effilang

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  1. This Is It.

    Good advice indeed, but a task that takes a life time to realize on it's own.
  2. Is this thread exclusively about women? I thought we were talking about life sucking in general : )
  3. Well fuck my ass sideways. Ain't that just peachy.
  4. It's not submission Non, if you're still fighting on : ) As long as you're a live it means you are enduring your karma, and that is not submission! Just react positively to everything that comes your way and always keep your head above the muck, do good always. That is all i can say about that, i leave the accounting to the universe and simply do what i can with what i have. The difference is that, if after doing all i can, if i am met with failure, and believe me failure is the last thing i expect when i am doing something, because i'm like a steam train once i get going, nothing gets in my way... i just accept it as my karma and move on. Before i would go bonkers, now i just think, there is no point being mad, because there is nobody to be mad at but yourself, since this is your karma. So how can you be mad at yourself? : ) Still though, you have to look at some other peoples lives. Suffering is so different for everyone. For some it's slow and painful, for other quick and brief. Some people get tortured for months agonizingly until they die, others feel a moment of pain before they die. And people like me seems to just suffer all life long, and then die too lol I wonder sometimes if i have already gone crazy and lost my mind, being able to talk about this so casually, but what else can i do? Really? I take it for what it is, look at the facts and then pick up the boulder and roll it up the hill again.
  5. Law of Attraction: Do you Attract or Create?

    Yes i suppose if we were balanced in our emphasis, then there would be neither a need for a focus on within or without. So by your logic, i think he is referring to simple neglected capabilities of the inner self as opposed to anything supernatural.
  6. This has spoken to me truly, but the theory is easier than the practice. I'd classify myself as Yang within Yin male, i have every aspect of a typical macho Yang male, but it is covered in Yin and only surfaces when aroused. Which is why most of my life i always end up shocking people. I don't look or act feminine though, i look like your typical MMA grunt, but the Yin is not in the appearance. Just like Non, i wish there was a way to change things. I do everything that would make most people happy and life still bores me. The only happiness i've truly felt is during meditation. Are people who meditate prone to depression after personal insights during cultivation? It has been several years now since my first "glimpse" and still nothing in the real world seems to make me happy anymore. Just small temporary, impermanent shallow excitations, lacking of any real substance and the more i am forced to indulge in them by my mere presence on this earth the further it depresses me knowing i am disconnecting myself from the ultimate reality we exist within, which is so contrarily....eternal. Add that to my constant failures and burdens and you can tell i drink a pretty heavy cocktail of shit on a daily basis. lol I am fit and healthy and practice martial arts, and do activities and this and that and all of the above... and still : (
  7. I am in the same boat as you Non. Disappointment after failure. Heartbreak after tears, pain after loss. Everything always goes in the opposite direction for me, and i say this knowing how positive i am. There is no way in hell i'd still be here if i wasn't a positive person. I have experienced great suffering, and yet there is greater. I have accepted that this is my karma and work enthusiastically and optimistically through everything. I am so numb to disappointment and failure, that when it happens i just say ok and move on, even when i may have invested years in it, i have just learned to move on. Most people will crumble into a mess, but i have done it so many times, that i am beyond that. And i'm the guy that meditates, chants, helps people, always does the right thing even when it costs him his friends, superficial social respect (such as it is), status, authority, love. I have sacrificed everything i can think of, all in the name of creating good karma and living a life worthy of the way, and yet all i receive in return is more of the same : ) I have made a commitment to the heavens to take on my mothers bad karma, so that she might be born into a better life than what she has had in this one. Through my experiences in life i can tell i have a lot of negative karma. I understand it if i have to suffer for the rest of my life, it is my burden after all. I have dedicated this life to doing what is right and through my deeds and intentions to lessen my burden for the next life, where hopefully it might be better than this. I contemplated suicide years ago, but then i realized i would just be making things worse for myself in my next life ha! Not doing me any favors : ) - So i have learnt to accept every suffering as an opportunity for a better life, in my NEXT life. After all we are infinite beings, what is one life? Life always throws me in the opposite end of what i need and desire Non. Anything i desire, is either snatched away from me or placed so far that the mere thought of attempting to reach it is crippling to the senses. I am so accustomed to this, that i have stopped desiring. What you might call spontaneous emotional desire, for me, has boiled down to bland "opportunity", IE: when something is immediately possible and available i will take advantage of it as long as it is acceptable morally. I have stopped dreaming and wanting. And all this has happened indirectly, i never wanted it, but now i feel better, not wanting and not desiring. I only wish that the constant suffering and misfortune in my life would be less : ) I do not ask to walk smooth paths, Nor bear an easy load. I pray for strength and fortitude To climb the rock strewn road. Give me such courage and I can scale The headiest peaks alone, And transform every stumbling block Into a stepping stone. ~Gail Brook Burket I know many might read this and think, ah hes just one of those guys that needs a "positive outlook" or to be re-programmed or to let go of prior preconceptions and notions or structural patterns. No, thats not me. The real me could as well be a saint. And i know this may sound arrogant, but look at all the good Jesus supposedly did and what did he get, but an epic beating and nails in his appendages. My point with making that relationship is that some people i believe are just MENT to suffer, based on their karma. No matter how much good they do in their current life. I've noticed something about how karma works too. If you are presented with a situation in your present life ie: a friend needs money and you help him, you will receive equal karma within your current life, but if you act out of goodness spontaneously without it directly being required of you, that karma doesn't come back to you in this life, i think it is assigned to clear evils of past lives. I think karma works on a micro and macro scale. I have never been able to find any good literature on karma, but this is what i have observed in my life. If you careful enough you will notice it's every interaction on the micro scale. The macro, at least for me, is way out of my sight. So Non. All i can tell you is. Enjoy life whenever you get the opportunity, because it is all suffering. And accept the challenges and sufferings of your life as opportunities to contribute to your future wellbeing and prosperity. Be positive so you can keep moving forward and meditate : )
  8. Masturbation and the Law of Attraction

    Sorry there, your statement was difficult to relate to any specific subject in the OPs post so i made the wrong conclusion : ) The idea u just mentioned... is NOT common _/\_
  9. Masturbation and the Law of Attraction

    It as common an idea to a modern person with an active sexual lifestyle as is tea in water.
  10. Masturbation and the Law of Attraction

    This ^^ You must have either incredible will power or have been psychologically and energetically allowed access by the other person. This is a sort of tuning, when both people agree and tune their ideas and intentions they start operating on the same frequency, i think this is what allows an open energy exchange on the quantum level, otherwise it's like the door is locked. So either you have a key, the door is opened for you, or you break it down with a sledge hammer... Or you're a badass immortal with some bitchin skillz : )
  11. My Two Leg Hu Man Standing Qigong form is at least 200,000 years old. Still ahead of the curve oh yeah...
  12. Masturbation and the Law of Attraction

    lol loved it, but what if two people consensually agree to mastrubating to each other, or they agree to the exchange of energy, but don't both necessarily mastrubate. I think then it is just a free sexual exchange. I agree that mastrubating to a picture or the thought of someone establishes an energetic transfer, but the mastrubator does not necessarily have to be VAMPING the mastrubatee unless they intend to do so by though and will. I think having a sexual session with the thought of someone SENDS them your energy, but does not VAMP on them. I did this yesterday consensually with my partner and we both felt excitement and gratitude and love for each other after the act. Although i wasn't orgasming, i was actively participating in stimulating their senses. I did not feel drained, in fact i felt happy and full of love and so did they. So i suspect as with everything else in energy work the INTENTION and WILL during the application is the determining factor. One can chose to be a vamp or not, it all depends on whether you tune yourself to giving energy or taking energy. Thoughts?
  13. Does anyone understand the titles, text, comments?
  14. Isn't this a redundancy error since siddhis develop on the path to enlightenment?! Also i dislike how people use the word "enlightenment". Being enlightened is not the acme of alchemy or spiritual practice. Is it the progressive expansion of the perception, overall understanding and coalescence with the universe. It is NOT point B of (AB). A person may posses a degree of enlightenment attained through practice, but he may still be at the foot of the mountain, far from an immortal or union with the Tao.
  15. 1. I hold the ball at the chest and at the lower abdomen so those two postures. 2. I visualize energy coming down from the sky into the center of the left palm through the arm into the center of the chest (i hold here for 2 seconds) then breath out through the right arm into the center of the palm facing down and push the energy out towards the earth. Then i mostly just sit there and use my hands to breathe in through the soles of the feet up the legs up the central line and breathe out pushing up through the chest neck top of head into the sky. Then on the way down, breath in again from the head down into around the heart, then breath out as you push the energy through the legs into the ground. All the time using the hands to guide the energy, so palms up when ure going up and palms down when you're going down. I visualize the energy from the earth waving up my legs and body opening all the channels and vice versa. Then you finish with sitting meditation. Works for me O_o
  16. The ones that generate the most energy for me are: - ZZ - Standing, arms out to the sides horizontally, left palm up, right palm down. I've been doing only these two now and stopped everything else except sitting meditation, which i do after every standing and it has generated more energy that i've ever been able to accumulate doing other things. I can feel a watery energy flowing all around my body intensely just from these too. I also practice retention and reverse and regular abdominal breathing with all practices. I think it's really just a matter of getting your head out of the grass and just sticking to one thing. If you know 1000 forms and practice each once per day you will not be better than he who practices one form 1000 times a day. A lot of the main practices we have here on the forum are all very powerful in their own right. You simply need to chose one and throw away your expectations and just practice, they will all yield results. And also be confident in yourself and be proud of yourself and be loving of yourself and be thankful of yourself. You need to have the right mindset to help your body facilitate all the physical and psychological changes. Negative moods and intension in my experience do not help. Good luck.
  17. An interesting insight on the workings of the mind by Alan Watts - Still The Mind (17MB - 9 MP3 Files) Enjoy : )
  18. How is Wu Wei different from laziness?

    Good Wu wei is difficult to achieve in todays society. Something always need be done. Seldom can i find such peace.
  19. Effectiveness of Mudras

    I know for a fact they must be effective, because my body does them spontaneously. By the time i randomly lower my eyes for whatever reason it's already been at least 40 mins - 60 mins since i've been holding a mudra. Weird at first when it started happening, now i just let it do it's thing.
  20. Masculine/Feminine Energies

    See that diagram? - From the nothing, the two were born, from the two, the 5, and from the 5 all the things within the universe. A lot of Yin can overpower an inadequate quantity of Yang, and a lot of Yang can overthrow an inadequate quantity of Yin. These are two inseparable, opposing and complementary forces. Depending on the situation one can be stronger than the other. Yin did not give birth to Yang, nor Yang to Yin, they are both children of the origin and it is their combinational interactions in varying instances diverse in intensity ie: 5:10, 1:2, 6:3, 4:50, 10000:5 etc. that create the things of our world. A lot of people here might tell you that Yin is stronger than Yang, but it all depends on the quality and quantity of Yin vs Yang and vice versa. Please do not feel inferior as a male being. Without the male the female is empty and without the female the male is empty, neither can reach their potential alone. They are two, but they are one. Yang at a very high level will obliterate Yin and Yin at a very high level with obliterate Yang, both of these at equal levels i can imagine should find equilibrium regardless of the level of intensity ie: 1:1, 50:50, 100000:100000. People get a little crazy talking about Females are supreme gods and males are inferior wormlings, forgetting the most basic of things concerning their interaction and birth. Basic example: a strong male will dominate a weak and yielding female, and a dominant female will subdue a weak male. You can expand that to all the things in the world. One can be stronger than the other depending on it's concentration, but neither is ULTIMATELY superior, they exist in a duality and rely on each other. Don't feel bad, one is nothing without the other : )
  21. Fasting one day per week

  22. What in your experience, is the difference between intention and will during active concentration exercises. Do you differentiate between the two and how they affect concentration? I had a huge break through a couple of months ago when i realized there is a significant difference and the moment i understood it theoretically i could apply it practically and it yielded results immediately. My aha moment was in noticing the energetic difference when alternating between the two methods of concentration and i realized that (to me) WILL; is actively forcing intention AND will to achieve a specific goal. In a sense to use will effectively it would be akin to an experienced professional race car driver getting in a state of the art racing vehicle to achieve a goal, such as getting from point A to B under a certain time. If ones will isn't trained and they try to use it, it is like someone without a driving license sitting behind the same car and trying to achieve the same goal and thus i've realized the WILL is actually a part of concentration that NEEDS to be trained, needs to be built up, perhaps through basic exercises moving on to more advanced methods of applying the will to perform specific tasks, routing, directing, extending, moving etc. The Intention on the other hand, is a sort of omnipotent intelligence, you can PLACE it, but you cannot direct it. In other words you can put it in the car, but u can't tell it to drive from A to B, and if you try it will exit the car of its own accord and you will have no driver, but if you leave it be and just place it in the car, it will also drive from A to B on it's own accord. I've also realized that Intention has a road-map to everything that has to and takes place energetically within our bodies during the spiritual transformation process. It always knows what is next and where to go IF you do not force it to work, but simply place it at the next progress point. I have also noticed however that, sometimes on the map, there is a fork in the road and intention cannot decide whether to go left or right, and at this point it REQUIRES a trained will to push it through so it is on a singular linear path once again. Will is sort of like a helper, it can't traverse from A to Z unlike intention, but intention requires will at cardinal points to guide the will and then it retreats. Have you noticed any difference between the two? - What do you think?