三江源

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY

no. it isnt alright.

heh heh.

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Vmarco.. you are repeating your previously posted material verbatim. just sayin'.

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Ideally no moderator would have to point out forum rules to anyone. They are really simple rules. Or at least, they appear really simple. "No insults" and 'no belittling' and 'no demeaning' and certainly 'no attacking'. No name calling. No abusive language. This is in order to keep discussion useful, productive, civil, interesting, contained. We are to imagine that we are at a sociable interesting gathering at Sean's house.

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Started reading Qabalah, A Magical Primer by John Bonner, and found on page 42: in Exodus, God gives Moses the name, AHIH ( pronounced EHEIEH),"I AM", which is a God-name of Kether, the first Sephirah of the Holy Tree.

It is an interesting time in the story of cultivation, isnt it. The market is flooded, and it is as if we are the ones who must sift through and make sense of all the released material. It reminds me of when I did my first degree which was three years study in module format. It wasnt untill after I had completed my finals that I looked back at the string of beads and actually saw the necklace. Of course they werent really 'final' in any sense, they were called that, but they were just another pearl on the string. many members disapear or go very quiet for long periods of time, and come back to contribute, to be part of the flow of information exchange, and many members are new - ish and want to examine options. The stage of sipping and tasting to find the needed seasoning is not less important than, or seperate from, the cooking stage.

He cant talk, his mouth is full of custard creme. Or maybe he is struggling under the weight of the jammy dodger.

Its not a real pub. It has the lineage of Cozy Nook Tea Shoppe rendering it overly domestic and all reassuring like.

Saddening truth about the huge long swathe of fucked upness.. dont really feel like saying 'fuck it' in any good way , about this split that forced apart what should never be wrenched asunder.

in my limited understanding at this stage.. the tree contains/is the mind of God as in relationship with Creation, and so is the mysterious source made manifest. Kether being the concentrated single point ... 'the one' no? from Mathers: The seed-sentence to contemplate is : "Kether is the Malkuth of the Unmanifest

from Dion, for Kether clarification AIN SOPH AUR, the Limitless Light. It is out of this that Kether is concentrated. Kether is equated with the most transcendent form of God that we can conceive, Whose name is Ehieh, translated in the Authorised Version of the Bible as "I am," or, more explicitly, the Self-Existing One, Pure Being. Mathers says "The limitless ocean of negative light does not proceed from a centre, for it is centreless,but it concentrates a centre, which is the number One of the manifested Sephiroth, Kether, the Crown, the First Sephirah."

Yes, teachings become apparent to the individual as deemed ready, from the unseen linage holders. The 'secret' nature of this work cannot be escaped, no matter what is said about teachings becoming open and available to all. "Real' initiation actually goes on at an unseen level.

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yes, thanks Jetsun for this thread. it's a chance to remind ourselves of the creative things we can do. Removing oneself is, to me, an interim measure, a space in which to consider and process, because in the longer term, the absence of us creates a presence of rift that others have to deal with. I dont want to do that to others. And we have cut ourselves adrift when we go absent, instead of facing the music and dancing.

gatito, if i could like your post a lot of times, I would.

Well, I acknowledged my part in her grievance catalogue. It was of no account, because she saw that I was pretty awful, like the rest of the family. I acknowledged that we dont have a conscious family.. ( who does?! ).. And yes, I take your point entirely that not being acknowledged is painful. And even so. At some point, if 'other' wont sort the issue with one, one has to be creative about it, or suffer hugely.

Well, interesting isnt it. What happens if we shrug and say fuck it and move into 'let go' mode.. we breathe a big sigh of relief 'as if' the issue was solved? Ime, what happens is the some mechanism is freed so that exactly what Bubbles defines can occur. Ime, deciding to shift the stuckness, deciding to release the grip, allows the process to open. We cant let go has to be true. In the sense that it is not an act of will. We can release the grip that allows the organic letting go to occur, is also true. Its a contraction and expansion movement.. 'holding on' being a contraction.. perhaps instead of letting go we can think of it as 'expansion'.. creation of some space by breathe and heart release and laughter and fuck it and that becomes making love to it.. further down the line of the proccess.. I guess I am just trying to locate a creative starting point out of stasis, a simple, effective start.. and having begun.. all one has to do, is continue.

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