Maddie

I have no idea what we're even talking about anymore and I still love it 😊🥴🩷

Maybe we're well on our way to becoming boring 😌 I just stopped at whole foods on the way back from work. Didn't even get one funny look. Come on guys you got to give a girl a little bit of excitement lol

Oh the "Aeneid" and "Dante"

The only one I could really make out was the "Iliad"

What do you do for a living?

you make her sounds like Morticia Adams lol

did you get your "cootie shot" so you don't catch it? lol

The right likes to say we groom kids and such, things like that.

Thank you for your contribution

Miss vanilla longs for that day. Actually the best part about becoming "passable" was being ignored at the store.

Sounds like a kinky super hero

I like how this little thread has become the lgbtq+ (and allies) club house :-)

Can you give me a reference please? I have read a lot of the Suttas and have never seen this.

The weird thing is, is that you are not the first person to tell me this. I'm like "hey I'm nice" lol

I don't know what that means lol.

Oh no, I actually saw this at the grocery story of all places and liked the color. This was just a quick try on after the store. Actually when I did my cross dressing experiment it was not a dress. It was actually a tank top, shorts, a wig and makeup lol. I don't really wear jewelry, it makes my qi feel weird lol.

Which Shaolin Kung Fu methods cultivate the mind through the body if you don't mind me asking?

That is a really pretty outfit. Here's the only picture I think I have of myself in a dress. I don't wear it often

Haha, I also don't really care for dresses, but most of the women in my family and most of my female friends have always been jeans and shorts types of gals. I rarely wear one. Also I think part of me thinks its a bit "cliche". Also between how much I work (scrubs) and jujitsu (gi) that's pretty much what I wear 90% of the time anyways. Then at home its just a tank top and gym shorts.

So much of what you said was so relatable. I constantly battled mysterious anxiety and depression my whole life but could not find any obvious source much of the time. When I first became aware of what trans people were I also had a mixture of fascination, and revulsion. I grew up in Texas. A very conservative and religious place. I didn't even know trans people existed and if I had I would have thought to do something like that would be one of the most disgraceful things one could possibly do to themselves. Fast forwarding a lot, one of the main reasons that I became interested in internal cultivation was because of the constant anxiety and depression that I was constantly feeling all of the time. So very early on, on the path I began meditation. At first I was horrified and thought meditation either didn't work or was harmful to my mental health because almost as soon as I began meditation feelings of being a girl came to the surface very quickly. This naturally horrified me and as I fought it my anxiety and depression became worse. I spent several more years meditating, thinking that if I could just meditate enough I could "meditate the trans away". This obviously didn't work and the anxiety and depression only became worse as I continued to meditate. Fast forwarding a little more the fact that I was a girl was becoming this constant internal screaming that I could no longer ignore. Therefore I decided to to an "experiment" and dress like a girl and "indulge" my mind. I fully expected to "get it out of my system" and then that would be the end of my "shameful" cross dressing experiment. So on my day off I went to the thrift store got a girl outfit (my face was red from embarrassment) and took it home. I put it on and instead of feeling ridiculous like I thought I was going to, I felt so comfortable. I realized right then and there that I was trans. I just remember staring at the floor all day in disbelief. The other thing I noticed was once I acknowledged it the constant anxiety and depression that I dealt with constantly just disappeared over night. I could not believe it.

That definitely works as well.

Thank you so much for sharing! I found a lot of that relatable and will go into more detail soon.

Oh you mean like Kung Fu stuff??

I'm very sorry to hear that. If you don't mind sharing would you care to elaborate? I don't actually know any trans people in real life so I would love to hear someone else's story (that's of course if you are comfortable sharing).

Would you mind sharing which Buddhist traditions work through the body? I have never heard of this.