Maddie

This is interesting because for several years after I started meditating and these thoughts and feelings started to come up I thought something was both wrong with me and meditation so I fought it, and I fought it hard. Some of the exact same points that other people in this chat have brought up were thought by me, such as why would the outward expression of my body even matter. Can't I just be "spiritual" enough so that its irrelevant. But what I realize was that fighting myself was a type of repression and that the point of meditation was to know the mind. I was instead trying to control the mind which is the opposite of knowing. When I came to this realization that control was the opposite of knowing and that point of meditation was to know was when I stopped fighting what my mind and body were trying to tell me and instead let go of the control and embraced the knowing and therefore the acceptance.

If you watch that first youtube video I posted they show some interesting studies where they studied the brains of transgendered people and found that their actual brain composition was different than the same brains for cis people of the same sex. Luke you are like the least offensive and most sensitive person on here lol. Not understanding something is not offensive. Not wanting to understand and instead judging is.

I think the reason the topic of transgenderism brings out so many feelings in people is because it gets into the question of "what am I actually" which is relevant to everyone.

The body and the "spirit" if you want to call it that are connected though. To suppress what the mind is actually doing in order to appear "spiritual" is actually a form of denial. Ask me how I know lol ;-)

I don't know because I have definitely worked on my mind a lot. But then again I'm on a forum that is about such things.

Meditation is a very ambiguous word. The Buddha himself did many types of meditation before he sat beneath the tree and did the sort of meditation that caused him to become enlightened. I did Buddhist mindfulness meditation with a focus on how desire causes suffering. This is what changed things for me.

karma and the inclination of the mind affects our rebirth according to the Buddhist sutras, therefore if you feel that way, that is what would bring you back.

I have actually put some thought into this based off of the Buddhist scriptures and it seems like that if you let go of sexuality and focus on compassion then you are more likely to be reborn in a Brahma realm which is genderless. So I guess that??

The fact that there is so much misunderstanding is the main reason why I wanted to start this thread even though I'm generally a pretty shy person. But yes drag queens are a stage act not an real life identity.

For real, I think my actually reaction would be WTF?! again? lol

This is exactly the issue!

Your experience sounds amazingly relatable!

I went to college in Alaska :-)

Not insensitive at all, this is a Q&A after all lol. But no the act of transitioning did not change the desire for a family and such. I think the meditation that caused me to realize that I am trans in the first place did change that desire though. I have done a lot of Buddhist meditation and since Buddhism is focused on letting go of attachment I became asexual and have no desire for such things.

I have absolutely no idea LOL 🤣

That is very interesting actually

I think the primary difference between a fem boy and a trans girl are still gender identification. A fem boy still identifies as a boy. Maybe a feminine boy but still a boy. While a trans girl identifies as a girl.

I suppose then we should define terms. What deeper level do you think exists and why? And what about the videos seems superficial and why?

You should watch the youtube video that I posted, it speaks about this. Basically gender is a mental thing. If you look at cultures throughout history and around the world how they interpret gender varies greatly. Gender is an identity. Identities are of the mind. Sex is physiological.

I think cultivation made me asexual because I was doing Buddhist mindfulness meditation with an emphasis on observing craving and how that craving led to suffering.

You have been on this forum a long time and I didn't think you were being malicious. I could see how my old posts would be confusing in the light of current events which is one reason (amongst others) that I decided to just make a post about trans stuff to clear up any confusion and maybe answer questions about the topic.

Oh well fortunately after the early awkward phase most people don't realize I am trans in public so I get treated like any other woman. My family on the other hand for the most part has disowned me.

After meditating and realizing I was trans I had a bunch of repressed memories come back from when I was little. I showed tendencies back then and then I was forced to repressive them the point that I did not even consciously realize this for a long time. I'm not exactly sure what you mean by behaviors that I see socially exactly but one thing I have noticed is the loss of male privilege. I do find that the difference of how I'm treated as a woman versus a man is pretty different sometimes for sure.

I realized I kind of glossed over this part of what you said. Something really important to understand when it comes to transgender issues is the difference between the gender and sex. Sex is a little more straightforward and it's based on physiology and genitalia. Gender is actually a cultural and psychological identification of the mind. The important thing to realize is that gender and sex are not synonymous and that the reason people who identify as a different gender than their sex transition is so that they can align their sex more correctly with the gender that they identify with. Another common misconception and important point to realize is that it's not a conscious choice just in the same way that sexual preference is not a conscious choice.