strikes. I can find my apponents weak spots and combos that he struggles to defend against. i think chi for martial arts mainly comes down to understanding and controlling your own body and later you opponents. I didn't get advanced enough to read opponents body, but i am starting to gain this skill through being a bodyworker, and finding it faster and easier to read somebodies body with practice. When i find the weak parts i can strengthen, as a martial artist one could punch them

I have applied qi to kykoshin karate, i could feel myself bursting with energy, i didn't get tired, and i could overexert myself feeling fine, but it took 2 days to recover every time. Punches were harder and i felt i could punch through blocks somewhat. In aikido when charged with Ki i would have greater capacity to cut through the opponents block with my wooden sword. The block wouldn't move it. But this is all hard ki when i did tai chi a couple of times i sent my teacher flying while doing push hands. Not because my sensitivity was so good, just because my sensitivity was starting to develop and i had massive strength. One who masters balance doesn't need to master chi or strength. The balance of strength and sensitivity of feeling physical energy becomes a synergy. It gives one leeway from not having to be present in EVERY moment, and I can still push through easily with good posture nearby either side of the sweet spot felt through chi. Chi is for wisdom, brawn for strength. Using wisdom to apply strength is power.

I agree. Ive tried every which way to get myself to sleep and it doesn't work. Need to fall into it. Also i rekon not eating much meat for dinner or fried foods helps too. Also caffeine in the morning can make me more tired at night. But can do energizing qigong in the morning with the same result.

Shad, but if you are struggling with it, the bodyworker is very experienced and knows how to balance you. Then you know what it feels like to be balanced and where you hold your tension, then you can learn to do it on your own from these new feelings. It can be a shortcut to the place you want to get to. I found it helpful myself, to improve my own qigong. Teachers are everywhere, and if the mind is mirrored in the body then a skilled bodyworker is as good a teacher as a qigong master. Check out Bowen therapy or an osteopath, both of those would be the most help from a qigong perspective i believe.

Sometimes you can spend hours meditating and still be struggling not really knowing what is going on, when you can go to a good bodyworker and they can fix you up in half an hr for $60 then you can be done and spend time enjoying the balance than the battle to balance. Depends if your enjoying the battle or not.

I think unconditional love is like stuffing my face with a giant block of chocolate. I love every mouthful, bit the further i get through the block the truth of me feeling sick after becomes more any more evident, however with every new bite the truth fades away into the bliss of the choc on my tongue. Eventually the block is all gone and im thrust into the first depths of hell and over indulgence Hippies say that the love is limitless, but money, chocolate or the ability to eat it isn't. Sure one could sit and lick it all day long, but i like to bite and chew chocolate. However i have a strong grip on the truth and it may prevent me from ever eating the choc, and i miss out on that experience. My not partaking in the eating of a birthday cake may lose me friends. Once again.... MODERATION TO THE RESCUE!

I am 100% with you here. I often think lack of truth is where love falls over on its self, and bitterness or frustration is what trips over truth. I think its a blending of the two. Love without truth is meaningless, while truth without some greater meaning is also meaningless. Those who are pro love look down on truth defenders as getting in the way, or because they don't hold so high the same lofty ideals as them. Truth seekers despise unconditional love because they make things seem better than they are. The unconditional love hippies keep beating us truth seekers down, and are quiet effective because they draw on the ignorant people, they sway people with their charisma, and they have large numbers of followers. But us truth seekers are strong... We fight back with our facts, our science and prove the ignorance wrong, we stop the hippies ideals turning ridiculous. The hippies dont want to kill anything, but are quietly ok with somebody else doing the killing. Truth seekers dont want to lie, even if it may stop somebody being hurt. Give me the truth and you can keep your love any day

I have problem sleeping at times too. I try to stay off the computer after 5pm, dont read books at night. Works good. Few healing sounds and watching the breath meditation before bed all helps.

I just had a Bowen therapy session with one of the 6 people who was taught by the founder of the technique, and he said that the founder (now dead) would work with disabled people, holding copper pennies in his hands and running them up and down the spine to detect the lesions in the spine, so then he could direct the tissues to heal. The person i saw couldn't do it, however he said he saw the founder do it. Just wondering if anybody else had heard of anything like this? Or using copper to feel chi?

We each have the opportunity to make our own point.

Healing plants? Can anyone suggest something that will cure my nectarine tree of curley leaf? Other than copper spray which i've already tried

How do you know? You 'think' you know. Thats your silly mind talking. You don't know until you try. Sounds like you've tried meditation, now try something else Tomorrow is your unbirthday after all. Give yourself an unbirthday surprise and start on your adventure. Happy unbirthday

Yes i've been more happy and satisfied in unhappy circumstances, and i've been unhappy doing something i love. However I still think it's good to change things in life. Variety is the spice of life, and life is short. Sometimes it's not about being happy or unhappy, sometimes it's just about getting out of the rut and experiencing something new. Doesn't mean one can't cultivate in the new situation too. Inner cultivation is always good, but i'd rather die knowing i'd done 1000 things being happy and unhappy rather than having done one thing but experienced it in 1000 ways because i lived in wu wei. Actually i'd rather having done 500 things 500 ways, that means i've had 25,000 experiences

I think it should be less a question of what 'should' you do, rather what will be fun. Whats the most fun thing you can afford without spending all your resources but without being a full tightarse. Sounds like you have thought about it lots, meditated lots, etc. Doing the same thing (meditating & thinking about it) over and over and expecting a different results is madness. Sounds like time for a change. Take a chance, go into the unknown, whatever that may be. Camping might be alright but you're still going to come back to the same place, but it might be a big enough break for you to get confidence to make that change. P.S. I've been camping plenty of times just in the forest not in a campsite. I've covered my car with bushes so it was hard to see, and camped out with piles of water and canned and dried food & fruit. I don't have a fire because fires can easily get out of control here in australia if it's not a proper fireplace (it has been international news plenty of times). But even in the winter i've just rugged up and been fine. Haven't even had a matress, just a blanket on the floor and a blanket on top and my woolen thermals and a couple of extra layers. A little gas stove makes warm drinks and hot food Sometimes i've even come back into the city with my campsite made up, got more supplies and headed back out again, all my stuff was safe because nobody knew i was there

There are good western MD's and crappy ones. I've trained with good Bowen therapists and rubbish ones. I'm assuming the same with Reiki practitioners. I've always wanted to try reiki. As well as osteopath and craniosacral therapy. I wonder if i could go and claim it on tax as research

Bowen therapy works really well on people and animals. Can even do newborn babies. Also commonly used on dogs and horses. Not plants though It uses fascia, muscles tendons and nerves. Soft tissues. Ive saved several people from having to have an operation, and even seemingly fixed people whome operations didn't fix. Often 3 sessions sees long term relief. Developed in my home town now it is all around the world in only a few short years. Google it

This goes with my theory of go for what you want, practice what you want to achieve. Just general practice and letting it come is not my style. Take it and its yours! However imagination is then the limit. Letting things come allows the possibility of feeling things unimaginable

Yes i have done it lots before. It feels like ecstasy for me, and builds up over a few days, can get too strong that its unbearable if i do it too much. Handy hint is to double the feeling. Get that happy feeling and double it then again and keep on doubling. U can only go so far in a single sitting but practicing in between activities over 3-4 days my body is constantly flushed with waves of massive pleasure at will. Dont do it too much before operating heavy machinery or a car. I think this is hormone based at least not nervous system based because it takes days to build up and days to get it out of my system too. After a few times of loving it then i just wanted the extacy to go away. Worth playing around with though

Its interesting because what many describe as lightness i refer to as sluggishness. Light to change direction, but no weight to feel ones self really moving. Lighter yet slower, heavier yet more momentum. That momentum can be deflected or the direction changed slightly without using that momentum. I get lighter means you can change direction faster, but if one were only floating along to begin with what is the point? Cultivation potential energy... in one way i feel lighter and feel i have a greater potential to do anything, but also heavier in the fact that I feel more reluctant to move, the more potential i have to do anything, the more content i feel doing nothing. With momentum one only needs to learn timing within the environment to have real power and boost their destiny to the stars. I guess its just different personalities. Some like to be a bit of everything, while others like all of something....in the end they both end up being one and the same.

Haha i always have the feeling that you feel your path is the correct way and you feel others have more to learn if they don't take a similar approach to you. You are obviously well practiced in your path, however you should try looking at it from a different angle. You may learn something from others. It could be said too much of a relaxed of withdrawn path could also be bad for ones health, by increasing weight gain, losing the fire of desire and generally lacking enough fire element as in TCM for somebody who didn't do it properly. There is danger to a fire or a water path, they are polar opposites, there must be equal danger.

When you say available energy i wish somebody said that years ago, then i would have understood. I have over the last year began taking this approach and starting to understand what you are saying. However at the deepest point, its like the reservoirs of energy are full and suddenly i become very energetic, however get put of this deepest point and back into the depressed state. I have to say it is very physically healing but i don't find it enjoyable. I have always practiced the opposite, where i cultivate energy in action, not potential energy as i understand you discuss it, and as i have been acquainting it with myself the past year. In the kinetic energy cultivation as i practice it, at the highest point there is the calm that you speak of, however when not at the peak there is lots of work to be done to improve. It is compelling to work, unlike the cultivation of potential energy where there i feel compelled to not do.