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I fully understand that I am the exception here and so old fashioned I am almost a caveman, but I have principles I wont cross. Some see it as art, but I do not. I understand I may be wrong and the whole world may be right, but I must follow my truth. I am not giving an ultimatum of choose me over Patrick. I am just trying to follow Tao the way my heart leads me.

Porn is evil. I'll stir the pot because I have been here for years and I think I have the right, but I wont stay on a site that has porn! I'll erase my Journal section and leave if it continues.

At 1:48, is that the same naked chick you got banned for before?

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A better way to say this would be that YOU cannot as yet transcend your sexuality (Maybe your projecting yourself on others). Looking at smut objectifies women and causes harm to the mans psychology that looks at it. You may want to get some counseling. Maybe you should develop a greater appreciation of those who went before. If you want to be a great carpenter you do what other great carpenters did to become great carpenters and chances are you will become one too. Same thing with spiritual matters. How old are you? You sound like an old burnt out hippie or a kid. Are you just having a bad day?

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Hmmm..... I think I just want other things more. I've never gotten rid of lust but it doesn't control me. Lust seems to me like a force that moves me to certain actions but there are deeper needs I have such as seeking ascension that move me to other ends than lust seems to be driving me towards. I just want ascension/immortality or union with God THAT MUCH! It has actually gotten much easier since I got a girlfriend too. She is really spiritual and knows about my goal of ascension and SUPPORTS IT. She is a rare woman. My girlfriend is really, really beautiful with a smokin' hot body so when we make out there is definately a lust factor but I love her more than I lust after her. Were not going to have sex before marriage but we do fool around a little bit and thats when I let lust loose in small doses but I am very careful that I dont lose any essence which is of course necessary to alchemy. Also, before I met her I had a very general and odd sense of wanting sex but since I met and fell in love with her it has become very specific and love centered which has made ignoring any lust I feel much, much easier. Perhaps this has to do with age too. I also dont think I would be able to love her so deeply if I hadn't spent so many years in meditaion and personal development though. Did that help? In short... I do feel the need for sexual release but I feel the need for ascension a million times more!

Wudangquan, I dont have any questions but I just wanted to thank you for what your doing.

I'm currently building myself back up to an hour a day. Right now I am at 30 minutes next week 45 and then the week after its an hour. I took a break to get my life in balance. Last year I was doing 4-6hours a day but had to stop because my life was sucking really bad. All things in moderation I guess....

Maybe people didn't think you were serious? Maybe its the weekend? If you believe the 4 noble truths and follow the 8 fold path then Buddhism is obviously a way of life. I'm not going to touch Taoism.....

Funny you should ask. I have been really contemplating love lately. I think I have been trying to really define it too. Is it a noun, a verb.... a choice? Also the older I get the way I love is different and deeper. When I was 17 I thought I was madly in love with a girl but looking back on it I recognize that I don't even think I had the emotional maturity to "be in love" and I think that also transfers to other things. When I was in my early 20's I was madly in love with Ford Mustangs. Now I drive a Dodge. What they both have in common is speed. So in that respect I love speed/power. I always seek the highest in things as I see them and also seek perfection. Now I want to love only those things that are eternal. Currently I am in love with a beautiful woman but I strive to see her as an expression of the divine. I want my love for her to be perfect which means it cannot be just for her but I must strive to love everything the same way the divine does which is completely and without attachment. But to summerize.... I love Kelly, through God.... if that makes any sense. (Sorta like Namaste? The divine in me salutes the divine in you?)

All the masters I respect spent years in solitary meditation all day long and had no master. If you want to be a buddha then do what buddha did. If you want to be Chang San Feng then do what he did.

You dont need a master in my opinion, just meditate.

What will I do? Where will I go? Somebody hold me..... sniff.

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I just find Buddhist's annoying. It's all that peaceful smiling! WHATS WRONG WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!! Kidding, kidding.... I just prefer the pure Taoist model for immortality and he strays too far into the Buddhist enlightenment sutras and Indian Yogic literature even when he the title of the book is specifically "Taoist".