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All medicine can be good. What works for one doesnt work for another. Having them available is a benefit of society because we can try different things till we find what works

I remember having massive anxiety at one stage that was uncontrollable after my surgeon said I might have to have my foot amputated. I remember not sleeping at all for like 5 days and it was unbearable. I agree with what others have said on facing the fear, when the sensations come just ask it "comon then, what are you going to do c**t" to the overwhelming sensations. Let it do it's best. Look I wouldn't say it's fun and I'd rather take another way but it worked, repeating it and gaining confidence the sensations subsided. Once u do it once u know you can do it and have that skill in your back pocket. Then put your attention on the physical. If u want watch the physical sensations of the breath around your nose and let the air going through your nostrils feel like your hand gently stroking a cat's back to sleep, calming your mind. Sensations will come as you start to relax, but just tell yourself the sensations are not the meditation, bring your attention back to the nose. 15minutes at a time is enough 2 or 3x a day. Dont pay any attention to the sensations or they will get stronger. Best of luck.

Yes alexander technique is good (i have only read the book). a GOOD bowen therapist can fix this for you without you knowing how to do it. It will take ages to be able to do it and alot of effort. I meditated for around 16 years and i still can't do it as well as somebody else doing it for me through Bowen treatment. I wouldn't bother trying to do it yourself, no point trying to cut your lawn using a pair of scissors, just pull out the lawn mower. You can stretch adductor and piriformis but do psoas as #1 most important, if you get time do the others. Psoas will be the root of the problem (coccyx too but access that through psoas). It will take some time to filter down to the other muscles but psoas is most often the deeper problem. Don't just do the sore side do both sides for the same amount of time. Other things is look up 'stalk test' to test strength of glute med, sometimes your pelvis will be tilting because psoas is tight because it is compensating for a weak glute med. You can get someone to test hamstring and glute max strength and strengthen accordingly but we are just making a bigger and bigger problem. #1 stretch psoas lots #2 try get 8,000 - 10,000 steps a day concentrate on this for 4 weeks and that will fix most of the problems most of the time if improving continue. If not working start to look at other stuff. If gets sore during 1st month stop, rest until it feels good again, then start #1 & #2 again Other stuff will speed up the healing but you need to have the skill to diagnose the problem. If you don't know what your doing and just do exercises willy nilly it's like going into a pharmacy and eating any pill of the shelf and hoping it's going to work. If you are interested in reading more look up 'dural drag' that is interesting but very hard to do on yourself, even when you know what you are doing. It's taken me 5 years of 30-50 treatments a week to hone the sensitivity of my fingers to track where the problem is coming from. I thought i knew what i was doing the first year but i didn't have a clue haha. Try step #1 and #2 above, simple but effective. If not find a good therapist.

If you have a torn bicep and you start doing 15kg dumbell bicep curls it is going to damage your torn bicep further. If you do the movement without weight it will pump blood through the muscle and speed healing If you add more weight it will hurt more, and heal faster - to a point, where the damage you do will slow healing, or eventually start you going backwards in recovery. I believe the same with meditation. The energy can apply stress to a weak mind and cause it to get stronger or break it. If one does 5 mins a day there is probably little risk, if they do a 10 day vipassana retreat it is intense. I think gradual increase of stress would be benefitial. However someone who exercises every day then stops is going to get some kind of discomfort. If one meditates every day and stops they will also experience discomfort. I think when it all comes down to it just spend your time doing what you enjoy doing for as long as you enjoy doing it and your body will magically begin to adapt to be able to support this better. The faster the change, and the older the body, the more difficulty in adapting. Also, to add to the type of meditation.... So say i have a very anxious mind. I do a calming meditation and get relief..... until i feel anxious again and then i need to meditate again. Short term relief, long term aggrivation because i lose my ability to cope. Say i have an very anxious mind and i do energising meditation. I feel more anxious, i am forced to deal with the situation and in doing that become better and dealing with the anxiety. Short term aggrivation, longer term relief. There are pros and cons with either approach, try both, try none, trying is the only way to find the best way

I would agree, however what are types of practices that you think put the horse before the cart? I see healing sounds as mantak teaches it as making the sounds to shake/vibrate and relax the organ, then wait and let the fruit of your effort have it's effect. Bit like rowing a boat, row, then glide.

Good on you for giving it an amazing effort. Did you enjoy any of the time you spent doing it or not? If so it's been good for you, if not well you have probably wasted your time. Here are some thoughts that you may find helpful. What you are looking for is medicine, energetic or whatever. Any medicine works for a time then stops working and it needs to be altered, if you do anything a long time it will just become another habit and add another issue. What is medicine for one person is not necessarily medicine for another. I can treat 10 people with the same injury but all have different treatment methods because they all have different causes. So try something else. Lets face it even with clinical trials for pharmaciticals there is never 100% success, i think if they hit 60% they are doing pretty well. Even physio. I think you have tried doing it from the book, and with every variation and for quiet a great number of hours. You should be pretty experienced meditator by now, so throw the book and the tape away, you know it off by heart listening/reading it again is only going to bring you back to doing the method in a way that is proven not to work. Ask yourself inside how you can do it in a way that will be more benefitial to you. Something that i think you might find helpful is check in with yourself throught the day. When do you feel worst and when do you feel better? Keep a log and try to work out the things that help and what make you worse. Then it becomes easy and spend more time doing the things that help, thats getting the fruit of meditaiton without meditating, plus you are living not sitting with your eyes closed or whatever. In all honesty if you spend at least 80% of your time purposely doing these things that make you feel better, then leave the other 20% to chance. You eat good food, get good sleep and exercise i think your problems may dissapear. Then if you really want to meditate, when you meditate bring the thoughts and feelings from those good activities into your meditation. Were you gentle? did you do something slow, what is it about these good activities that make you feel better? Bring them into your mediations. To me this is a red flag that this is not the method for you. If BKF said himself that mentally ill people are not worth your time, then what that says to me is he is wasting his time with them because he can't help them. Find something else specifically marketed to mentally ill. What is on paper is mostly all sales. What you experience is the truth. So what is on paper is just to entice you to try it, then give it a try. If it doesn't work try something else. I have clients who have tried like 5-6 doctors, specialists, accupuncture, massage, chiro, osteo, etc and then they find help with what i do. I don't claim to be so great, it's just that different things work well for different people. Often clients get fustrated that each professional they seek help from says the problem is due to something else. They are just saying that based on their training and it is true for them. But instead of being fustrated they should be happy that there is a new point of view on the problem, a new opportunity for improvement. There are alot of paradoxes in all of this too though. I spent extensive time doing healing tao like you mayve 3-8hrs a day for 3 years plus most days for another 7 and felt like i was getting so much out of it but did bugger all for original problem i began practicing for. Then did anapana portion of vipassana intensely for a few weeks/days here and there and got massive benefit for my problem, but found it difficult to practice. Healing tao is like sitting down to get high, anapana / vipassana is like sitting down to watch the breath which in comparison is boring as hell. And sorry to just put another spin on it, sometimes there are problems we can just get used to living with. Getting older is no fun and shit happens. I remember seeing Richard Bandler talking about going into mental homes and enableing people to leave simply by having fun with their hallusinations and not taking things so seriously. There are heaps of people living with f**ked up minds, and severely disabled bodies that are doing just fine. Sometimes you can fix something, sometimes the answer is to change your perception and see your problem in a less serious light, or look at the benefits of having your particular problem which can carry you over until the solution for your problem comes into your life. Maybe the solution has come into your life already but you didn't give it a go because you were so sure that this water method should work. It may have blocked you. Be open to trying lots of different things, sometimes things you don't think will work do work.

I just read more deeply into your first post. What he says it right at the start. Later in his post i disagree. I don't think you should plank and make your butt cheeks tight. I think the goal of planking is to relax all the outside muscles and just use the deep inside muscles. Otherwise you train yourself to use the outside muscles and that is the cause of many problems. Relax your butt cheeks, relax your stomach and abs, relax all the muscles on the outside and let your body 'fall' into the correct alignment. Anyone who has spent a bit of time doing 'embracing the tree' while in horsestance will know the feeling of relaxing into good posture.

I would say 95% of people have some sort of alignment issue whether if they have any symptoms or not. The body is constantly in a state of flow and so the pelvis changes it alignment when there is an injury or even just exhaustion so that your body can keep doing the things you ask it to do without you experiencing any symptoms. Each time it gets tired or injured it compensates and becomes more twisted without you knowing. It's only once your body has twisted it's self several times that the healing ability of the body becomes reduced and it can't compensated any more then your body lets you know about the problem via pain. This is when i start to untwist everything and get everything straight and allow the body to heal much faster. The problem is compounded the more active they are or if they are overweight. I believe it usually starts off due to nervous system or repetitive tasks (ie sitting), then after time muscles become longer/shorter holding the misalignment more strongly, then the bone structure adapts and it becomes even more deeply engrained. Frequently i find that pelvis alignment issues can be corrected through correction of the tissues of the neck and jaw. Other people i correct through the pelvis, it depends on where the nerve which is telling the muscle to contract is being unintentionally activated from. This is how i treat, through the nervous system. A physio would (i expect) treat the pelvis by doing stretches with the pelvis, so each modality has their own way of correcting some type of dysfunction. There are many ways to skin a cat so they say. However to answer your question, unless you have alot of training and experience the easiest way is to just focus on the problem part and stretch it more and more frequently (just slowly at the beginning so you dont hurt yourself), even so much as to stretch the problem muscle 1x ever hour. Then it doesn't matter about the caught nerve (the nerve that i work to turn off) or whatever because you are correcting the problematic tissue that is giving you your symptoms. I think the number 1 important muscle to stretch is psoas muscle - both sides (this is the best method if you don't know what you are doing). Strengthening can be important but if you strengthen the other side you will be tight both sides and that will cause other problems. Just stretch the tight muscle. Once alignment corrected and pain is gone if you wish to further improve resistance to reinjury strengthen both sides but continue to stretch both sides.

I rekon if i stretch all over but especially the spine in each direction, it makes it easier and deeper, the calm which you are mentioning at the end

You can do that.

It is a very common problem, i see it in clinic every day. I treat alot of professional drivers and it is rife amongst these. You can improve anterior pelvic tilt doing exactley as you say. It takes time (1-3 months) depending on how long it's been a problem for. Do the exercises every 2 days first, if no aggrivation or pain do every day for another week, then do 2-3x a day if you can handle it. Don't always try to get perfect tilt it's not always necassary and perhaps your bone structure has adapted to your anterior pelvic tilt and so the lordosis or excessive curve in the lower spine, the vertebra may have adjusted to that. If you change it back to perfect alignment quickly it could cause more problems.. Often only need partial improvement to get rid of symptoms.

Smoking weed, drinking alcohol, working to excess, medicines, bodywork, strength training, qigong, etc, everything all has an effect. Balancing the effect out with something else becomes important. Doing anything to excess can cause problems. But some people are born with an excess in their genetic makeup and so some of these things can help. I think all in all none of it really matters so long as you are enjoying it. When you stop enjoying it change. If your not enjoying something and can't stop doing it, well then you have a problem.

It is very paradoxial. Live mindfully, have everything but feel nothing. Or feel deeply but lose things in the process. I live mindfully when i have to, the rest of the time i live sensually, because thats what I enjoy. I think as i age the body becomes weaker and i am getting forced to live more mindfully.... forced to live more mindfully for periods so that i can enjoy sensual living for a time thereafter haha. Living mindfully for the sake of living mindfully becomes incredibly boring. However living sensually too much is very destructive.

The majority of my experiences with qigong have been with working with an energy in different ways to derive different results (ie. different orbits or working with different channels, or directing the chi to different areas), but it is only more recently that i have spent time working with different energy. Recently i have spent more time trying to be greatful and and have found it good for my heart. It brings feelings of calmness and helps with being in the moment and an increased sense of awareness. Previously I have spent alot of time cultivating what i would have considered happyness and joy or love. I've cultivated this with mental images of what I thought had previously brought me joy and happiness. The feelings associated with achieving a goal or hugging my young kids, my wife, or even the feeling that came as a child by hugging my mother when i was feeling upset and that hug just made me feel better. These emotions however tend to draw me in to working to increasing their intensity because they are pleasurable and perk me up more, I have recently been questioning whether what i believed was love was less love in a meditative sense than the feeling of gratitude. But my skill in this area of working with gratitude is as a beginner and i'm not sure where i'm supposed to be going with it. Doing qigong with what i called the happiness feeling gave me a sense of power, especially when working with it through the body in different ways it gave me a sense of control. Not of being able to control everything but at least a portion of it, and when unsure of how to reach a desired result the energy would show me. For example compressed chi in the dantien would rush to a sick area when i 'let it go' so to speak, or my intention was no longer to gather the energy in the dantien. This type of qigong i grew very passionate about, however the deeper i went with it the more difficult it became to relax. I feel that was not love after all despite what i learned to be the definition of love through healing tao fusion practice. The feelings were primarily linked with that feeling of satisfaction, of having achieved a goal, with what i now would associated with a dopamine type sensation. Although admitedly it did draw an expansive type experience, however that was a byproduct of the practice. So then what is the energy work associated with gratitude? Where do I go from here? I found the happiness type of energy is very easy to compress into the dantien, and very easy to get a hold on with the mind and to work with. I've found the feeling of gratitude or of being greatful or thankful is not so easy to work with.... Like trying to gather gratitude into the lower dantien, i don't think i can? It feels expansive. Previously using the happiness type qi, it had it's own mind, and it was easier to read the mind of, and learn from a compressed energy version of it. However with gratitude energy, trying to direct it to the dantien, it is like it is in opposition.... it's like trying to control the 'giving up' feeling that is associated with gratitude, and the feeling of gratitude is lost with the work. How to develop this type of practice further or deeper? What are the benefits of deeper work? Are there any offshoots to this style of practice you could recommend? Thanks in advance! Louis

I am also very sensitive to this, especially with my business so is perhaps why it grew so fast. However i created a habit where i felt compelled to act on those opportunities and although very lucrative, it made me mildly anxious and not helpful for relaxation.

Yes it can feel a bit strange sometimes but i found just starting with very small things helpful like having shelter or nice weather etc. I know what you mean though. Yesterday i was in the city and those i was with were saying this and that about the city were good but it was meaningless to me, ive always preferred natural spaces. However reflecting on it i was perhaps restisting their sharing of gratitude? Im not sure, this is all new to me

I began just by using a guided meditation and found it very good, but there was no sharing involved. How do you share gratitude? With the guided meditation i was guided to be greatful for small things like my heart beat, breath, the chair holding my weight.... then on to other things and just thinking of things i was greatful for. Do you just mention to others from time to time how we are lucky to have this and that? Anything else beyond thay and just saying thankyou for other peoples help?

Also walking through nature, looking at the trees in the forest, i think there are too many things to focus on (each leaf, bark, etc) and so your brain can't cope and so the shift occurs. Also there is a psychologist approach where one shakes their head from side to side, it's called EMDR.

First thanks OP for the topic this is great and one that discusses in essence what has been going through my mind in recent times, and the NASA video is mind blowing.... I can see your point however.... This is more down my alley of how i feel, however i was forced into a perspective shift.... Can the wall or dam in the picture above not also be acting as a filter too? Keeping all the shit out so one can bring in the refined tip top golden spring water? Of course this is an assumption because i don't open up the dam, for a long time now i have used qigong to refine the water to such a high level that my life was absolutely ace. I couldn't ask for anything, it was perfect as i had refined it over many years, had the perfect busy clinic, awesome family, a pile of money only working 25-30 hrs a week, and plenty of free time to go spearfishing, go holidaying or to persue my hobbys. .... that was until disaster struck and all the water on the outside turned to shit and i was no longer able to refine gold out of it. I smashed a bone in my foot into what ended up being 15 pieces and couldn't walk or enjoy any of the gold i had refined, 6 weeks i fell over again and knocked it again. After 3 months of no weight bearing I was told it wasn't even starting to heal and i might lose my foot. At this point i realised how poor my skills in meditation was, even though i had practiced qigong daily for around 15 years and some of that time very intensely. I found it very hard to hold it together and my whole world felt like it was caving in, i didn't want to be crippled. Luckily since then I've improved dramatically and at 6 months i can walk/limp around and am working in my clinic again and i have life outside of my couch. In another 6 months i'll be alright and again i will be able to enjoy the gold i've mined, hopefully with just a bit of pain remaining, but the experience sure was an eye opener. What changed for me was a perspective shift, but i didn't want to. I read disabled people's blogs and felt doomed and the old samurai's motto of death before dishonour really rang home. I really felt for those paraplegics in some of the blogs i read and thought that living a life as those guys and gals do would be meaningless for me. I remember reading one lady who always wanted to kill herself but she wasn't even able to because she couldn't move, and she couldn't get anyone to even help her over - even over a period of years! Finally she got over that stage in her life but what a nightmare that some people live in! Where mindfulnes to me had always meant being mindful of what was happening, watching everything like a movie, qigong had trained me in terms of positives and negatives. Although i had had the oneness experience periodically it wasn't something i enjoyed and reverted back to dualism because i found it more enjoyable, it gave me something to strive for, meaning in life, and excitement. However this left me having desires, the vast majority of which required me to be able to stand/walk which made my situation difficult to accept. In my years of qigong practice i had become more and more masterful so that i could control almost everything and refine everything to my desires, however this rude awakening reminded me that no matter how good one becomes at qigong, they can't control everthing. So then having no other choice i started learning to give up desire which initially made everything feel meaningless. It didn't feel nice at all but it was either that or neverending fustration and sadness which was literally killing me. Later mindfulness changed so that when things that I didn't like arose instead of trying to fix them, i invited the shit feeling in let it stay as long as it wanted, then let it leave when it was ready. It was a bit like going to the gym and doing weights, yet with my emotional self, building up my resilience to feeling like shit. While i felt the importance of this mindfulness practice, and the freedom of being less affected by different emotions or situations, through my own lense it was akin to learning to be happy living in shit (of which my perspective didn't have the same appeal as a book i once saw called 'being happy for no good reason' haha). I suddenly saw the christian point of view (or as i understand it) that the world is shit and we need salvation. It was work to keep constantly propping myself up, keeping myself happy and working at being happy for no reason. Now i have to conceed that as my situation has changed, the moment i have been able to walk/limp 2kms again my desires are returning once again with increadable strength, my spirit is lifted on it's own by the pure wonderfulness of being able to enjoy and actively participate in my life once again. I am however aware that in the future, as i age more (currently 36) i will be forced to give up more and more and i will need to shift my perspective more and more frequently, and therefore i expect it will become easier and easier with age. I realise the need for balance for both dualism and from the one.... to cope with the joys of getting old as so many of my clients call it. But even after all that i could not see any reason to live consistantly 'on the high road' as somebody put it? Why would one want to give up giving their life a meaning, or letting the opportunity to have and furfill their own desires pass them by? We all have a chance to grow old and have this forced apon us, and in death it's likely that the situation will be inescapable. What leads some of us to want to chose the high road? Certainly that rough period is something i would take in my stride again if it meant i could once again strive, compete and experience within the increased intensity and wildness of physical sensations once again. That is to say i wouldn't give up the bad if it meant giving up the good too, unless forced to, and even then only as much as i had to

It's funny you should say this. Often when i treat clients they have areas where they are ticklish and guard because they dont' want to be worked on there. Once i release the area the following week the tickelishness is much less and their symptoms much less. This is very common

What is the old method of bone healing?

Hi Ya Mu, I am very interested to know what sort of accelleration of healing are you talking about? Like how much faster are people's fractures typically getting better? 4 weeks ago i shattered my Navicular into at least 9 pieces .....they can't operate on it because there is nothing to screw into, the bone is all in pieces. Where the navicular joins to the the talis looks all spikey from the MRI where the articulating surface should be smooth. There is very little blood supply to this bone and from reading around this is going to be many months before i can even start to hobble around putting any weight on this for short periods. The doctor said if i can walk in 1 year and it gets sore at the end of the day that would be a good outcome. Talking to more people and reading around the net there are some real horror storys so I really need to get this right... i'm only 36 with a young family. I've been meditating for years, healing tao style, and i read your book some 10 years ago. If you had any advice for me of what to do specifically for fracture healing and the type of energy to do it with it would be fantastic. I've been drinking bone broths and raw vegetable juices to try to give it all the nutrtion i can, and having my wife do Bowen therapy treatments on me. I have practically no pain which i guess is one good thing but i am no weight bearing in a cast still. Do you think it's good to continually direct energy to the area frequently, or do it for a period only once per day or once every few days or what have you found to work well? What type of energy? Like kundalini sexual / earth type energy or heavenly heat type energy? or a mixture of both, or how should it be structured? Or should i forget about the energy and just be? What do you think of magnets? have you tried them? Im still able to work in clinic a couple of hours a day from a wheely chair before i get a sore hip / back from just standing up on one leg from time to time when it's needed but this really does suck and i want it to get better asap. I want to be able to walk properly again and if i could run i would be over the moon. Thankyou in advance, Louis.

I think this is sound advice. I think it's not that what you're doing in your practice is wrong, it's just that it's not right for your body right now. Something else i could recommend is to ignore the energy and concentrate on the physical. You can do that by feeling the weight of your body, or the weight of different organs, or even just like your arms, feeling the meat hanging off your bones etc. This feeling the weight of my body helps me feel relaxed and stop thinking about the chi. Mantak chia's healing sounds, they're great and fix a huge amount of issues. Don't smile or concentrate on the energy at any time, just do the sounds and feel the weight of an organ during the breathing break time. I also find having an external focus is calming. Feel your clothes touching your skin and the wind, sun etc around you, and your weight. I have a thought that when people concentrate on gods etc, they are all external and make one feel more relaxed. Awareness outside is more calming, but when there is desire to change any sensation then stress kicks in. Awareness is more relaxing, focusing creates more tension. Through bodywork i have found alot of tension is held in the neck / jaw area or around the pelvis. Try stretch your neck, jaw by putting a cork inbetween your teeth to stretch your jaw muscles for a few minutes, stretch your shoulders, spine and hips. Long stretches 60seconds + are the best for reducing tension. There are screening tests that i do by looking at leg length. Likely you have tension causing one leg to be longer than the other, you could have somebody check for you while you lay on your belly with your feet hanging over the edge of the bed. If you turn your head either side and leg length changes so that the short leg changes to the long leg, then you have a problem in your neck. If it changes when you turn your head both sides, you have a problem in your jaw / or sphenoid bone alignment which runs through your skull. If you flex your knees and the short leg switches over you have a problem around your pelvis. If it doesn't change over you have a problem somwhere but the screening isn't showing you where, but it is likely around the coccyx or jaw. People tend to have one major muscle spasm, this is in osteopathic, chiropractic and other bodywork theory that influences the nervous system. Once you unlock that sustatining muscle spasm every other tension in your body will relax and you will have balance within the nervous system. Thats to say you have one major blockage and other blockages will all release from that one. There can be other layers, and as you remove one layer, another can present it's self but this will show in the screening tests i mentioned above. Once leg length is even, and there is tonal symetry of the body this indicates that your nervous system is balanced and you will feel the results via your awareness easily. Its taken me 3-4 years to become OK at using this method, but it definately is a great addition or test to use along with qigong practice to help you know you are going the right way. Hope it helps.

The paradoxial nature of philosophicalising about these types of questions makes it difficult in the discussion. For me, being very spiritual, expanded out, seeing the larger picture gives me the calmness and emptiness i need to see clearly, along with the greatly expanded insight i need to know what needs to be done to achieve my souls destiny. This view alows changes on the macro level to be acieved very quickley and create huge external material changes, like business profits, creating health and wellbeing in the community, or spreading the good word. These destinys can be achieved with great speed and with great power, however this can leave me feeling empty inside, instead i get propped up by my community that i help improve. Yet alas its not enough, and none the less it becomes meaningless internally, so much so that if i continue along this path i would give it all away and have nothing.... The light side. Then on the other hand, contracting, attention to detail, and the feeling of inner power while losing the strength of that spiritual connection gives me the desire and the drive to put plans in motion that came to me through realizations while being in an expanded spiritual state. This is how i can create heaven on earth. The joys and the thrills of achieving and self fulfillment feels glorious and tremendus as each next milestone is reached.... until the attention to detail changes to perfectionism. Relaxant type drugs create the space to allow more of this joy, and drive further to bring this heaven to earth in a percieved even greater, yet forceful way, the thirst for more becomes insatiable... destroying ones self in the process, the dark side. The joy is perhaps what i began to develop first in my practice some 15 years ago when i became sick, it drew me to the practice of qigong and the pleasure gave me the patience to practice for hours on end, yet it fell to the wayside as it felt meaningless to be estatically happy without reason, and of percieving there to be more power in both the yin and the yang, or the heavens and earth. The joy is now my least developed power and having a job and business i love where i make great money doing few hours, helping alot of people, an awesome family, yet all the work to get to here has the pleasure associated with having such treasures fade. I need now work on my practice of joys again, whilst i know that during this process i will lose some of my treasure, and so the cycle will continue. The stars in the sky that catch my eye twinkle red green blue and white. That is what i think we need to be like. Sometimes the proton, sometimes the electron, and sometimes the neutron. Transitioning between the spiritual, the physical and the joy isnt easy, each gains momentum and the power lies in that momentum, but it is a contantly changing path we need to take to keep happy in our lives and maintain them.

So how then do most people of recent times have more willpower to eat than their spirit power that they repeately express that leads them to want to lose weight.... it seems the result of their actions shows they have more power leading away from the direction of their spiritual direction of wanting to lose weight. I don't think you can say one experiences less power when they go against the will of their spirit. It takes alot of spirit power to overcome the momentum power of consiousness repetition.... that momentum becomes very strong.... spirit takes constant consious effort, and dare i say it, desire for change, to make that change. All animals walk the same way in a forest, thats why there are tracks. Consiousness, regardless of what type repeats the same thing over and over, it's hard for the spirit to overcome this. One way it can do it is by constantly changing the path so as to not develop a momentum of a partiucular path. But like i said, that is constant sustained consiousness.