Maddie

Since in the last couple months I have found myself newly single again, and since this is the first time I've been single since beginning qigong, it has been quite a learning process for me in many ways. I've noticed that I've had to spend a significant amount of time on each organ in the realm of dating because in each there has been an issue relating to this topic. I know I've already talked about this a bit, but the process of discovery goes on and on... There was fear of women in my kidneys, fear of rejection, ect... In my lungs was the sadness and loneliness that wanted remedy. In my heart was naturally many issues about love and relationships, and also the over excitement issues, which for guys tends to be a bigger issue than for women anyways. In the spleen there was the chronic worry about what girls think about my, what I think about them type stuff. Now it would seem that its my liver's turn. Last night I was just pretty much sitting there minding my own business, and I began to for no reason that I can tell feel extremely aggitated, frustrated, angry, ect... Now while I am just beginning to work on this, and can't say I've made a whole lot of progress yet, my guess is that this is where all the frustration and bitterness of dating comes into play. Also since the positive emotions of the liver are kindness and generosity, I can definately see how these qualities would be attractie in dating, while the while jealous, bitter, possesive, feel sorry for myself attitude is a huge turn off. So off I go to work on my liver lol.

Ah yes, well since until very recently I had been living in Alaska, where in the winter its dark practically all the time, I can relate to this dilema. One thing I would do up there in the winter is to eat more yang foods like spices, curry, ginger, meat. That is also where I really got into martial arts, as yang activities such as martial arts where we did a lot of sparring, bag work, ect... also were effective in making one more yang. I'm sure there are many ways to increase yang, though I'd always heard that grounding was actually a way of increasing your yin, and was a remedy for being too yang.

Bahahahaha !!!!

Dunno as I've never used a tanning bed, but my guess would be its always better to get it from natural sources. Could be an interesting experiment though??

It is hot lol, and besides bookstores seem to attract the kind of girls I'm into more so than other places. Also you can sort of choose which section you want to hang out in and that further narrows down the type of people who are likely to be in that section.

Yup he's pretty much a genius ... the thug thing does not seem to be an issue in book stores lol, besides qigong is not the only thing I'm into, I like marital arts too haha

LOL I'm not sure if he is replacable haha, he is totally like yoda , man I miss him on here

My body building friends tell me that doing squats increases testosterone and thanks Little1 I'll puff on my cigar happily lol

Want an easy yet effective way to increase your yang? sun bathing mindfully ;-)

Ok had another interesting day today lol. I woke up this morning and noticed my dan tien was just buzzing big time, like it was full of chi. Later in the day I go out to the book store, get some books to look at, a cup of coffee and sit down, and then have a "Drew Hemphel like experience". This really good looking girl walks right in front of me, and positions herself so that her ass in right in my face practically. Due to the obvious and by reading her energy I can tell this is very intentional. I remember Drew stating in his McDonald's adventures that girls will do this sometimes in the same way that primate females stick out their back side to show they are "ready to go" so to speak. So anyways this "Drew flashback" comes back to me while this is happening. So she goes over to the coffee bar which is close to where I'm sitting and orders her coffee. While she is doing this I decided to make Drew proud of me, and noticed that my lower dan tien was really buzzing now. So I pull all that excess chi up my MCO to my third eye, and shoot it into her back side which she still has pointed at me very strategically. She then gets a very satisfied look on her face, and after she gets her coffee walks past me just staring at me with this huge grin on her face. As she is doing this I feel an "electric shock" in my heart, as now she is sending the energy blast back at me. My heart does a few palpatations as its over loaded, so to remedy this situation I send this excess chi back down to my lower dan tien where it can be safely stored. Upon doing this then is my turn to feel a pleasurable sensation in my lower dan tien area. After recovering from that I try to figure out where the girl went. So I turn around and she is behind me, down the book aisle a bit "looking at books". The energy she is putting off is screaming "come and talk to me" but I noticed my limbs have turned to jello, and I'm really tired, so I don't, but rather just sit there trying to take this whole experience in. It was weird too, because after that I didn't really have a large desire to go and talk to her or any other girl for that matter lol. Previous to that experience I had noticed I had been getting flirted with a lot. So naturally I tried to makes sense of the whole thing, and this is the best I could come up with. First this morning I noticed my lower dan tien was very full of chi. Currently my latest round of retention has gone on for a couple weeks. But this time not because I want to reduce my libido or anything like I did before, but because I wanted to build up my chi. Apparently this has worked, as I have not simply done retention alone, but with the cool draw/testicle breathing, and running my MCO frequently. As Drew stated a while back, once your chi field gets pretty strong, women are attracted to it. I guess that would explain all the flirtation I was getting on the very same day I woke up with my dan tien buzzing. And finally I guess ultimately what we really seek for is energy balance, which I suppose explains that after having this rather unusual Drew like experience with this girl in the book store, that I had really no desire what so ever to follow up and talk to her, I guess she got my yang chi, I got her yin chi, and we were good lol.

Yet another interesting and unusual experience today. I went to the Zen center here cause there were having a class on zazen, which was pretty interesting. What was more interesting was this really cute jewish girl from new york that sat next to me. I just knew by feeling her emotional energy that she was interested in me, so me being the kind soul that I am asked her out for a cup of tea after zazen. She looked delighted and so we went and had tea. She was beautiful, intelligent (she turned out to be a grad student) and very nice, and apparently into zen and yoga, what more could one ask for? Only thing is, I felt no desire for her. I don't know why, cause she had everything any guy could ask for, she was very pretty, just didn't "feel it" for what ever reason. There is another girl I took out last weekend and she is also pretty, and smart (wants to go to grad school) and kind, pretty much all the same stuff as the first girl I mentioned, but with her I DO feel desire. I just don't understand why if two girls are both pretty, smart, and have similar personalities and interests, why I would have desire for one and not the other??

From one thing you mentioned that your mind keeps playing loops, I'd say your spleen meridian is out of wack, as this is the primary indication of an out of balance spleen. Chinese medicine has several approaches to this, with acupuncture/pressure, and herbs. You also might want to try the spleen healing sounds and inner smile for this specific issue.

Oh don't worry about talking about your personal life, most of us tend to do that on here quite a bit lol. You know you have already gotten quite a bit of good advice on here, and some good recommendations for Qigong forms. Something else I thought I might throw out there is that especially beginning, before you have had much of a chance to establish a regular practice of some sort and see the results, I think another worth while route to consider in addition to picking up a qigong practice is various forms of natural medicine. For such things as anxiety and such, acupuncture/pressure, flower essences, homeopathy, herbs, ect.... All of these I have used to great effect along with my qigong practice. I look at it this way, its hard to get meditative if you can't reach a basic level of mental peace in the first place. If you have any specific questions about how to go about treating a condition with these things feel free to post a question on here or send me a private message if you would feel more comfortable with that.

What are you goals?

Well yes true I do want what you mentioned, but it would seem that a recent realization I've come to is that if you are one who is inclined to seek the Tao, that pretty much makes you different than 99.99% of the rest of the population. And not just different as in my hobby is different than your hobby kind of thing. Its more like you are "different" and others and feel it. So since I guess its like then that only 00.01% of the remaining population is going to be compatiable with you, you kind of have to rely on the Universe to cross your path with hers. Though I'm not going to specify what form that might take cause when you try to identify what the Tao is, what you have identified is no longer the Tao.

Really, so you mean most of what you see them doing in the parks in the morning in China which they call Qigong is nothing more than calisthenics???

I had a chance to see Astral's "shut up theory" in action today, but fortunately it was just with my mom so no permanent damage lol. Anyways she was mentioning how she thinks she has ADD (which I don't disagree with). My initial reaction with out even thinking about it (instinct) was to repeat for the millionth time that I think she should order this Kidney Qi herbal formula that I had found online, and used myself in the past. Just about all her various symptoms (not just this) indicate a lack of kidney qi, including the fact that the kidney's house the will, which obviously if this is not strong people are going to have ADD like symptoms. I instantly felt her demeanor change, she got defensive, moody, ect.. Then I suddenly remembered what we had been discussing on here, and realized that if this had been not my mother, but some girl I was trying to meet, that it is probably at this point that she would have gotten distant from me. It does seem to be true, just because someone is complaining about a health issue, and even if you know how to fix it, does NOT mean that you should necessarily offer advice, even if you have to bite your lip until it bleeds lol. I've even noticed that most of the time even when people actually ask me for advice, they still ignor it lol, go figure. I also was going to say about the other topic that came up on this thread, about spiritual compadibility, and allowing the Universe to bring the right girl your way. After my most recent experience I find this point of view to make a whole lot of sense.

Hmmmm very insightful.... *ponder ponder

Ok yes I have heard that before.

I hope it does not happen too often lol, I wanted the girl, not this haha. I've heard the "my students always get divorced" somewhere, but where is that from?

I agree with being your real self, but what I experienced yesterday went beyond that, it was a totally different experience. It was as though I came in contact with the Universe, the fabric of existence itself, and it showed me what a farce our so called free will is lol.

Ok yesterday I had the most unusual/sureal experience ever (at least in the dating/relationship realm). It started off with me sending a lot of chi in my MCO to my crown chakra to help me "transmit" a request to the Universe (some might call it prayer, but due to bad church experiences I don't refer to it as this). I sent the message that I wanted this particular girl who had kind of dissed me to be interested again. Then I got this distinct impression from the Universe that if I set my intention this way for this that it most certainly would work, BUT (there is always a but) it would alter my life path and that I would not acheive the highest spiritual potential that I would otherwise in this life. Naturally at first I would have none of this, cause I like this girl and was going through all this trouble because I wanted her. Then a funny thing happened, she emailed me that I should call her and poked me on facebook, though she had ignored me for several days. Then I had this sort of mental vision of two line graphs in my mind. The first line graph showed my spiritual progress with this girl, and it went down rapidly, the second showed my spiritual progress with out her, and it soared. So after telling myself I was an idoit I told the Universe to "call it off" that I would not seek to have this girl in my path. After that I replyed to the email that she suddenly sent me, and guess what... so far have not gotten any response. It would seem that as soon as I told the Universe to call it off, she got really cold again. This naturally caused me to think more about this topic, and about all the other girls that it didn't seem to work out with, and suddenly I saw it on a different plane than I had before. What if it didn't work out with those girls for the same reason that I have begun to look at totally hot babes and just not "feel it", perhaps its because they are simply not on my path, they are not part of my Tao??

In that case I'm well on my way lol

That pretty much sums up my practice. It seems if I try to get anymore involved than that it just gets too complicated.