suninmyeyes

Id just like to say 27 pages thread -very epic!Been away and going to read a bit now ,I am courious..

Nice to read everyones expiriences. Being raised in mad bohemian enviroment(not the cool one,well not always at least)as a child ,always trying to to and dreaming of getting away from home,than being a teenager with the war raging in my country,poverty and all that depression around with mum growing more and more alchocolic..When 18 finally able to go away and live abroad by myself,becoming a petty criminal(nothing too exotic)and there is much more -cant be bothered to write all. By the time of 24 Ive expirienced too much of intensity of life and decided to change almost literally over night becouse a palm reader told me it would be a good idea hahaha. I thought it sounded interesting suggestion and decided to try since I ve promised myself to try everything once. 37 now and never turned back.Meditated each and every day since than without missing a day .Sometimes a long retreats.Plus took up other spiritual disciplines and this all changed my outlook and personality(still metamorphosising) and raised me in a way.

Non,I mean seriously come back to earth.Try and some dream nice dreams rather than these half baked "real"dreams.

Check Credo Mutwa ,thats what I am reading now.It is very interesting.

Lets dance

For some reason I started to think of kebab right now,I dont like them or even eat meat.

An artist can draw from emotions,feelings,nature,inspiration..And portray those or tryto use it for magical or healing purposes or whatever other reason.It depends on personality of an artist and nature of the artwork. If "you"need to sweat off some emotions and use art as a vecihle -it is great,but one can be more constructive or get inspiration directly from wisdom for example and translate that etc.It depends where inspiration comes from.Also to take in consideration subtle differences between emotion and feeling and inspiration. Being in love is not emotion per se.Love IMO is a force that brings out emotions becouse it like mix betwwen spiritual glue and bleach.That didnt sound very poetic ,but eh. Its force is so powerful and connecting that it brings everything that rejects that connection(emotions,ideas,beliefs..)to the surfice.Love is not something new that suddenly comes ,it could suddenly be remeberd more forcefully for example becouse of beuty of the way he moves and the way his silence speaks to me.We are not sharing emotion here ,we are loving and becoming it at the same time.edit:sorry my spelling is terrible sometimes

Yes my dreams at the moment have little to do with normal"mental/emotional"sweat.They have changed a lot.As I mentioned above this happend as an outcome of meditation and working with myself more deeply. I am working something out still but in a different way.Maybe they not even dreams but astral travel with all different landscapes and people and"people".I wonder.Still I am as if practising there now in a way that I recgonise importance to stay sharp and connected and act right. I have read some Ingo Swann articles , Ill look him up again.Maybe it would be good to sort learn about those practises too just to deepen understanding.

If it is me you are asking than I would say I dont have links.And what works for me best is probably most boring sounding stuff like -loving/keeping heart open despite of anything that happens,being able to be completley vulnerable and finding strenght there and never give up.Trying doing good as a choice rather than harm.Working closley with your mind and body and see what works for you is most important and opens you up.Whatever moves your heart like it never moved before is probably a good thing to keep on doing.Careful though. Becouse IMO these things are outcome and are all about staying connected and open and as I said above love /clossnes/kinship.Becouse in being close and allowing yourself being close and being able to smile with people and feel them as you would feel yourself-opens a channel where things are more spontanious and natural and beutiful.I am sure everyone has their own approach according to uniqe psychological make up.. But if it is Phore you are asking maybe he will provide some vision screen links or something.

I had the same dream with my mum when I was a kid ,it was very complex but exactly the same.I tend to think it has to do with people being very close or concentrating on each other for one reason or another quite intenlesy.And the other instance with voice could be just a premonition type of dream which happens to most people at some point/s in their life.And even more chance for people who cultivate and are in tune.

Hey Everything what happend?Is there springtime where you live? Mystery is like rotten fruits for me.Not into mystery at all. There is light in my heart that sheds understanding of life better and solves so called mysteryes. I also believe that it is possible to make beutiful art without constantly acting upon emotions as if scratching the wound.A lot of Asian art is based on natures cycles and different angle life observations.For example Indian ragas or some Chinese music,some Japonese art or shamanic music etc..

I believe that we constantly communicate with each others in many ways.I had this pshycic communication with my teacher regarding some issues.To me it feels like we are all conected so it is possible to know if someone is thinking about you ,especially about loved ones.It is like a language of vibrations that mind can translate into ideas and words.However it is possible to get confused if emotions are not kept in order. I knew of two guys who used astral projection to meet as they lived on the other sides of the world and the phone was too costly in those days.They werent ninjas or anyone similar,normal guys.

Funky parents,Nei Chuan! Yeh I think 80s music will be popular in those regions even in next century.

Looks like a very nice link,I am looking forward to reading it tonight. Maybe I can be on topic and answer Zoose s thread topic. I have these kind of things happening ,actually I find myself relying on them often. The most amazing was when once I have decided to go to forest-moutains for meditation retreat for few months without any money as I was craving (craving retreat that is )and was suduced badly by amazingly beutiful natural surrounding I was in.It was also cold and snowing at times and all I had was flip flops,had a wooly jumper though.So off I went and and jumped into abyss so to speak.And it was amazing expirience.The villagers(some km away) brought me some food(we never met before) and wanting to give me money too (only took for a ride back to planes).Also I foraged a bit.And was not hungry,found good shelter and collected wood for fire.Made bed of leaves and lived like a princess of forest for few months!

I had cut off(shaved off)my hair too when I lived in SE Asia in my late twenties as I was getting all this 18,19 years old pestering me constantly on the street thinking I am their age.And it worked miracle as a woman with shaved hair ment to them(I was told)that her husband died or is a nun or a wierdo(thats what they conidered me to me I think). But reading this and what women have to still go through makes me .And than you get these guys putting down feminisam saying that there is equality etc.Anyway its good to raise awarness on issues . NeiChuanWhat were you doing in Kosovo?Hardly anyone goes there for holidays.Army?Just courious..

Oh good to read about sex+love expirience TaoMeow ,it is quite rare.Sometimes when younger I felt a bit freaked out by this,as everyone around me was so sexed up all the time. Yeah I can imagine guys where you grew up also just helping themselves to female buttocks and other parts of body if they feel like it.Last time when I was "home"(about 15 years ago) I got grabbed whilst buying breakfast at the market.I immediatley turn back to find the guy already run away 3 meters and is laughing at me.I grabbed the water and threw at him whilst shouting and screaming to everyone to catch the groper.None reacted and the women across me told me that she has just been to a hairdresser and payed equivalent to a 100 DM(a lot of money than,everything was in foreign currency in those times too coz of inflation)and what am I doing spoiling her hair by throwing water just like that.Eh. Her hair wasnt even wet to be honest.Maybe only on the side ever so slightly.

Where I am from guys also grope women in crowded places too,ok they are into lots of mainstream porn.And culture is very sexual and not repressed. (p.s Tao Bee cool to see that you make/create things and sew-me too ). But anyway I just had a thought after reading this thread,that maybe I was Japonese in my past lifeas my interest in sex was always quite low or virtually non existant unless I am really in love.It could be repression in general or it could be that some people are just like that-mind working differently.

I see what you are saying.Let me explain mabe a bit better.One still keeps common sense and for example if you need to defend your self physiacally even .But if emphasis is on trying not to harm than actions and thoughts change and attract like. Like attracts like.Everything is interplay of attraction. Please dont misunderstand me thinking that I advice you to become like a doormat. Anyawys all the best!

Ok expiriencing death is done through the ego.Expiriencing or remebering that death .What I am saying someone may be great saint and mystic but some ego must be present (IMO)if they are here on the earth plane.Even small amount . But yeah ,transformation ,not killing -sounds better.

As cat said earlier ego isnt good or bad.It just is,it makes me a person. Who can get rid of ego?Or kill ego?There is no logic really.From where is the ego killed?By whom or what?Is there a secret ego assasin hiding somwhere in concept of ego life?In my opinion only the ego can pretend to kill the ego.Maybe it would be more accurate to say higher ego gets rid of lower ego

In my expirience it is trying to do no harm in words ,thoughts and deeds and constantly keeping check on myself ,till it becomes more natural.I am not talking about absolut zero ascetical no harm practise as that would be impossible and impractical.

That is happening to me right now.Everything is straightening out,my organs are being changed/"refreshed I feel.Even my feet are changing,and I actually hear the bones moving.It has been some strange sensations to move fast. It is intersting to read about other peoples expiriences.

hahaI also think so and am certanly courious about it.Getting rid of body cage ,having a body free holiday!Nice. I was near death for a while in recent past,and it made me ponder about it a lot,and wishing for it too due to lot of pain. My death will be pleasant I feel,warm and welcoming,I know where to go.So I am not scared. By the way this is not me being morbid but loving death as much as loving life. We are dying right now (cells are aging by every second),or as Ramana Maharishi said:"Your head is already in tigers mouth".

I will try and concentrate on martial application a lot in tai chi this year ,as I mostly concentrated on form till now. Just curious if anyone learned self defense through tai chi or mainly through tai chi?Especially women as women are less likley to be naturally good at self defense and fighting(of course there are always exceptions to the rules). Any feedback welcome.