suninmyeyes

(To the OP) Actually you can do it even without money , it is possible . It is doable , of course it is , but there may be another sets of problems to deal with . There are so many things in life that are doable , but most of the people say -- no it is not possible , you cant do this , it is dangerous ,arent you scared , are you sure ?-- better think over it 5 times and give up if you want to be safe .. Predominatly it is the question of getting priorities right . ..but why are you telling us this , is it because you felt excited about it ? Or ? Anyway report how is it going ..

Cat , funny this thread pops out when I am going proper out out this week first time after literally more than a decade(!) . I definetly was a clubber since 15 till about 24 non stop . Had extremely good times and that is why I did it . Danced once for almost 13 hours and ended up in hospital etc. Dancing is great , but clubs are really not my kind of atmosphere for regular any longer ...Give me ocean ,lake , walking in mountains and cycling in the forest or playing Capoeira (it is such a buzz -- incredible ) any day instead . However there is a feeling of (spiritual) high that a lot of clubbers feel while dancing even without drugs and that is why people do it . Something we all know and can connect to so easily . Natural urge to move to the rhytam . Try and not dance to this :

im gonna put on an iron shirt and chase devil outta earth im gonna send him to outer space to find another race .

The thing is that there is massive difference between entering the beliefs and allowing them to posses us . In another words it is the matter of either /or not "and" . Believes can only be cured or replaced with other believes . They can disspear though when not used . This details are easily omitted but are vital -- but do not believe . So if you say they are rationaly based , than it is good time to enter and understanding what is exactly rationality , where it stems from , is it permanent or situational , what is rational about rationality, when does something become rational .... This was just my point of view and some feedback , anyway it seems like you are doing fine , just don't eat tooooooooooo much Kundalini .

Better don't get rid of them , enter them fully. Feel them so completley and find out what are made of . If you really do so they wont have any legs left to stand on . Take care

Songstan -- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand take a deep breath aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaax...and again . Everything OK in your Universe today boss ? I love this quote by Milarepa that I found at the begging of a movie recently : " What appears as a demon, what is called as a demon , what is recgonised as a demon , exists within human being himself and disspears with him ."

I think that what we often consider spirituality is just a more justifyable and a good/worthy form of escapism . Good or bad -- escapism is still escapism .

Well best is to feel and do whatever is appropriate and benefits you and environment . As well as practise and concentrate on love and FEARLESSNES instead of vampires and similar .

Here is something Chief Leon Shanandooh said about paths " Everything is laid out infront of you . Your path is straight ahead of you . Sometimes is invisible, but it is there. You may not know where it is going, But you have to follow that path. The only path there is ."

hilarious!!ahaha however, deci rocks ! ok back to mysterious female ...

just about to watch this as recommended by friend , looks good. inspired by alexandra david neil book " rites and magic in tibet "

Yes I will try ..forgive my English. Hip and thigh bone dislocated , so whole of the left side sort of slided down a bit . They probably were not aligned properly at that moment . This affected dynamics of the function of the organs quite drastically and general alighment went very wrong . Any energy I had went into healing and I had to start cultivation new as if from begging. Only this time around begging was based in personal hell rather than a normal healthy persons state . Since than I managed to find out that it is not that uncommon to have this type of seemingly unusual accident in full lotus and have actually even heard of a yogi mentioning in his talk possibility of such similar occurance .

Good point RV. Just to add here for benefit of anyone that may be reading this.. Even after a good sense of body awareness and about 10 years of regular daily practise and deeper states of meditation and sitting in full lotus -- one day my body just collapsed on the left side while in full lotus . This is not a anti full lotus propaganda , but a caution . It took looooooooooooong time to heal and even now 4 years later I am feeling some problems due to serious organ damage caused like a domino effect .

just heard this in a bike shop ...

Mos def feeling supergood supermoon

Bonjur Madame , I am back after being away awhile ..and look this lovley article here on TTB . Waiting --- unbelievable ,as this is exactly my thoughts too , infact something I have been pondering . What a strange life this is ..

Wow Deci -- it took me long time to read this . I am not very academic , nor enlightened ..but this was a inspiring read . What I find most dificult these days is letting go of some anexiety of idea of how things should be . It is so boooooring , like a broken record . It seems that this spiritual path is really like going against almost anything that is commonly considered reasnoble or acceptable . Like commiting a suicide of some sort and being born again in the same life , just starting to function from a different angle /perspective .

I dont know , I actually really like you and appriciate your posts and have never thought of you as creepy in slightest . So I cannot tell you anything else . This is the bare truth . To me you come across as a brave , intelgent young man who is in touch with your self and working with deep layers of your being , becoming a beutiful butterfly . Maybe it is that you just cannot accept/recgonise that some people actualy do like you . Its very late here , see you tmrw..

No you dont sound arrogant . I get you now .

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wow you must be super hot in addition to your cultivation in that case . I certanly wasnt getting asked out twice a day by 2 different guys .. Or are you sure that girls do not like you sometimes as friends and find easy to talk to you ? It is easy to mistake sometimes between two ..

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It could be your energy body that needs clearing , I have seen my blockages in the past in just before waking state as black cloud like formation ... Have you investigated relation with your sexuality or are you trying to introduce some change in that field , becouse your dream is pregnant with meaning and is it possible connected with the orb hoovering over your chest ? Just asking these questions for you to answer yourself rather than wanting an answer as this stuff can be very personal .