Leidee

Don't try too hard. I have a friend who has been meditating for 2 and 1/2 years before he felt the microcosmic orbit happen spontaneously. He wasn't expecting it and it took him by surprise. Best to let ideas of what could or should happen go and just do what feels like it needs to be done at the time

I am doing a bit of inner healing work...actually, I am doing *a lot* of inner healing work I see one very special lady who I trust implicitly and, over the two or so years I have known her, I am obviously working through different layers of stuff. Which brings me to the issue of women and anger. How do women experience anger? Do we even know how to experience anger? Do we feel we are allowed to experience anger? Am I the only woman completely confused and scared of this emotion?? I know I have anger in me (this is why I don't drink - I am an angry drunk); but I don't yet feel consciously connected to my anger. Anger confuses me a bit, I guess. Particularly when it is viewed in connection with what is considered as "appropriate" feminine or lady-like behaviour. Maybe I don't know how to express it or own it (yet)... Open to all comments Just don't piss me off cos I might get... well... confused?

How interesting that this discussion has amped up again! I have picked up a lot of behavioural repressions as I have grown and developed...it is only now at 30 years young that I am beginning to be able to accept my anger, my love, my happiness, my sexuality, my jealousies etc etc. I still hit problems now and then and revert back to more childish responses but I feel recently I have struck on a way to feel the emotion without being a slave or victim to it. The emotion doesn't exist without me so how am I feeding it? Of late I have really not been doing and qigong , taichi or meditation - I have just kind of thrown myself into a more active life, putting myself in situations where I am out of my comfort zone and letting things come and wash over me. I think doing this has created the environment for my recent growth but soon it will be time to get back to my daily practices and take it all in at other levels. Probably what it comes down to overall for me is this: I am a strong woman and part of my strength is the healthy expression of ALL emotion. I am also an intelligent woman and part of my strength is using my intelligence. For a while I learned to tone myself down so as not to intimidate people around me (particularly men) but I have realised that toning myself down creates tension within myself.

Fear is important if it opens your mind/senses to situations, places or people you would be better to not be involved in. I think it comes down to awareness of why that sensation or emotion has arisen. The flipside, Can you acknowledge the feeling of fear and decide that it isn't going to stop you from achieving your goals? The illusion of fear is (in my opinion) the feeling that the experience of fear alone can stop you from doing things... All of the emotions are illusory to a certain extent, I suppose. If we allow the emotions alone to define our behaviour -"I'm in love, I can achieve anything!" or "I feel scared, I can't do anything"- then we feel we are at the mercy of forces that we are unable to control rather than acknowledging that perhaps we can harness the power of the emotions to maintain our centre or our life path or whatever it is you want to experience in your life....

I don't think Witch said or inferred that any man under 7inches is WORTHLESS. I appreciate that for guys the topic of penis size is a touchy subject (or at least seems to be considering the absolute bashing Witch has received for simply expressing an opinion) but it seems completely unnecessary to make judgements or offensive comments to her or about her. Hey - I'm a chick - maybe I should get pissed about a post about increasing breast size? Who started it? What a wanker...etc etc yadda yadda yadda. Or perhaps we could talk about how a post about increasing breast size has somehow been completely rail roaded by discussions about penis size.... I mean - offense can be inferred in anything, if that is what you want to see. In conclusion - all penises are beautiful and useful...as beautiful/useful as the person to whom they are attached Peace L PS - I like men's shoulders and hands...and butts. Oh - I just like the whole lot

I did notice the focus on the material in the dvd but I pretty much dismissed it as for me material things are not a driving force - nice to have if the opportunity arises, but not a huge necessity. I watched the secret and enjoyed it, took a few things from it - reminded myself of the power of my intent and then went on my merry way again I will check out the Magnetic Millionaire. Cheers L - who is clearly not having a busy day at work given this is my third posting (on this website alone) for the day

I watched the secret a few months ago so I cannot specifically remember what was said about controlling your thoughts...other than the complete uselessness of attempting to do so. Trying to NOT think of something, a bad event or something, is a waste of time - according to the secret (and i am struggling to find the words)...the universe responds to the INTENT of the thought, not the specific form of the thought. Or perhaps, the universe or the law of attraction doesn't differentiate between acknowledging the provision or circumstances of a GOOD event as opposed to a BAD event. It is all about the vibe, man you know, the constitution...(a bad "The Castle" reference).

Don't diss "The Secret"... Worthy programme, even if in some circles it is a rehash of ideas because, conversely, in other circles it provides new information/ideas/emotions that have never been experienced before. Everything has its place...altho the whole Oprah thing frustrates me slightly...but, I can't diss Oprah because, in her own way, she provides inspiration to people somewhere.

I caught an advert for a television show where a lady was asking "Is it true that 'when the trust is gone' that it cannot be repaired?". I only briefly caught the end of the advert and, I have assumed, she is talking about the issue of trust in intimate relationships. But, it got me to thinking about trust and its abuses. How much of "trust" is actually based on your personal assumption of appropriate behaviour and, consequently, and subsequent loss of that trust perhaps isn't necessarily caused by some other person's actions but by a lack of clarity in explaining what behaviour is or is not acceptable to you? Or, is to say "I trust you" (based upon certain accepted behaviours that I may or may not tell you about!) yet another emotional manipulation within the dynamics of human relations? And, so in these circumstances, where does the abuse of trust begin? Is the first abuse the lack of clarity and expectation that some other person will behave in the exact same ways as I? The second abuse possibly the actions of the other person? The third abuse ??? In my view, it is trite to say that there is some universal moral or ethical behaviour that everyone should adhere to or, if not adhered to, at least accept that there is an expectation that such things should be ahered to. Clearly, when you consider some of the more extreme actions of people (murder, rape etc etc) it seems apparent that not everyone lives by the same moral/ethical code. Not that this realisation condones those behaviours (or the punishments sometimes applied to those behaviours). Personally, my experience is that people often find it difficult to trust me in the immediacy because I am not an obviously consistent person. I can love and care for people and yet happily not see or contact that person for an extended period of time (even within romantic relationships) - perhaps my consistency or regard for relationships is in more of a global or universal mode, than a strictly personal consideration. I digress, though. Anyway - just throwing this out there and am interested in other people's opinions. What is trust? How do we apply it in the context of ourselves and our relations with other people? Or whereever this particular conversation leads us Peace out L

I meditate in my own different ways every day - but try to get at least 2 sessions a week of seated meditation in. It isn't natural for me to have too much of a static routine so I like to change things up a fair bit. The upside is that I don't lose interest; the downside is that it generally takes me longer to "master" anything in particular...but in my own way and in my own time I get there L

Just going to jump in here... Something I keep feeling through Wayfarer's posts is a lament for the belief that we have lost the ability to care in a direct, obvious physical way - or, maybe more accurately, that we have lost the interaction involved with caring. Personally, I do not believe that people don't care and I also do not believe that people care less now than they did 50 years ago. My life is full of rich experiences, both in "real life" and in on line experiences where I give caring - be it warmth, words, sense of humour, touch, smiles (smiles is a big one guys and m'leidees!) and I find most people are just waiting, waiting so patiently for someone to be KIND to them. And all it took for this change to occur in my life was to change the way I thought and felt about myself and to extend that change into the way I would treat other people. Wayfarer - have you watched The Secret? I don't know much about quantum physics (other than I think Fred Wolff is a frkn LEGEND) but, in essence, your thoughts shape your reality. If you already envisage or imagination what you are going to see/experience in the near future, it is almost impossible to see the real experience through the fog of your expectations. Also, Wayfarer - I do find it interesting that whilst you lambast society for not caring you mention your work for tenant's rights (from memory - so forgive me in advance if I have the details incorrect!). Why? Sean - did you get that inquiry from Byron Katie? Anyway - that's my two cents. Peace out Leidee

I was weird(er) today as well. Also, for a few hours I felt quite foggy and woozy - sort of nearly dizzy. It passed by the afternoon...

One secret for me... Use in my training what is useful while it is useful and let it pass when it is the right time. Be flexible and relaxed about what I am doing. Plus - training partners come and go. Let them go or they can drag you into their own energetic/ego driven unhealthy vortex (recent lesson!). Hey - that makes two secrets Oh and number 3 - have FUN! Lordy - just thought of another...loosen your hips.

No worries Wayfarer - I probably missed the subtleties of what you were saying I seem to miss much of late... L

Hey Wenwu I feel what you are saying. It may be good to know that everyone you interact with potentially has a lesson or experience to share with you. Your friend sounds like she was a very good influence and perhaps rather than mourning or focussing on that lack now, you could perhaps learn how to emulate her a little bit within yourself ? It is trite to say "put a smile on your dial" or it isn't so bad as any other kind of experience (and I don't direct this particularly at Wayfarer's post but these kinds of words get thrown around when ppl feel low for whatever reason and I personally don't agree with this point of view), because (I am guessing here and going from personal experience) for you, this feeling of loneliness is absolutely real and present and is not comparable to any other person's experience. Lastly, I would say that it isn't such a big thing to know how the universe works for other people...it is more important to work out for yourself your place within your reality. My experience has been that the only way I could do that was basically to totally disregard any consideration of anyone else for a period of time. Become totally independent of any other opinions or worries about acceptable behaviour etc etc and just find out what worked for me. All the best L

Perhaps Chia is referring to EXCESSIVE sadness...or perhaps a sadness/grief that becomes unhealthy for the person grieving and energetically this can create problems for the dearly departed? Interesting though...

Pero - being a gemini with the attention span of a goldfish - for me, it works to have little books or papers around me and i can take a second or too, sort of ground myself again and get on with whatever else I was doing. Hi Thaddeus - thanks for the link! I did wonder about that monologue in the film Coach Carter as, quite frankly, the movie was quite average in its script writing and then BAM! out comes this kid in the moving quoting one of the most moving collections of words I had heard in a long time hehe I will make sure to check out some of those books, too! Peace be you L

A cut and paste could work - if the words resonate with you. This is something I have on my desk at work and it is a monologue in the movie "Coach Carter"... "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." Probably a bit long for a daily mantra but I just randomly remember bits and pieces and they are words that really work for me. L

Not that there is anything wrong with that...

Sexy time. Good to see it has all lightened up

Sean D - your post starting "additional reflection..." I feel like I get your angle/passion for the first time. Cheers L

Lozen - both of my parents are teachers. My dad has been a teacher for 30 years and would never dream of being anything else - but he would be the first person to point out all of the ways the system doesn't equip all children equally. Imagine his frustration when his own daughter (being me!), who is certainly no fool (last time I checked anyway), was completely uninspired by the process of schooling. It would be nice if there were as many methods for learning as there are students to learn. It is impossible to put 1000 kids through school with only one system to teach them with and think you are going to "succeed" with each and every one. Of course, resources, pay levels for teachers, the conditions the students are expected to learn in, the food they get sold at the canteen and 1,000,000 other things have an impact on this system. I don't expect perfection... But, hey - this is just my opinion... L

"And should never run your mouth with a suspect chin" Pretty close to last line of Method Man's "Suspect Chin Music" The WU rock.

I believe we are already one with the Tao - we are the Tao, it is us. Sometimes our minds forget that... Therion - I tried to read the stuff on that website but it was like my eyes would just slide over it all...

I don't believe I said the universe will provide. Nor did I say school didn't have a place - I just said it sux The institution of schooling sux...not the concept of education. And whilst there is a level of empowerment in learning, there is a similar level of disempowerment within the school system as there are such restrictions on what a student (particularly in highschool) can and cannot learn. What I *did* definitely say is don't worry about the "hows". How a thing is going to come about and the "universe will provide" are not related in any way. Or, maybe, the universe will provide the potential of the "hows" but you have to grab it with both hands to make it happen. Making philsophical policy on the run...I am worse than a government department. If you have passion in your life, opportunities which other people simply don't see, are clearer to you. You act with inspired thought/action. It is the fire in your belly which helps you to recognise all possibility. Maybe it is lateral thinking...I don't know. To attempted clarification, Leidee