suninmyeyes

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http://www.rameshbalsekar.com/ i like what he says. i found a book ive read "your head in tigers mouth" at first very annoying ,together with ramesh b..thinking he was arrogant. at the same time book was gripping ,and by the end result was "i totally like this logic presented ,its so relaxing and natural".

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sabretooth, you re in difficult position. dont let fear and anger rule . my heart goes to you, sun

about 10 years ago we have squattted this place that used to be a buddhist "hotel". a place for monks that are visting from abroad to come and stay.nice place with massive puja room and beutiful green tara painting on the wall. but when we moved in place was INFESTED with japonese porn magazines in every room. naughty monks. during my long travel in asia ive been approached by sadhus/monks on few occasions and saw gay burmese monks flirting openly.and tibetan monks doing parikarma in kathamandu while holding the bottle of beer. but also the thing is that a lot of monks and sadhus in poorer countries take on that way of life not becouse its ideals.but out of having nowhere else to go. and also eveyone is just trying, i think, one way or another to do best for themselves ,just maybe not (what they consider or is considered) so succesfull sometimes. and in india many ex criminals actually turn sadhus so they can escape imprisoment etc... i think celibacy is meant to be understanding,not suppresion.understanding how body works and methamorphosising sexual urge into something more satisfiying and being able to dwell on that mostly. sun

hi , good thread.i would be very interested to read what everyone has to say on contacting their guides. im also praying for gudiance and protection .and always asking to be able to truly love. fiveelemtao,ill just relate something i cant work out totaly and wonder if you have any opinon about it. few years ago i dreampt i saw my sister sitting on my bed talking to me in my room quite lucidly as if awake .in dream i woke up and saw that this is not my sister and asked :who are you?why are you in my dream ?she kept pretending for a bit ,i said:stop fooling me and letting me talk to you,i dont belive you,becouse i know im dreaming. so i told her to get out of my room.at that moment i saw this being (male?)totaly white,made of light ,just like a glowing shape.i never saw somebody looking like this even in the dream.and he very politley got out of my room(circeld around of my bed so not to step on me) and exited the room. so now,i still dream of this being taking me some places ,talking to me etc...( so often sometimes daily )and me due to my emotional make up or something else unkonwn to me - i see him as my sister but know its been him again clearly as i wake up and remeber the dream. in a way i thought this is sort of guide at some point, but dont dont feel so welcoming to him. intuitevly im learning to listen and discriminate, not by book and am not ever discussing this with anyone. cheers, sun

i hear the sound,it started off through meditation and nowdays it can be heard bigger part of the day.i like it ,feels so nice.whole body is made of sound in the way,not only ajna chakra. it can also change frequency and become very LOUD.

its relaxing, interesting and i love it.

lets talk about when your heart last time soared ,when all boundaries broke loose and your whole being opens up in so much sweetnes and gratitude. any story ,poem ,idea ,thought ,anything that does it for you? this is me: today as i cycled to park i was feeling so much gratitude to life and thinking:" there is no need to hold on to some sadness/resenment .its not me .its fooling me ,its a wrong shape,it doesent fit right and its becoming unberably BORING." at this moment opening was created and i let love in. nothing beats this feeling!

very beutiful. lots of love from my heart to all !!!!!!!!!!!

what is "real time" ?where does concept come from?

im wondering what you think if there is a total rest ,COMPLETE death,cessation on all levels of existance?is it a point of view only,or point of no view that lives in silence ? or are we ever new and everdying with every thought?is the real rest in acceptance of whatever is happening? what is your understanding or opinion? would you like to die completley really? sorry english is not my first language,hope i made myself understood.

this one is sri lanka.very nice,in mountains and you can do your own practise.i dont know what they say at the site but after a chat with center leader they took me in and im not a budhist.clean ,simple and good local food. http://www.nilambe.org/,and check the retreat bit in this link http://www.dhamma.ru/sadhu/modules/mylinks...wcat.php?cid=69 india you can find so many places. good place to start is rishikesh,you just have to look around .in himalayas too .there are even some sadhus that RENT caves .nice cave i saw it,very comfy with floor and small window .not too many insects this is in europe in case u suddenlly decide to come over here it looks nice ,i think they accept solitary retreteans regardless of faith/practises http://amidatrust.typepad.com/france/ there is nice one in spain http://amidatrust.typepad.com/france/ some good western budhist order solitary options too. in thailand it easy to rent nice and quiet ,decent beach hut and do your practise and surf too.also easy to find once you are there. have a good one!

check out deeply if you are relaxed in lower abdomen area,are you clenching muscels somwhere whilst in lotus.and how is your alighment.introspect deeply. if you feel ipain whilst in lotus dont push yourself too much,be gentle and slow. i meditated in louts on and off some years.and its super beneficial and most helpful. but last year one day i wasnt paying too much attention and was sitting in full lotus,but little off centre becouse of some pain( also near ribcage) ,feeling very nice and blissful,when energy came down so strong,and my body sort of collapsed.there was a intense jolt as some bones disslocatedand some inner organes damage. after more then year passed, lots of sufferning and healing and inner work im almost back in shape. this is not to scare you or anyone else and put you off the practise of full lotus,just to be aware. i feel its important to acknowledge pains they are signposts.

in my understanding to be grounded means having clear sensible mind,purposful actions and generous,compassionate heart . now this can be tried to be achived through different ways .and i suppose if one is doing martial arts or chi kung ,then it would be by applying practises thought.plus lots of introspection and honesty and forgivness within yourself. by the way DE PARADISE i love your aliens farting in the face

this was my trail of thought too in a way.but here im again existing as deeper joy,in order for joy to be her joyfull self she has to be put up against something ,so there is some creation involved here. which means the death will have to be reborn ,not dead completley. i am also sure that ill survive physical death ,totally certain too. Songs,ive had a surgery as a child with strong knock off anesthetic.i disliked the idea of operation and wanted to be awake by all means so that i couldnt be operated upon.what happend body couldnt resist and fell asleep and my awarness stayed fully counciess of surrounding and what doctors were disscusing.

in india for example there is sooooooo many cults and a lot of schools,orphaneges and medical help is run by these cults,which is great otherwise many people would not have help.whole system is still quite old school . also i belive they are good becouse they might spread some basic awarness ,thats how i found out about meditation etc.but beyond that its up to us what to take and learn to take what we really need,that way manipulation is not possible. not my cup of tea though.

thanks for the replies. im struggling for words actually as im pondering on them.like i wanna say something but it cant be said exactly. something is happening. so...are we going to dissaper completey TOTALLY?or do you actually exist at all? is this all one big con?whats going on? ok i should find these things out ,but any universal views ?

what about complete cessation on all levels physical,astral ,causal?thats it. no more.is it possible? is there really me? anyway let you know after evening meditation ,if i dont dissolve forever

hi, thanks for this thread witch.its interesting to read what works well for you women.im totally amazed by your dietary choices and practises.so nice to meet you. my (any)apetite is incredibley low and am so boring comparing to you and diet is different,i could not imagine taking any food mentioned. could someone please describe me term orgasmic ,as is saw it used on this site in different ways than purley having a what is commonly known as orgasam.or am i misunderstanding? im feeling blissful a lot of time ,very nice feeling that comes on its own for no reason and everything seems nice then,is this the same?