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I have no answers to your question. They feel different to me (which is why Elliott's poem resonates with me so well) even though they both take place in 'reality' but then I'm not Enlightened and so could only give a Fool's answer - which is not something I think you're looking for. Far smarter and wiser people than myself - some of who've already posted in this thread - can likely answer them though.

Well my sexuality - particularly the emotions tied into it - are messed up so I'm busy trying to repair it. I'm hopeful the things I'm doing in KAP like Secret Smile, belly breathing, chi elemental walks, MCO, vocal toning to physically rumble each chakra and Kan & Li will use my body to help re-enforce the repair work I'm trying to do around the whole subject in my mind. There is one practice I've added that is not in KAP but I don't think my teacher Tao would be against it. Since sexual energy is the original powerhouse of all the other kinds of energy it made sense to me to work on it like an exercise or weightlifting regimen. So I do a minimum at least one full hour of Perineum Pumps per day. Boy...talk about getting you crazy horny after that!! But I just follow up with a lot of MCO and now I've added the Little Orbit to boot. That seems to help redirect and transmute the energy.

It's from t.s. elliott's poem The Hollow Men Between the Motion and the Act...falls the Shadow. It's pointing out the 'otherness' of the Shadow Chasm. All these words on TaoBums giving advice or from anywhere else for that matter...in the end...are still just words, not the Motion. And the Motion itself is a chasm away from the Act. That is not to say words have no meaning. It's just that apparently despite whether I may have true understanding of the advice there is still no guarantee it will help me make the jump of that Shadow Chasm...between the Motion and the Act...between the Idea to Reality...even though I've comprehended it quite well. That chasm..that shadow between will always be there. That is what elliott is pointing out I think. What does it mean to you, if any? You all seem to have figured out way more answers to life's triumphs and defeats than myself (which is a good thing!). Hats off to you all.

What about if one takes one or two of those 3 mg Melatonin capsules? I've also seen some herbal stores selling Tryptophan supplements. Would these also help (in addition to the - well it sounds like a strict - vegetarian diet)?

Does drinking fruit juices and/or herbal teas, etc cause this Kundabuffer to activate again? I am wondering if going on some sort of fast will help my efforts to activate Kundalini (and keep it active) since eating seems to shut it down again.

I looked over the Amazon reviews for his book. The reviewers talk like he is the 2nd Coming of a Qi Gong Christ. What's so great about Push Hands and what are they supposed to do? Especially vis-a-vis other types of Qi Gong movement?

So Eight Silken Forms is the same as Eight Pieces of Brocade? I'm interested. Yep

Fascinating as usual. BTW - wanted to tell you - I think I found your Pythagorean Brother. Check it out.

Fascinating. Now I see why rooting sometimes helps ease muscle pain throughout my body. It also explains why I've been able to 'move' knots of pain up my neck and out through my tongue!

I LIKE THIS!

Blessings to you MGD. I hope all your dreams come true. *rose*

I have yet to figure this one out. It's easy to get seduced by words. That because I understand it it somehow also makes it a good guide. Yet when I try to actually implement that understanding...to bring it to everyday realization in all the little acts and decisions one must make every day...it still goes off course. The surprise I got from the Shaktipat is Case Exibit A. All these years I'd been thinking I'd been taking a 'just let it go', 'go with the flow' approach to life and instead it seems I was just stuffing depression and resentment away. I was taking advice often handed out on 'accepting things as they are' and genuinely trying to live it - thinking that by not dwelling on it and focusing on positive things instead it would release naturally eventually. Instead it grew stronger and now I've got some psychological and physical pain issues to deal with. So there it is. I no longer have a clue as to how to proceed to deal with things that are standing in the way of being "Wu Wei". I thought I was trying to practice and live my life to eventually bring it into Wu Wei. Thousands of posts on TaoBums...many not unlike this thread and now I end up thinking: Between the idea And the reality Between the motion And the act Falls the Shadow -t.s. Elliott

Can anyone explain what exactly is meant by "Wu Wei" state and what it feels like? What does the body feel like precisely when it's in this Wu Wei state. What do the mind, emotions or volition feel like in Wu Wei State?

What fast is recommended for someone who is an Endomorph?

Thank you Blasto for posting this. I'll add it to my KAP exercises.

....delete.... The stuff I posted was such a downer. One of these days I'll learn to STFU.

WTH?!!!! Uh...Santi, did you give me a Shaktipat just now or am I getting a (very) delayed response from the group meeting?!! I don't know what the hell just happened but it was power unlike anything I've ever felt before! Heavy fire starting in my feet, Spiraling wind, fire and energy racing up my legs. When it hit the 2nd chakra I felt awful pain but it just kept going. And I certainly felt energy power at my brow and crown once it reached there. If it wasn't Santi...I am flabbergasted as I don't know how to account for what I just experienced. Wow. Just....Wow.

WAIT! How'd I miss this? I never got any audio. It was only Skype text for me. There was an audio part? I wonder if this is why I didn't feel anything going on - because I only participated via reading what Susan and Santi typed in the text chat box? (I was fine with just reading - until I hit the section where Susan typed in the sex stuff with Shiva and Shakti). p.s. Thank you djs.

*Votes for Mal* *Votes for Pietro*

I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one with this problem. You are the first person to mention a similar one to mine. I was under the impression your classes with KAP 1 had awakened your Kundalini? Is KAP 2 to be taken only after Kundalini occurred? I would like to take KAP 2 but it seems like it wouldn't be much use for me since it's (I think) mostly about partner-sex cultivation? My BF lives several states away and I just found out recently he won't be able to see me again for at least 1 year and possibly longer. Yes. Tao posted it. I like his voice. However, I eventually quit doing SS with the audio because I'd get frustrated that I can't amplify emotions the way Dr. Morris says to (he speaks with such enthusiasm!). Hard to amplify when you can't tell what it is you're amplifying. To be honest my SS doesn't feel like I'm amplifying emotions. Instead it feels mostly like a trickle of energy. That's what I get when I try to 'amplify' though by doing SS I can feel it better now. So most of the SS exercise ends up feeling identical to my Macrocosmic Orbit. Well...except for the Happiness part..although I do succeed at times with the relaxation part too.

I am unsure as to how one would ever know if a deep rooted issue is 'cleared out'? Until the Shaktipat I never would've thought I'd have a reaction like that. Secret Smile - hands down - is the one KAP exercise I don't do well at all - even after all these weeks. I am only aware of one emotion I can summon up clearly during the exercise without having to guess at what it is - happiness. The rest I am trying to amplify...well...something...I think they might be the other emotions needed for each phase but I can't tell for sure. Despite the difficulty I decided to be optimistic and believe I'm feeling each emotion and hope eventually whatever I'm trying to amplify will happen for real. I've never had all the emotions layer together as Tao says they eventually do. I've never experienced the resultant bliss. But if anyone asked me if I had 'deep rooted issues' I wouldn't be able to think of anything. *shrug* I am beginning to wonder if KAP is best for people who don't have to guess at what they're feeling like I do. It sounds like my continuing with KAP would actually be dangerous? I am scared of having a Gopi Krishna style Kundalini Awakening.

I second the vote for Mal as mod.

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I should have kept my mouth shut. Apologies to Santi for bringing down his thread.