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I've always wanted to go to Burning Man. Never been able to make it out there. Hopefully one day I can manage it, it'd be one hell of a life experience.

That sounds about right to me. Although I wouldn't mind seeing some of those stage productions. They can be really really cool.

Wow. And I thought I had an ego problem... Although, in a sense, what you say is partially correct. But thanks to the paradoxical nature of existence, it's no threat to any of us. If you die, your entire world dies. If you become enlightened, your entire world will become enlightened. Things will move along much the same for the rest of us regardless.

Hehehe...I'll bet his dantien isn't the only thing he's filling...

Some of those questions would probably be best addressed by a facilitator or apprentice. www.primordialalchemist.com just send an email to their contact address, Diana has been very helpful in answering all of my questions (and no charge!). Personally, I don't think that sensation should be present at all times, to me that'd be an indication that you're not spending enough time in closing. But, my practice has been lacking lately due to life circumstances, so take anything I say with a grain or ten of salt.

You remember Tulku? Looks like he's back with a new name. Don't let him get you down though...you've been through a lot, and I applaud you for taking steps to make changes in your life. I don't have experience with alcoholism, so I can't offer you much other than my sincere wish for your recovery.

Hahaha, it's mostly my own fault for imagining it in the first place. But yeah, thinking about it I guess I am pretty delicate. I felt very flattered by that, actually. Tactile-impressionable, I like that. Good description. I'm sure some (maybe many?) in SoCal wouldn't object to you cradling your tender bits in public.

I'm 27, and have most certainly not been practicing since before puberty. I want to at least try going a month though, just to see what it's like. I'm sure it'll get harder down the line, but I think I'm going to really enjoy the break. It'll probably take that long just for me to notice a difference, hahaha. I've gone a week before and never really noted any major differences. Did you mean mjjbecker instead of Trunk?

Cool deal! Thanks for sharing your experience.

I contacted my teacher, and the response I got was basically "moderation." Trying to get clarification, but it seems they do not advocate complete celibacy. I worry about my balls, y'know?

I would use my God-like powers to give them up. Without God-like wisdom, I would not attempt to use such power to change the world as any attempt would have consequences I could not foresee.

I can see how intimate relationships can help with personal growth. And I did learn a lot from my last relationship. But unless an intimate relationship is vital to personal growth, I think I'd rather avoid the complication. I tend to ignore my own needs in favor of helping out my friends, and it's been causing me a lot of problems lately. I need to learn to take care of myself for once. In any case, I think I can be content with the lazy approach. Just not worry or think about it, and let what happens happen. I won't completely close myself off to the possibility, but I'm not going to be putting any effort into finding someone, either.

Sonovabitch, that's a tactile image I didn't need...owww...*cradles his tender anatomy parts* Hahaha...but yes, shockingly brilliant.

Oh, that's bad. You're a bad man. Regarding the OP: I look forward to finding out for myself the power of sexual retention. I'm actually super excited about it. I'm so bored with masturbating anyways, and I have plenty of hobbies and projects just waiting to soak up that extra energy.

Yeah, I don't think I could have pulled off celibacy as a teen. Or even five years ago. I think I'm in a pretty good position to try it now, though. Thanks for the luck!

Wow, now that sounds like a sweet system. Get paid by preventing your patients from getting sick!

It's tulku. It's obvious from his other posts. Guess he's jonesing for some troll time on TTB.

I practice Kunlun Neigong under Max. I've already contacted him regarding this and am awaiting a reply. I'm well aware that energetic practices are not physical exercise. I already have plans for becoming more active (which is why I'm looking for a Bagua teacher in my area.) I have some exercises from when I was taking Wing Chun to get me started in the meantime. Quitting the green stuff is just the first step, cuz I'll need that extra energy to keep up my motivation for practicing. I know sexual urges are natural and I don't have any shame issues around it. I just want to see what kind of difference preserving sexual energy makes in my practice. It's not that I feel any kind of need to be celibate, it's something I want to try.

Why would you find it odd that you can't make yourself feel attracted to masculine energies? Your aspect of being probably just isn't compatible with an attraction to that energy. You may not be able to feel it, but that doesn't mean others don't experience it. Another thing to keep in mind is that sexuality doesn't always make logical sense. This is humanity we're dealing with, here. The math doesn't always work, hahaha. I like Seth's analogy with fire and water, though.

I experience chronic fatigue, fogginess of mind, and general lack of energy/motivation. Part of that is because I smoke too much weed (another thing I'm quitting this month - going to visit my family soon, and will be the perfect detox opportunity) but I think celibacy will do a lot towards bringing some spring back into my step.

I wish I understood the meaning behind my dreams. My dreams are often disturbing on some level, or extremely complicated and convoluted. As an example, some months ago I had a dream in which the leatherworking group I'm a part of was in charge of a stockpile of nuclear weapons. One of the other apprentices somehow let the launch codes slip into enemy hands. Since I was his commanding officer, the punishment was I had to kill him execution style with a pistol and then kill myself. There was an emotional context of "preserving honor" surrounding the actions. At least it's not as crazy as the dreams I had as a kid. I'd probably enjoy them more now, but they were absolutely terrifying at that age because they didn't make any sense. I remember huddling in a hollowed out part of the wall of a massive cylindrical tower, the tower itself hollow except for a central pillar up the middle. The tower was underground, and the top was at ground level, with no ceiling. The tower was red and black. The land around the tower was barren, and the sky was either burning or exploding. Attached to the central pillar was a massive spiked ball-and-chain, which crashed around the inside of the tower up and down. I was hiding, hoping to avoid getting crushed by it. I used to get killed a lot in dreams, too. Doesn't happen as often anymore.

Okay, while I agree that children are capable of an honesty seldom seen from adults, I disagree with the notion that they are always so honest. I've met some incredibly conniving little tikes. Although they are usually terrible at it, they do lie.

So pick a time and see if anyone can make it.

Screw it, I'm going celebate. (pun intended) You do a real good job of expressing the benefits, Seth. You ever worked sales? It's been something I've been meaning to try anyways. I honestly have no good reason to be wasting that energy in the first place. In fact, one might say that my situation is ideal for this. Looking forward to seeing how it turns out. Resonant111, I wish you well with your endeavor!

I understand what you mean. Same basic principle as working with your subconscious (or things like sigil magic, which rely heavily on the subconscious aspect). Something I'm familiar with, but still working on practicing effectively. Even minor alterations to perspective using that distinction can have a huge effect. ---------------------------------------- It is entirely possible that my appearance is a subconscious reflection of disinterest in romantic entanglement. ---------------------------------------- It works pretty well. ---------------------------------------- There's been many a time I've thought how great it would be to leave civilization behind and just rest in nature...but I have too many people depending on me to get away with that. At least for now. ---------------------------------------- That sounds like really good advice. I also appreciate getting a female perspective on the question. ---------------------------------------- I can see your point. While I understand that intimate relationships are on a much deeper level, my calm is tested constantly by my friends. I'm certainly not an ascetic yogi, and don't have any plans to be. ----------------------------------- That makes a lot of sense. Having a healthy relationship with myself is something I've been working a lot on lately. Made a lot of good progress too. ------------------------------------ I think for now I'll just keep it simple and not worry about it. I'm not going to make any effort to attract anyone, and if I do get approached anyways I'll at least think about it and not immediately turn it down.