johndoe2012

So a few days of sitting in emptiness of body, mind and all phenomena then another chunk of tension disappeared. Now what is left is a state so relaxed and a disappearance of the drive that motivated me before. What to do now? No idea? Ha ha!

Clear your own blockages?

Look into your experience rather than beliefs.

Yeah lots of illusions like the illusion of being in control. I thought I didn't care about money then they stopped coming in and the body mind freaked out. Nice cleansing there. Life will take care of us but not as we imagine it to be.

There is one difference, wrathful deities know who they are and are not experiencing any separation.

Well it takes time to weed stuff out like intense anger. For me it works by leaving low vibrational areas like being with too many self centered people. Also intentionally working on wishing everyone the best. I got a gift from the divine to channel divinity directly into people which works wonders for both others and myself.

Also going through some stuff, I try not to get caught up in it and see it as yet another layer of ego consciousness being split into atoms. But not funny indeed.

Speaking of names I think it is ridiculous that people are not using their real names on this forum, shame on you :-)

Had a huge chunk of tension released by looking at the mirage like nature of the body. I have looked at this before but I guess the body-mind was resisting. Now it seems all delusions come from mistaken views, quite interesting. Also the wish for all beings being liberated resulted in heart glowing outwards, feels very good.

Seth , lots of good points in your post. One to keep!

FP chikung doesn't built the LDT as much as a dedicated practise which is only focused on that. LDT also is the power center as in personal power where people can't move you as in bully and so on. How I got to where I am now was pretty hazardous, ha ha, so you don't want to replicate my path. I have gone back to basic zhan zhuang as Lam Kam Chuen teaches it from his book and basic LDT breathing where awareness is on the LDT. This together with what Nikolai is saying will take you far. Think outward shining rather than looking inward and check your state all the time.

There are a lot of teachers out there offering free or very cheap information. Even free transmissions. A lot of practises are free also but people go for the expensive ones. I think teachers should be supported financially somehow otherwise how can they live? The problem is wanting something you don't seem to have.

Charisma comes from shining your light without self reflection. See blissofpeace.com As for light coming out your eyes it is the same plus being clear of blockages and having built a lot of energy. Especially clear self doubt. Two things: working with the lower dantian and zhan zhuang. Then you get what you want.

Hey steve, I completely agree with you. The anger seen is not ordinary anger but spontaneous action with no doer. So basically pure divinity in disguise. I wouldn't even label it because it seems to require thinking or self-reflection.

Steve, So far what I have seen and heard even awakened beings get angry so elimination of anger is not the key. Key is seeing that karma and thought-story keeps getting generated as long as one thinks oneself as an 'I' walking around where things happen to 'you'. But mind likes to grasp and thus suffering occurs.

I would say the next step is not to practise at all. "just be patient, let it happen". Exactly. The struggle or problem that practise would clear will show up in real life once you least expects it. This is a gift from the Divine showing you that you are stuck in identification and once it is recognized then there is no struggle anymore.

Indeed, you can rush things but it will just make things worse. I don't have a fixed daily practise anymore because it basically doesn't make sense. Once we get totally relaxed we basically don't care about such things because that is going against the flow and causes tension.

The question is who is really there other than a chain of thoughts, sensations and so on compounded to a person? So no right, no wrong, life happens spontaneously with no controllers at all. Highest example is a conceptual designation of activity marked by the mind as 'good'.

Josama, How are you feeling about the demon and the root cause now? I did some work on you, don't worry I asked the Divine about permission. The technique I use can go to depths of ego as well as it works with Divine consciousness not just energy. So ego has also got awakened a bit more I can feel.

gTummo - the loneman pai version works really nice in clearing blockages from the central channel. Better than some of the other techniques I have tried.

I got this idea from someone, didn't invent it myself. The idea is a master / guru / teacher has a certain vibration. Each individual has a distinct flavor, one you can use to work in that particular "direction". It could be stillness or movement, just two examples. From youtube you can extract the audio from the videos of masters speaking or just being silent. This audio you play all the time on silent on e.g. your phone. You don't need to listen to it or be aware of it or anything. I tried today using a darshan blessing from an individual with stillness in their heart. Very powerful stuff. Being with them physically or speaking live is better but the audio I find is the next best thing.

I had an experience lately where all tension in the body disappeared and a complete freedom and access to my real "self" appeared. I feel that the source of tension comes from the grip of the ego-personality. For a long time I couldn't understand why the hell I experienced so much tension no matter what I did. Only when the grip of the personality was suspended could I understand why high level teachings / methods / lineages are necessary. The ego-personality is basically a blocking mechanism. It cares for survival: getting money, food, clothing, a place to sleep and so on. That blocking mechanism results in bodily tension. Bodily tension that translates into negative behavior. The problem is that the ego-personality will do anything to stop you from waking up. It will lure you into "let's meditate for 40 years, that at least will keep me living on, ha ha!" For me only high level methods or teachings can undo that grip. If one stays at the level of the ego-personality one will stay there forever. There is no freedom as long as one stays at the lower personality level. Breathing methods, meditation, philosophy: they are a replication of the real thing - something the ego-personality has invented as practices or things it can study and understand - which it never can because the real thing exist beyond it. Anyway, I long for my own personality-death these days: I never wanted to be uptight, unfriendly and tense all the time. I want freedom today, not in 40 years! Hurray for all the high level teachings that exist today!

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