Maddie

It's on now

We tend to prefer what is familiar over what is good.

I know very little of Lao Zu's Daoism as it is, but how is Zhuangzi's Daoism different? As humans we really want our labels for things to fit. We tend to really not like it when they don't. The Dao that can be named isn't the eternal Dao.

I've seen this in my own life and with many of the people that want to have "reasonable discussions" with me lol.

Speaking of fear. The individual who is currently in timeout may not have realized it but his arguments against being trans (and yes that's what they were) were very familiar to me because back before I consciously realized I was trans and I was fighting it this is the exact same argument I told myself. Just become enlightened or just become spiritual enough and this problem won't plague you any longer. And I didn't want it to plague me any longer because I was deathly afraid of being this. At least at the time. So my fear took the disguise of spirituality and my spirituality motivated me to further suppress myself, and the suppression cause my mental health to become very bad. But the first Domino was fear and then that led to all kinds of very well reasoned and thought out rationales and I would have never admitted at the time it was fear.

So kind of like The Blair Whites and the Caitlyn Jenner's?

Backing up a few steps what I mean is I don't understand what any of this has to do with the word queer?

I don't think I understand.

Ever since I started transitioning I have been drawn to Red Tara. I know she's advertised as the bodhisattva of romantic attraction, but there's actually a lot more to her. She seems to fill me with comforting feminine energy and assist the transition process. She's kind of become my patron saint of transitioning.

I think it's gen z people that have plushies or something? 🤔🤭

I was chatting to somebody yesterday that initially confused me as a trans person. This person identifies as non-binary and so naturally I was curious since I don't know much about this topic and they were kind enough to explain that they identify as 80% female and 20% male. Really cool person and a fun conversation but I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. It just made me think of the yin yang symbol that in Yin is a little bit of Yang and in Yang is a little bit of yin. I kind of find it interesting in a way that not all the acronyms on the lgbtq+ list really understand each other that well. When I first realized I was trans I think I thought it was going to be this way more but this is not the case. Luke has a gay man didn't initially know that much about trans people and honestly I can't say I know what it's like to be a gay man but this is why I like asking you questions and I respectful manner to learn and to broaden my perspective.

I think a lot of what we see and hear about trans people in the media is just a strawman trans person that does not really exist in real life.

All I will say and I think Corpse will agree with me is after you are transitioning long enough you begin to recognize the various varieties of trolling. It takes a while but eventually you learn. Some are so subtle that I honestly don't think if I had not been transitioning for a while I would be able to recognize them at all. But nevertheless its "the troll that wears the halo" that are often the hardest to detect. I do think speaking about trolls and trolling is a valid topic for a trans forum because IT HAPPENS SO MUCH against trans people. Leaning the subtleties of trans trolling is important to understanding what we deal with on sometimes a daily basis. I think what can seem as varying personalities is nothing more than once the subtle troll pushes things too far (one personality) they try to play innocent (other personality) so that they can restore their camouflage and return to their subtle trolling. Often people that are struggling with their faith but deep down feel something going on related to these issues tend to be the most problematic. The classic example of the super homophobic congressman that is trying to pass all the legislation gets caught with the male intern.

I get that. When I was a kid I used to think that every gay person was always going to be attracted to every other gay person, because yeah life works that way right? lol

not being the the worst. I grew up in a very religious, conservative, family in Texas. They are very judgmental and controlling. Basically the worst kind of family one could have being LGBTQ+. I honestly don't care at all. Maybe this makes me a bad trans but I just assume the gender I see unless told otherwise. This is why I put so much work into transitioning. I put the burden of getting gendered correctly out in public on myself.

Denial lol. I had assumed it would feel more obvious to me if I were trans and assumed that everyone that was trans, that for them it had been super obvious.

Once again getting back on topic. If anyone has questions about what its like to be trans, or how one realizes they are, or is genuinely confused about this topic and wants clarification please feel free to ask away. :-)

Thank you! I'm not going to play the the troll anymore.

One unexpected side effect of being trans is I've learned a lot about trolls. I've noticed there's two basic kinds. There's the blatant trolls that just say things like you'll never be a woman. And then there's the subtle trolls who are kind of sneaky about it and then when you confront them about being a troll they play innocent. Like the kind that suggest maybe if you were more spiritual you wouldn't be infected with this trans disease. LOL

That's a tricky question to answer at the moment because I've been doing tons of Zhunti mantra recently to try to save my business and that always seems to bring up every single existential crisis one can possibly have but on the other hand my business is doing better since I started doing it regularly again lol. But in general in spite of the fact that my family stopped talking to me I would say I'm more comfortable with myself that I have ever been in my life. Previously I always have this underlying inexplicable discomfort that I just assumed everybody had and then once I accepted who I was that went away.

Hahaha you're allowed to have opinions and post them. The examples of things that were not questions that I posted were basically trolling. I'm not doing this to be trolled. But I don't mind if you have opinions and share them because you're clearly not a troll.

To get this post back on track allow me to reiterate that this is a question and answer about transgender issues. Questions about my (or any other transgendered person that want to share) experiences or questions about transgender issues in general are welcome as long as they are sincere. This is not however a transgendered statement post. Statements like "you'll never be a woman" or "just get enlightened instead" are not questions.

It has not been sorted and thank you! I haven't actually been asked a question about my experience for quite a while. It kind of devolved into a few individuals seeming from my point of view to want to undermine my experience.

You sound like my mom when I was trying to get out of going to school as a kid LOL.

What was the outcome of the lawsuit? 😂