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Hey Tao Meow,how about "you"are attracted or attract becouse your karma-actions ? If we want to attract something(whatever)we either have to know what we want(this is tricky becouse the idea has to be streamlined crystal clear and consistent).Or have to dislike the idea intensly which is also way of feeding the attraction becouse mind constantly dwells on it-this is done by most of us uncounciously and it is one of the reasons why people often feel stuck in life ,unfullfilled etc. So reprograming actions is the key. All this of course implies free will which IMO exsits at some plane of being/life or maybe I am just pretending it does(this part is debatable). However I do believe in the law of attraction (didnt know it was a new age thing too)as I have observed this in my life for a while now .If I am hungry I go certain food which is attractive to me becouse my karma(something makes me cringe about this word though,preheps it has been misused a lot)-mind body programing,same for lifestyle,housing,jobs ..Even gravity,the way moon is attracted in earths orbit,the way bees work ..They all seem to be subtle laws of attraction. As to why was I born in my family and not the one up the road and went through expiriences that I went when a child I can guess but have no real expirental knowledge wherther "my soul"was attracted and am trying to find out further with interest.

You seem to live in such a nice place zerostar. OK anyone I just remeberd cemeteries -they are quiet and outdoor,anyone meditates there?Rats could be disturbing I suppose,as there are loads around in my exepirience.

Meditating outside is so good ,if it is warm and dry enough(those are my conditions becouse they feel good) and if there are not too many disturbances as "you" wouldnt want to get heart attack(ok I am dramatazing here)if there is sudden disturbace.This is about sitting still meditation . Otherwise other types like chi kung and similar could be more flexible. I was wondering the same actually about the parks at night,as I was running around one the other night and really felt to go and jump the fence and do sitting there-it was so inviting ,but was scared of local kids turning up as there was some crime around and in the park at night.But living in a big city that is the only piece of nature there is. Anyone meditates in park at night?What is your expirience?

There is definetley some process ,but maybe it is just life itself. Dont know/not sure about enlightement. Things do change and get better and different expiriences come and go, but yeah maybe its just life. Just remeberd a conversation with a friend the other day as we spoke on similar subject. I said that if I had to start all over again from the begging on the path I wouldnt.Infact I wouldnt reccomend it either-it was so hard sometimes,like slowly commiting a suicide. She laughed and said-I wouldnt reccomed it either but would tell people to try some easier road of materialisam .

Hello Blasto, I had an accident few years ago and disloccated spine and hip plus few other things .Didnt take any painkillers but took up medical chi kung with someone who is very proficient in energy work .It is possible to learn to manage pain from within and very empowering. Medical chi kung is great for healing,highly reccomended.

Oh yeah and all the best!

Cat Pillar,sounds familiar in a way. Have you considered that there maybe there isnt a "center"or an I? Nothing to hold on to?Scary beutiful. At the end of every struggle I tend to think everything is as it should be ,all my efforts and non efforts,and there isnt really a struggle at all. This stuff cannot be made translated in physical sometimes ,becouse it is too slow and dense.Or maybe it could and it requires more eloquent writing skills than mine. Reprograming oneself can be a difficult task due to conditioning and past habits. Patience was/is my cultivation(as I it wasnt birth given).Slowing down.Being able to wait in general. In these cases if persistant sometimes it is just nice to do something unusual ,like traveling into different country or running a marathon or taking a week of silence or helping at the old peoples home etc.

Try look up coomunities on the net and see what suits you a lot of them will accept you as a guest or a memeber.What kind of communities are you interested in and where in the world?There is so many kinds.. And as Rainbow Vein said what are your ideas/ideals about communities? All I can say is thet people are people everywhere. It can be a lot of fun ,and it could be a pain in the a^^.In my expirience. Beware of community fundamentalists.

Hello zerostar, We were bored at work so we invented different personas for each one of us and it was hillarious. Everyone kept on calling me uncle Burt.I am so not uncle Burt.LOL What about you?

It is a special kind of toast .

I have heard it is common belief between some traditional yog and tantric practicioners -this is coming from East Indian yogi I have been learning from in past. I am not sure what he meant as I wasnt interested than,but am interested now..hehe

I will be spoilsport and say no communes for me ,have visiteda lot of them in my time and decided it doesent suit my psychological make up. They drive me crazy actually. I feel so much better for saying this.Especially the spiritual ones which can be similar to mad houses at times. A retreat hermitage place to go and stay for retreats with shared responsibilities run by a person or family or a group that lives on the property would be nice.

How about theory that Kundalini awakaned people are quite rare and when it awakens it is on top of the head|?Than a person is supposed to be sorted forever in anyway and not affected by laws of karma. Anyone heard about it ?Thats what I was fed in past anyaway.

Nice to see another nature rtereat lover.I do them too. Longest I spent was in a hut in nature 3 months.It was great and as Cow Tao says -they are addictive.I am dreaming of one right now actually..

Nice topic. The trick for me is not about finding out "why do I have this body ",but "who does this body belong to"?There is a big difference.Who is this me person ? The purpose of life?My feeling is that it is just to respond to whatever needs to be done and wants to be expressed without hurting myself or others/enviroment(this is not extremist ahimsa or anything similar). P.S I think Gerdard is right you must be going through "dark night of the soul"

Hello Astral, I think its about understanding emotions and their use,how do they form and spring to life.Than choosing to actaccordingly upon emotions if "you"wish so ,rather that react.

Non I was gonna ask,do you like women at all?Becouse it seems to me that you dislike or are so angry with them , but want to attract them.Or? We all have our"devils"to deal with.And none of them are fun and pretty. This is your battle ,accept it and be smart.It is not about avoidng hurt,but increasing pain endurance levels infinitley. And how to do it?Pick your own way. Do you have a lot of contact with young people?

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Oh Non ,I just remebered to let you know a case of good friend of mine partner.He was a virgin till 30 when she met him(and very yin and sweet guy).She had to put so much effort becouse he was shy ,but was determined to win him over and about 10 years after they are still together.. Just thought to share this with you.

Shakti Mama,I had drempt you the some nights ago ,you were in a group off three and transferred tangible force into me.I havent been around Tao Bums for a few weeks now,neither am I your student or thinking of you. It felt healing. Maybe Tao Bums is getting under my skin or something else. Sorry for being out of topic

Everything is under some sort of law of the attraction and it all depends on individual and what s/he is likes/loves. Being "good" and "selfless"(in my universe) is more and more equating with being comfortable in recent times and it feels attractive. Selfishnes does hurt(as you say),it is wrong shape that fits like a shoe that is too small.Forced selfishness is a wrong shoe on a wrong foot.