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omg... I KNEW it...! btw, the chem-trails are a conspiracy... in which planes are spraying somesort of chemical into the air. for what purpose? everyone has their suspicions. who exactly is doing it? prrroooobably the government. Have people been killed to cover up the truth? are there victims?? is our very future jeopardized by the terrorthat are the chem-trails? YES. SOMETHING is happening and if there is an uprising to COUNTER this threat we are all in DEEP TROUBLE. if you goole-chem trails, you will find all the proof you need in pictures. there are documentaries... canadian radio broadcasts warning us of the danger... It's all on the internet, man. chem-trails are MURDER.

oooOooOo.. for wealth, I have 'seven killings'.. that sounds cool... and for pleasure, I have both 'emporer' and 'emporess'... that sounds promising... for health, I have roof-beam.. which sounds to me that I am on a perpetual journey to the apex... (great...) and for marriage I have 'generalissimo'.. ming is 'rebel'... property is 'moon lady'.. (I hope she's hot!) ancestor, 'state oracle'... I am still dissapointed with the constellation. RAT? I want to be something cool like dragon, or pheonix. Now I have to settle with master splinter from teenage mutant ninja turtles. ... which I guess is pretty cool, actually...

year, fire tiger month, metal rabbit day, metal dragon hour, wood rooster. inner element, metal. constellation, rat. wood 4, fire 2, earth 1, metal 4, water 1. there is a side note: you are one sexy dude. you are destined for great porno stardom. OMG YES

ah, man, you're kidding? =\ one thing about me.. is I am very, very open-minded to everything... but this means I am incredibly gullible, as well. the trade-off is good though... I just get fucked by alot of people... not just in my readings and stuff... everyday people take advantage of me every now and then. (probably why I am so averse to liars...) lol, you know I was absolutely CONVINCED of the whole chem-trails thing... OMG LOL.... I saw it happen! ...yes! if you have details I would like to hear them!

hey what do you think about hat book, holy blood, holy grail? I got a quarter of the way through it.. and lost it =( I am sure it is around somewhere... I took it to a land-navigation course LOL... I really did appreciate the extremely interesting tid-bits of information amidst all the really boring shit.. definately worth reading for... does it get better? towards the end..? (does it tell you how to join the ranks of the modern manifestation of the templar order??? lol)

I remember when I was 16, 17.. searching the net for leads to god.. I think this is the very begining of my spiritual practice... I was grudging through psychedlic pages... timothy leary and the sort... and I found a qabbalah forum. At the time, I knew I found something special. It was a public forum, apparantly, because I did post something.. but it wa sso hidden in the net I don't know if I will ever find it again.. if it, hopefully, still exists. I had no idea what qabbalah was, and they were talking in a language that was my own.. but so cryptic I had absolutely no idea what the fuck they were on about. I believe that forums, decent forums like this one, serve as a gateway to knowledge.. and can provide a broader and more in-depth knowledge than books, or sectarian teachers, even. (because we all share, which is awesome...) so anyways, if anyone knows of any like really cool forums.. especially in regards to western alchemy, occult qabbalah, that sort of thing, (because that is my current interest...) then I would be most appreciative! here is one, if anyone cares... http://forums.abrahadabra.com/showthread.php?p=2062 very interesting! too smart for me =) -- I mean OMG, look at this... "Hermeticism has alway held a special allegiance to the Ogdoad and the Ennead as constituting a central principle in its own philosophy of mind and matter, yet the reasons for this have never been entirely clear. The binary and ternary mathematics of the far east provide the clearest explanation for this possible at this time, yet have generally been treated as a quaint curiosity at best by most western thinkers, until more recently when it became recognized that the underscoring mathematics of DNA and the I Ching are identical. It has taken the unexpected emergence of Genetics Science to return us full circle to the clarity and the universiality of these ancient metaphysical constructs. " whoooooaaaa! was anyone else aware of this?? I think that these western systems may prove to intellectual for me

yeah, that's it. =p

I have now read from a couple of different sources that western occultismis the best suited spiritual practicefor western people. eastern practice for eastern people. this is because, apparantly, of our inherent mental and spiritual frameworks. on an intersting note.. madame blavatsky (or whatever,) outright said that caucasion white men are the least suited humans for magic. I like to think that I am an exception lol... but it is a discouraging thing to read. on the bright side though.. blavatsky may just as well have been a little bit crazy. she is, afterall, the only person (I know of,) to talk about a city of mahatmas.. or great sould or whatever.. in the himilaya's. I am assuming it is astral... but why hasn't any other master confirmed this? I think I am half-crazy and half-psychic, because I 'hear' peoples' thoughts sometimes. I think that blavatsky was simliar to me in this respect. --- do you think that by studying the tao te ching, or smiliar items, brings out archetypical behavior in the student? (ie, specifically-- reading the tao te ching brings out the 'wise old man' in you...) how long do you think you would haveto study the tao te ching, and live through the 'wise old man' archetype, to make it a permanent imprint on your psyche, (persona, specifically? then again I think I know the answer to this... as long as I am right about the studying bringing out the archetype in you.)

the 'orthodox' christians persecuted all other christian sects.. most notably the gnostics. it has been suggest that th eburning of the library of alexandria was purposed for the destruction of records documenting such persecution. I think it was the 5th or 6th crusade.. in which an entire state of 'neo-christians' were killed.. absolutely wiped out... in what is nowadays romania I believe.. I read it in the book, 'holy blood, holy grail'... apparantly the church was threatened by the relatively advanced spiritual doctrine of these 'christians', so he ordered a sort of religious genocide.. killed every man woman and child in every town the conquering forces travelled to... he had alot of help from bourguoise (spelling?) provinces.. who were just happy to plunder the (relatively) rich victim states. modern christianity is built on a foundation of horrible crimes against humanity.. countless and monstrous.. the wiser part of me thinks that we should pack all the christian fundamentalists into the vatican and blow them all to hell... taking their fucking religion with them.. jesus might have been a great guy, but a real fucking dumbass, too. too bad he wasnt such a master to see what his martydom would accomplish. HEY OMG... MAYBE THE TRUE STORY: HE WAS PISSED OFF WITH MANKIND, SO HE KNOWINGLY PUNISHED US WITH CHRISTIANITY?! ooooooooooOOoooooOhhh..... I fucking hate monotheistic fundamentalist trash... I would have little qualms putting a bullet in the head of alot of these people. I think I would enjoy it. splattering their brains (and "idea's") into a bloody mess on the pavement of a street. they are the bane of this world, and the truest manifestation of evil.

this is a very intersting thread topic =) it leads to much reflection..thanks man =) you know, I have practced rather intensely (if I may say so myself!) breathing techniques... breathing in itself (ie pranayama,) never showedresults equal to other practices. I find that in the best meditation techniques I pursue, the breathing mechanism is a mere nuisance. this is not to say that breathing hasn'tbeen ideal in supplemental aspects. when I have done excercises similiar to bone marrow nei kung, it is wonderful.. as a tool. now, I find, I can 'inhale' the chi into my body with only my mind.. which means, of course, that the 'breathing the chi into your body' is simply a meditative tool. I have had promising resultsfrom several other exercises... though despite such results, I never seem to stick with the practices. I know, that one day, if I were to somehow muster the discipline and circumstances.. I could possibly combine these techniques for awesome, awesome results. these are: bhanda locks . after just a week of half hour-hour of practice a day, I can feel dense energy in my spine. inhaling and solidfying chi in the lower tan tien this was a practice I experimented with not so longago after I read 'the magus of java'. it had a similiar, perhaps better effect than the bhanda lock technique on my spine. after much practice, it seemed that the chi I was solidifying in my LTT was being pushed up my spine. microcosmic orbit such a fundamental excercise for taobums I don't need to say more, judging from my past experiences with these excercises, I really, truly believe that with right eating, and celibacy, I could cultivate such a large mass of dense, manifest energy in my spine as to force a kundalini awakening. I think I could do it in a matter of 3-6 months, (mayhaps less, I really don't know!).. perhaps in a monastary-type setting I would be successful. BUT.... the practice I always find myself coming back to.. inbetween, before and after all the others... is inner-awareness. I simply 'feel' my soul.. (I wouldn't call it qi, or jing.. but believe it is probably shen...) from this follows bodily detachment.. there develops a sort of recognized distinction between my manifest, physical body and it's ego, and my.. uh, soul I guess. lol. the latter practice is much more satisfying than the prior, (which concentrate on dense energy for the pruposes of purfying the physical body, I guess...) but I believe that the prior practices, if I could be successful in pursuing them to the end, could provide a much mroe immediate WHAM.. and could, in the long run, probably be of more benefit for my latter excercises. but wait... I guess there would be no reason why I couldn't practice everything at once. I mean, the prior excercises or active.. the latter passive... hmm =p

I really want to know what it all means =(

I had started as soon as I agreed to a new diet. I wentgrocery shopping at my local commissary.. (about 20 min in another town...) and realized how unrealistic a raw diet is for me.perhaps it might have worked, but the number of foods I would belimited to would be ridiculous, stressful, possibly even counter-productive.... (even with the beef jerky...) So... I had decided on a new diet.. one I have tried before, but stopped because I wasjust going hungry a little too often. it's a simple, no-preservative, no additive diet. "100% natural" kind of foods...I guess my unconcious also decided I would not eat any red meats... I almost cheated today for lunch. I am working at a new health clinic now, and lunch options are limited to the on-post dining facility, (which sucks OMG,) and burger king. ...so I went offpost to a local chinese food joint... they were filled to capacity, though, so I didn't get a chance to ruin my running. I doubt I will ever notice any kind of benefit.. it will probably be too subtle to notice. But I think I will be proud and pleased to continue a no-preservative, no-additive diet.... until I forget =) you know, you can eat chips and salsa on this diet =) if I can get "100% natural" salsa at my local PX, I'm sure anyone can get it almost anywhere in the states =)

I very much enjoyed the title =p I don't understand why you would do these excercises for your penis when you could be doingsimiliar practices for your chakra's or something. It's your penis, man. have fun with it. *I* personally, you know, have a very big penis. my erections are like rock solid hard... and I get so big and purple and throbbing... and this happens anywhere. I have to wear two pairs of super-tight briefs if I ever want to contain the thingin my pants... unless I want to wear a suit of armor... anywas, if you just want a bigger penis.. I would suggest something that is not so... meditation intense. I'd suggest enhancements.(I don'tknow of any to suggest.) try taking viagra regularly.

I don't know if I am 'using' meridians when I do macro. I can't feel my meridians yet.

i disagree. that seems rather illogical to me. if the muscles relax and let go... your arms go down. some degree of tension is necessary just in the act of keeping your arms up. perhaps if you're quite an adept and it's not your muscle keeping your arms up... but chi... and if you have this kind of mastery, to keep limbs floating on the power of chi alone... I would call you a master. but... how long would such a feat usually take? I am guessing perhaps over an hour. a guess a good question is... has anybody gotten to that point in their standing practice?

oh, lol, I've done it a bit differently than that. down the outsides of my legs, up the inside of my legs, and to my armpits. down the inside of my arms, up the outside of my arms, and then down my sides, to start again going down the outside of my legs =) I would also say I don't think it matters... and that white skeleton is probably better.. not as in-depth as bodri would have you do it.. but feel energy coming down into your head, and filling the whole of your body as it goes down to your feet, and then reverse the process going up from your feet this way, you cover the whole of your bodies' circumferences, and your not concentrating on just a few imaginary lines.

when I *do* stand, (uhhh...), I stand in several of the embracing-the-tree variances, as outlined in 'taoist sexual yoga', (or something,) written by yusemblove (or something..) he used to be a student of chia, I think? I don't think I've successfully managed to stay in ETT pose for more than 15 minutes. At around that point, it's not so much about the energy cultivation as it is about forcing your arms to stay up through the pain... and energy cultivation is thrown out the window because you can'tconcentrate anymore... seems stupid to me... so I switch around poses to keep my shoulders comfortable.

I agree. it was a very pleasant surprise =)

omg my discipline is an absolute joke. But I'll do it! --with one exception-- I will be including beef jerky. otherwise I would go insane. other than that.. nuts... fruits... vegetables. It's only seven days, right?

it is re-absorbed by the body, I believe. about da vinci-- WOW.

One ejaculation contains the same amount of proteins, vitamins, minerals and amino acids as eight ounces of steak, ten eggs, six oranges and two lemons. --- this was pointed out by sean in a relating thread. I think this is incredibly interesting... do we know if it is the seminal fluid or the prostatic fluid that is so 'nutritous' (lol)? I would think it is the sperm-- the prostatic fluid merely acting as a lubricant. I think we need to find a guy who can see on an astral level, and two guys, one with a vasectomy. have both these guys cum on paper white plates, and see what the aura-seer has to say about each specimen. =p

BUT how can you assume all of this? when you burn shut the vas-tubes, yeah, the sperm can't go anywhere.. but if you DIDN'T burn the vas-tubes, it could still only go up to the prostate, and then out of your penis! (ie, this means I seriously doubt that closing the vas-tubes will make it harder to circulate sperm in the brain and bone-marrow. In fact, I think that since there is not any kind of tube leading from the testicles to the brain, it is safe to say that it is not the sperm itself that is being circulated, but the subtle power on an astral level. I don't understand why prostate fluid can be considered 'alchemically important'. Is it the fluid that is lost (sperm?? or spermANDprostate fluid???), or is it the act of the ejaculation itself??? BIG QUESTION! I am standing on a fence-- on oneside, I believe that a vasectomy can prove to be as effective as the most sincerest of celibacies... ...and on the other side of the fence, I believe that it might be the act of the ejaculation itself, not necessary the fluids lost, that is the cause of energy drain. then again I am not awakened, nor am I a researcher.

AW and psychedlics??? oooooooooo aweomse O_O I am a firm believer in the spiritual potential pf psychedlic use. (shame I can't really do it anymore...)

I will be getting back to the states soon, to go to school. I am hoping I will fall into serious practice again soon, and have considered trying to renew my interest via western practice... ie, hermeticism. (specifically, hermetic qabbalah, maybe alchemy..) I am thinking I would also like to find and join 'societies' such as the free-masons, occult societies, etc. in the hopes of finding occult adepts. (is this likely??) It seems that if such groups exist, *finding* them would be an accomplishment initself. I know sean was very interested in similiar things before an involvement in taoist practice.. perhaps you could give some hints, tips, advice, and perhaps a decent reading list? ( I have no idea what to buy off of amazon...)

no no, vagina's are a good thing =)