johndoe2012

Sense of self, the I structure

Well the Divine like to play with us but also help us out. I'm sitting in the train reciting a specific mantra while being pissed off about a money issue. So my mind is holding on to that. Two women sit down besides me first talking about dying? Then starts speaking about Amma the hugging saint. I start to think about Amma, maybe I'll go see her in November.... Boom! Complete relaxation in body and mind and I see how silly to hold on to the money issue. Life really is something special :-)

I don't think this matters that much because you are still experiencing yourself as an individual with an ego, no? So it is not just about knowledge, but knowledge can help you relax that you are it and that something is blocking you from seeing that.

In no-thinking there's just spontaneous action.

inner smile http://www.lifeevents.org/taoist-inner-smile-meditation.htm magic search for "initiation into hermetics" prayanama google it.

Overactive mind => do mantra

I heard irritation being called the spiritual impulse to do something. This is something I get sometimes and it is a nudge from the divine 'do something about this issue NOW' Even enlightened people get angry and it is the natural bodily expression to look irritated / angry when that particular vibration gets expressed.

In my experience no-duality folks hold too tight onto the no-self thing and end up blocking themselves. I guess they are still stuck in the mind as you say. Interesting with the awakening of the gut, is this the same as working with the lower dantian?

Well bad luck exists in my experience. If you pissed somebody off in your past life it will show up "today". Lately what happened to "me": credit cards disappeared in the mail causing lot of anxiety on how to pay for goods, travel debit card stopped working, business flow has not started so no money coming in. Stuff related to survival is very hard to take. It gets easier when you clear out the ego consciousness hold on it.

Well then sacredness is good. I guess it takes you out of the mind space.

So a few days of sitting in emptiness of body, mind and all phenomena then another chunk of tension disappeared. Now what is left is a state so relaxed and a disappearance of the drive that motivated me before. What to do now? No idea? Ha ha!

Clear your own blockages?

Look into your experience rather than beliefs.

Yeah lots of illusions like the illusion of being in control. I thought I didn't care about money then they stopped coming in and the body mind freaked out. Nice cleansing there. Life will take care of us but not as we imagine it to be.

There is one difference, wrathful deities know who they are and are not experiencing any separation.

Well it takes time to weed stuff out like intense anger. For me it works by leaving low vibrational areas like being with too many self centered people. Also intentionally working on wishing everyone the best. I got a gift from the divine to channel divinity directly into people which works wonders for both others and myself.

Also going through some stuff, I try not to get caught up in it and see it as yet another layer of ego consciousness being split into atoms. But not funny indeed.

Speaking of names I think it is ridiculous that people are not using their real names on this forum, shame on you :-)

Had a huge chunk of tension released by looking at the mirage like nature of the body. I have looked at this before but I guess the body-mind was resisting. Now it seems all delusions come from mistaken views, quite interesting. Also the wish for all beings being liberated resulted in heart glowing outwards, feels very good.

Seth , lots of good points in your post. One to keep!

FP chikung doesn't built the LDT as much as a dedicated practise which is only focused on that. LDT also is the power center as in personal power where people can't move you as in bully and so on. How I got to where I am now was pretty hazardous, ha ha, so you don't want to replicate my path. I have gone back to basic zhan zhuang as Lam Kam Chuen teaches it from his book and basic LDT breathing where awareness is on the LDT. This together with what Nikolai is saying will take you far. Think outward shining rather than looking inward and check your state all the time.

There are a lot of teachers out there offering free or very cheap information. Even free transmissions. A lot of practises are free also but people go for the expensive ones. I think teachers should be supported financially somehow otherwise how can they live? The problem is wanting something you don't seem to have.

Charisma comes from shining your light without self reflection. See blissofpeace.com As for light coming out your eyes it is the same plus being clear of blockages and having built a lot of energy. Especially clear self doubt. Two things: working with the lower dantian and zhan zhuang. Then you get what you want.

Hey steve, I completely agree with you. The anger seen is not ordinary anger but spontaneous action with no doer. So basically pure divinity in disguise. I wouldn't even label it because it seems to require thinking or self-reflection.

Steve, So far what I have seen and heard even awakened beings get angry so elimination of anger is not the key. Key is seeing that karma and thought-story keeps getting generated as long as one thinks oneself as an 'I' walking around where things happen to 'you'. But mind likes to grasp and thus suffering occurs.