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heh, drew, im only 20 but i feel like ima break somthin when i try the full lotus, probably a ankle or a knee, lol.

Damn Zazaza, that quote you linked by Nisargadatta has me considering even more what i had been considering. Atm i play a online game with friends quite alot. They got me to start playing agian and would hate if I quit playing so thats been the main reason for me continuing(tho i find it plenty enjoyable). That quote has me feeling like i haven't been putting out nearly enough effort. hmm fiveelementtao, you make alot of assumptions. Many of them probably right lol. After reading all that you got me wanting to discipline myself, eat right and exercise. I'd have to get a job before i could eat right tho...Sadly all i see from those are desires...

I havnt been breathing threw my nose. I know every thing seem to say to but i find i have to consciously keep from breathing from my mouth and i figured the less i have to worry about the better. I just got done doin a 13 min session and i find no matter how i sit somthin is going to go asleep, mostly my right leg. I have very large veins (not varicous, yet anyway) that seem to sit higher on the surface than most peoples so i think thats why. I didnt even notice this time tho. As a kid I was told that could be back if too long soo ima look into that.

sooo, hows it goin CowTao

Thx everyone for the replies. I guess alot of people didnt understand or pay attention to my "(in before "don't do it, its bad for you")" disclaimer. Was basicly saying i didnt want arguments about its dangers. I suppose for some people you would need to reinforce the potential dangers to them and you guys dont know me personally so... Rest assured, if i do try it, it will be as calculated as possible.

yeah lol a while back i practiced clearing my mind as a way of mediation befor getting serious about it again and i figured laying down is the most relaxed state, but needless to say would get sleepy or fall asleep.

Just wanted to say for the first time i felt some progression and I was actually a little worryed because,like the first time i relised i was lucid dreaming the excitement ruined it and woke me up.Also recently I seemed to of started to have a out of body experience as i was going to sleep, then i noticed it and seemed to ruin it. Anyways yeah, i was looking at this Vipassana video and they were talking about just observing everything and I tryed that. Before i would try to only observe my breathing, but this time i would observe my thoughts as well, as if they wernt my own (most would say they arnt anyways). I also observed my body sensations and realised they wernt my own a bit. I tryed to realise that nothing was good or bad it was just all like "is". Ironically this is the type of philosophy iv been studying latly anyway. idk, tell me what you guys think, plx, heh edit: alot of replys i havnt read yet sense i got a phone call in the middle of my reply o yeah, ment to mention i probably only did it for like 10 mins (which is alot for me lol) mainly cuzz i decided to stop cuzz my foot was dead asleep and decided i should give it some blood edit2: yeah interesting replies, and i definitely wana try going to this place > http://www.nashvillezencenter.org/

lol thx for motivation lino Blasto, I live in Tennessee but im a bum that makes 0 moneys. The thing is blasto i feel like i cant even get started. If it takes years before i trip balls like everyone talks about getting from meditation (lol) that's fine but yeah, most of the time i feel like i am getting absolutely nothing from the practice or deprogressing if that's even possible. idk, atm guess ill just keep at it..and try to keep in mind what you guys said So, you dont recommend it? atm ill looking at some videos about it on youtube and iv already got some things I wana try.

Just wanted to let you know im glad you post these, I cant say much about this one tho cuzz i personally didnt get much out of this particular one. What are these from anyway?

Some people believe sertain religions were created for control of people, for one reason or another. Anyone think taoism could been tampered with along the road or messed with/ created by like a ago old cult or the nwo?

http://www.gokgs.com/applet.jsp Play Go online, interesting age old Japanese game of judgment and stratagem http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcxAJnFuWcg satire song, lyrics are the best http://www.jesusneverexisted.com/ found that site interesting when i was trying to decide http://www.nonduality.com/asmi.htm zazaza showed me this, very interesting http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-7...84908568593154# learn about the power of hemp http://www.weiwuwei.8k.com/bits.html guess most have seen this, but for those that haven't plz feel free to add on.

i typoed hydro... 2 reason for the name one bruce lee two weed i actually didnt even noticed i typoed it till you mentioned it my spellings pretty damn bad but hydro i could spell

One thing i dont understand is if underneath, im not my ego ,but ultimate awareness or w/e shouldn't i be able to stop the show on will? Or does my ultimate awareness just want the show to go on?I think i put the question right.

yeah, zazaza iv still been studying Nisargadatta sence you linked it to me, so happy for it. Drew i wanted to try DMT a while back but was never able to harness it ,heh. I dont think i could really grow much on my land and am too much of a bum to buy the stuff to make it grow. Cowtao, im watchin thos links now. thx heaps for the replys all.

Wow, didnt even think that was posible, sounds very interesting. I really hate defining myself now but yeah it seems as tho my mind has like mild ADD and little patience. I feel as tho its my subconscious enforcing this even more but not sure how to unprogram it. I'll like try chi gong or simple meditations but i dont feel like i get anything from them. Seems so hard for me to clear my mind. Also, i dont have the meens to eat healthy so im sure thats not helping. Recently iv been really focusing on letting go of my ego. I had always wanted to try cid but now i feel even more incentive. maby you or someone could help me from that little rant?

Biff, was wondering if you would want to put more description in the cockroach thing, it sounds interesting. Also could be a while before a try it, if i do. I'll probably try your suggested experiment if i do tho and try to get back to you. The main thing im interested in with the acid is the ego death.

I want to loose my idea of self/ego from my subconscious and also loose alot of conditioning that iv inevitably gathered from birth till now. I figure meditation would be a really good tool for this but hardly know anything about it. Iv seen several post about meditation but none seem to touch on this topic(tryed tao google search too). So ye, if someone knows a good (preferably simple) meditation exercise for this plz share. However if someone has somthing els to help with this goal thats more than welcome too. and i think thats it. p.s. think it was alan watts that said somthin like "ego dosnt exist ,yet its hard to get rid of" or somthin like that heh

CowTao i liked both videos you linked especially the Steve Armstrong one. The other one had a link to "Where Science and Buddhism Meet" and atm im half way threw the second part and its talkin a bunch about quantum mechanics. ummm yeah, anyway heres link if anyone wants p.s. thx everyone for replys edit: now i remember what i was gonna say, seems to me that if alot of quantum mechanics is true its kinda a scary thought in a way cuzz it says that everyone's perceptions creates the world around us and we all know how crazy everyones perceptions are now days.

OMG this "watcher" is loving the hell out of nisargadatta's book. I will definitly try that, thx for reply

I have only read a few sentences from the book you linked but wanted to go ahead and reply. First, thx for the reply. I found the emptiness meditation you were talking about in the other post interesting, and am definitely gonna try a bit of that. Also the book already looks promising. Did want to mention that at one point i really wanted to reflect (mainly on Confucianism) under the influence of acid(would be my first time). This was before i had discovered taoism and my friend had some good stuff he had already tryed. I used to smoke bud alot and think and it really enjoyed that. I mention all this cuzz youv peaked my intrest in it again talking about the egodeath lol. Anyways, mainly wanted t say thx for reply o ye, p.s. what is all this talk of non duality, like the site you linked is called nonduality.com and i dont understand because we live in a duality universe . Maby its like saying there isnt really a good and bad just a this and that? Thats the only thing i can figure.

A stand up bit came to my mind (think was by Chris rock)when reading this, but in it he pointed out "when you meet someone, your meeting their representative" lol

Anyone know anything about super-z-lite, micronized zeolite (with ocean and plant derived ionic trace minerals)? I got this a while back to try and remove some of the heavy metals in my body but not sure how much good it does.

I find this interesting but really dont have much to say or add. Suppose i could bring up how adrenaline is supposed to slow or stop your digestive track anyways but surly the scientist would already know of that lol.

The first part of the quote I'm not sure i understand. What did you mean by resistance and is it bad? I may try it soon. About the second quote, what do you mean transmission? What would be transmitted, and to what? I may try this as well, but iv only got the woods in back yard lol -thx everyone for the replies

Yeah, as the shock has faided iv become more skeptical, but still not really picking a side. I dono maby i wont explore qigong sence i wouldnt have a teach and eveyrthing seems to stress having one. However, anyone els out there doing it without a teacher dont let me discourage them. Thx for replys