King Kabalabhati

I CANNOT THANK YOU IN BIG ENOUGH LETTERS

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In my situation it's my wife who doesn't seem to get turned on by me. She's an Asberger person so for her it's a bit different anyway but I don't pretend like I haven't caused a lot of our problems by not being the man, in and out of bed. So we love each other dearly as best friends and we have a nice peaceful country place and beautiful kids..Things could have been quite perfect if not for this one issue.. But it's mostly processed by now, next step would be to find a lover to practice the Tao of yin & yang with.. And that's not very easy, especially when I 'm spending most of my time here in the woods. So I'm just building my Jing and doing an hour of Small Universe a day in full lotus to make sure everything runs smoothly. One progressive step I noticed is that once we decided to quit trying to make things work sexually (a few weeks ago) I have not felt the lust for her as I used to. Still her presence has an effect.. Things seem to get a bit chaotic in the house, instead of two people working together to keep it clean and make things work it's two people distracted by each other. But it's nice to have her around every once in a while, she has the best sense of the absurd I've ever encountered.

Touching.

You're welcome! I read this first time in Finnish and somehow it works even better: Lu-vuori usvaisessa sateessa, Che-joki nousuveden aikaan Kun en ollut kaynyt siella, ei ollut lepoa kaipuun tuskasta Menin sinne, tulin takaisin. Se ei ollut mitaan erikoista. Lu-vuori usvaisessa sateessa, Che-joki nousuveden aikaan Don't you agree?

Yep that won't work. It's better to use it as one tool for working towards an overall harmony. It can help with relieving the urgency of the matter, to get some extra space to work things out. Still it's possible that some aren't meant to have a rich sexual life. Forcing things either way is not the Way.

Oh yeah. A few times it has not happened for me at all where it should have, just this great excitement in the chest. Not very useful

I have always felt sexual stimulation very strongly as pressure in the chest. Now today I realised when I saw this sexy picture that I felt the a sensation in the lower Dantien instead, nothing in the chest. So something has changed. I just spent a week with my ex-wife, with whom we've decided to remain friends and not sexual, and felt no disturbing urge, which I usually have felt.. I'm going now to do my practice, this stuff works!

I wrote a long and winding post about my own experiences but then deleted it. All I want to say about this right now is that sexuality and emotions are inter-connected but we needn't know how nor need we work on them as separate things, just steady daily Qigong and in time, sooner or later, all the healing will take place. Sexuality will harmonize into our lives, either there will be a satisfying sex life or a satisfying life without sex. Whatever your natural potential is it will unfold. But at first, while there is still great urgency to resolve things quickly, it can be very frustrating.

I think the filth is in the mind, if somewhere.

There is a difference now isn't there. Loneliness can occur with or without solitude.

I'm getting a bit more than a bit interested in attending a workshop in the UK, unfortunately cannot attend this next one but I will appreciate knowing when the next one(s) will be held as early on as possible so I can try and plan it into my schedule.

I feel it. There's an added kick to it because this was my first time doing standing Qigong since a few weeks cause I've had the flu and felt a bit weak in the legs.

So there's a problem with being energized? In fact Lin says the slower the better.. Hmm yeah I guess it's good to watch it and not burn out the nerves.

I didn't read the long conversation, but there's a difference between "moral" and "moralism". Moral can be thought of as a kind of mixture of intelligence and compassion, the brain and the heart working together for the health of the individual and the community.. Awareness put to practice in the society. Moralism as I understand is used as a means of elevating one's self above others. It serves no purpose in a Taoist's life.

I was inspired, I didn't get into practising those movements but I liked the very slow stuff you did so yesterday I tried doing the SFQ movement "moving of Yin & Yang" at a ultra-low speed, Master Lin does recommend slow but I never did it this slow. I don't know if that is the reason for me sleeping less than 5 hours and getting up to do another 1-hour set.

Good post and I'm going to take this advice too since I feel I want to bring SFQ to Finland one day.

This morning there was a special moment, after half hour of lotus sitting doing Small Universe, then 10 minutes lower Dan Tien.. A feeling of letting go of the railing, so to speak, to just floating. It is a beautiful and very relaxing moment, where for a while there's no need to control thoughts since none seem to arise.. Then soon I felt as though my heartbeat was getting more intense, can't say if it accelerated but there arises the awareness of "this is it", the emptiness part, no thought, the real deal.. It's a bit scary?

Watch it! My son spilled Cerassie tea (the very bitter stuff) over my Imac and the space button and the n button stopped working. For some time I had to cut n paste them!

You just take the risk that you're not ready. If you're not egoistic it's not a problem if you find out you were not ready after all.

OK, then if you find yourself a student(s) it's time to start teaching.

Sorry, I'm not sure if I was. Why do you want to teach?

You'll need to make a DVD for promotional purposes.

Today I felt the same thing occuring after a similar routine... then.. I smelled cat poo. One of our felines had just used a nearby litter box. I decided it was the Universe telling me to get up and shovel away the foot of snow on my driveway. I don't feel any fear like as an emotion, just a pronounced heartbeat that is usually associate with emotions like anxiety etc. But I do realise there may be some issues that need be dissolved before a more "perfect" letting go can happen. I think it's just to spend more time at it without thinking of the goal too much, to kind of "waste away" so to speak. Anyway, thanks for being so sweet in my thread guys

I also think it's kind of comical to be having this kind of moments by myself while the kids are in the next room watching cartoons. I have meditation music in my MP3-player and ear protectors on top of that