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Thanks, I actually already tried this quite some time back. However, today after having practiced quite a bit with pure land recitation, I am of the opinion that there is no real difference between the different mantras and since I have already been practicing this one for years I don't feel like changing now, but thanks anyway I usually do about 5000 (more like 5000-10000)recitation of Amituofo a day

Although I didn't want to talk about entities much in this thread since we already doing just that may as well post this. Here you can actually see a real case of possession, assuming of course this is not staged. What I found is that court rooms, besides hospitals and monasteries are places where the divine gather. That's the places entities try to avoid as much as possible hence so much resistance. I sometimes make similar mimicks like that, just much weaker.

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You didn't listen clearly to what I was telling you, I am not in the victim mode, I am not looking for a quick fix, I know that change has to come from me and I am doing that, neither do I expect a quick fix by removing the entity. There is only one simple reason why I am looking for someone to remove the entity it's so my health will be able to recover. If someone told you that you had cancer and told you he was looking for someone to remove it because he felt that trying to remove it on his own in a natural progress was too risky would you then say to him 'stop playing the victim, all you need to is change yourself and the cancer will go away on its own?' You see even if it's my fault like somebody gets lung cancer because he has been smoking most of he life and then he knows that it's his fault because he was careless, but he wouldn't say : well I am responsible for it so I should deal with it on my own' Honestly, after phrasing it like I must admit that I am really a fool for even anting to remove it on my own. However that which caused it, must be removed or it will happen again. For somebody who got lung cancer because of smoking, he needs to stop smoking or else the cancer will come back... Oh and the removal I had with Sifu Jenny was not a failure, this was made clear in my thread... LOL : I can already see some of you shaking their heads and thinking 'he just doesn't get it' while I do exactly the same

What you say makes sense to some degree that I need to change myself, but you are wrong if you think that 'entity' and 'problem' are one and the same or that entity is the same as shadow self. If you want to believe that then there is nothing I can do to convince you o the contrary. Just for some reference the Buddha mentions it briefly in the Lotus Sutra : 'he calls it Union with evil beings and calls it one of the great sufferings together with poverty, sickness, being separated from loved ones...' Ok not sure it's exactly, like I am not sure if illness is included. I will try to look for the quote tomorrow and post it. What is important for me is that the entities have already caused quite the brain damage by now, it has become a little for me to speak clearly by now, furthermore, my intelligence is decreasing and by intelligence I don't mean only IQ, but everything it entails intellect, clarity of mind, sensitivity, compassion. The entities need to be removed in order for me to recover fully and yes it will be like coming back from the death.

I think he is referring to how any experience of the Tao which is objective because subjective as soon as somebody tries to put it into words. Laws are something done by humans so they are subjective, they are experienced differently for anybody. If say there is a law that says 'so an so' you may interpret it in a different way than another person. Why is the Lotus Sutra called the Sutra of immeasurable meanings because the meaning is different for every person because it's subjective even thought the experience known as Nirvana is the same for everyone.

I feel it easily and sometimes though I am not focusing too much on it, I just keep on my practice and during my practice it resists like when I recite 'Amituofo' or when I am reading the Lotus Sutra. It feels like a big mass of energy that's moving around, there is a ton of resistance from it. I have seen it a lot of times before and usually when I recite a lot I will see it more clearly though I never see more than black mist or when more accurate blue lines of energy that run from my eyes to my heart. But like I said I don't focus on seeing, neither do I focus on the entity anymore, but just on changing myself. You can read my story here : http://thedaobums.com/topic/38025-my-story-porn-masturbation-suicide-drugs-demonic-possession-and-meditation/?hl=%2Bmy+%2Bstory+%2Bporn+%2Bmasturbation

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Thank you Daeluin for your posts, they are really helpful

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Will come back to it later.

Possession happen on the level of duality while enlightenment is non-dual. The non-dual level can't be influenced by any demonic entity. I am not sure how it works, but I guess it doesn't work by throwing the entity out, but rather one ascends out of the body that contains it. To remove it means to reach enlightenment as I understand.

A Small update One month ago or so I did metta bhavana for a period of 5 days or so. As metta bhavana is supposed to cultivate non-sexual love I thought this would be the best way to try and solve my masturbation addiction as Sifu Jenny told me that I would not be able to get rid of the entity before. The result however was disastrous. What happened was that In those 5 days I cultivated lots of hot energy and the entity is using that energy to burn my body. My whole body has been feeling like a lava stick for weeks now. This burning always happens whenever I am in a state of greed, anger or anxiety. This state was so bad last week that one day I thought I had done some long-term damage to my body as one night really hot Chi gathered around my right kidney and the day afterwards it really hurt. It felt like it had done long-term damage. However, it seems that I am fine after though I am still in pain every day. Also, I have prohibited myself from reading spiritual texts now because my greed for the Dharma is too great. Whenever I read a text that has energy in it different from light then this increases the burning right away. The pain led me to find solace in a state which I call good-will state or still-water state(even though it's not still, it just sounds cool ) in which my body is surrounded by cooling energy. To get into that state all I have to do is to change my intention from one of wanting enrich myself to one of wanting to help people genially. This state is definitely most interesting as it every desire of mine that comes up disturbs it right away, this allows me to become much more aware of my attachments. Like when I write this, I can't maintain the state as my desire for respect disrupts it. Right intention is definitely most important, I have only been doing this for one week and my world got already much brighter. I imagine that in the next weeks it getting even better. Already, I feel nearly human again.

Not that experienced with Chi Circulation as the intent-move methods never worked for me, but I know one thing: the throat opens and closes according to honesty. Maybe a point to consider..

Hi, I am looking for potential buddhist temple to stay at for a year or so, depending. Preferably in europe or asia though continent doesn't matter much for me. It's not really the place that matters, but the atmosphere that's most important. Generally, the nicer and more compassionate the people there, the better Do you have any recommendations? Also, tradition doesn't really matter, what is important is that is centered on service like the Zen schools and not on meditation only like some(very few) do it. In other words I am not really looking for a place with spiritual achievements, but personal achievements, kindness, trust, compassion. I need a place where I will be able to be open about my entity issue. I think that would be for the best. Otherwise, I would be feeling like I would be hiding something important all the time which I don't really want...

Of course without my willingness nothing will come out of it.

Sounds like you might have death anxiety, too. Mind you, most people tend to suffer from death anxiety at some point in their life. However, it's much stronger in some than others. I personally wouldn't recommend isolating yourself too much for too long as it will only make it worse. 1-2 days max to clam your mind. Have you tried to just let go the want to control anything? I do it a lot of times, when negative/evil thoughts or fear come up then I just relinquish any want to control it or anything. (breathing included) If you do it right then you will feel your breathing becoming very calm and soft there will be a feeling of relief. Edit: Of course it doesn't have to death anxiety, but if you can't sit still that means you have a lot energy, there is a lot of energy in anger. Moreover, anger never comes alone. Anger is caused by either fear/shame or grief.

Well, I am looking for a temple to volunteer at mainly. I have my own meditation practice which I am very satisfied with already. What I am lacking is mindfulness.

People can only be accepting of their death if they are sure that they won't be reborn on the lower realm of existence. In my case I can see exactly what is waiting me after my death which is why I am scared. However at the same time on part of me also feels happy at the prospect of my own suffering. It's that same part that will laugh if I end up there...

There are no other people. The idea of separateness is only an illusion. It's only escape from life if it's done out self-motivation rather than selflessness. Which is the case for me. However that doesn't mean that I can't have moments where I do it out of selflessness. However less and less now because I have come to expect that moment of bliss that arises out of selflessness LOL What I need to do is place myself in a situation where my passionate nature completely takes over. What keeps me pushing forward at the moment is death anxiety. However it will be only when death anxiety stops that I will be able to come out of it.

Yes this is definitely true for me, however I wouldn't judge by bliss as that can be misleading and dangerous, but rather by compassion and wisdom.

This is actually a LOT like what I have been discoverimg over the last few weeks and that exercice you describe is actually similiar to something I have been trying the last few days though I concentrated on people instead of objects. I will try it with an object now to see if it makes a difference. Thank you

That sounds a lot like I am or was. Do you also tend to drink a lot of alcohol when being around people? if you suppress your emotions thst means that they are negative or you wouldn't suppress them. You could basically have an underlying depression, but put a mantle of no feeling to escape. If you have negative thoughts/feelings I would strongly advise against doing any form of energy practice. Not if you aren't absolutely sure what your underlying thoughts/feelings look like. What you need is something that elevates your mood. I would recommend 'Namo amituofo' + service for that. Namo Amituofo to start developping buddha nature( Postive feelings) and service to weaken ego(negative feelings). You can't go wrong with this combination. After that you can still practice as much Qi Gong as you want. (If you still feel like it)

I don't have many spiritual accomplishments and I never claimed so. However I have been practicing for 5 years and I lterally spend every minute on how to attain enlightenment. Also, all my life I have had better access to my Higher Self due to a traumatic experience when I was 4 years old. This may give me a better start. However don't make a mistake, my drug intake did slow down my awakening a good deal. I am pretty sure I could already be enlightened by now if I hadn't taken any drugs at all. As for the entity I just know because I have experienced it. However it doesn't matter, if you are virtuous then you won't be affected. If you don't an impure mind you won't get possessed. If you are possessed and you don't know you can still solve the problem by being virtuous. The easiest way to achieve enlightenemt is by recitation of 'Namo Amituofo' and doing virtuous acts. (If you don't have a high level teacher) Also, my encounter with Sifu Jenny made a big difference.