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I had a question, but forget it. I need to minimize distractions, solely focus inward. "This precious moment, we are choosing to be here, right now, hold on, stay inside..."

Hello. My name is Adam. I'm 26 years old, and I've been meditating for almost 3 years. I initially sought meditation as a means of coping with stress--I refused to depend on allopathic poison anymore, e.g., anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc., etc. I also sought meditation as a way of perhaps ameliorating or even curing my ADHD and Asperger's, which affect my life on a day to day, second to second basis. I have never been naturally adept at anything--disregarding general creativity--like I am with meditation. Shortly into beginning meditation, I didn't feel heat, but this electricity emanating from my brain. I found that if I pulsed the area around my temples, I could produce this electricity at will. I felt the desire to extend the feeling, trying to make it last for 2 seconds, then 3 seconds, and so on. Now I can extend it as much as I desire, just by thinking it, no temple oscillations needed. About 18 months into meditation I began to understand the heat element. I've grown this steadily since then; I've meditated a few times in the past few months where I've felt more heat than I would from an actual fire burning in front of me. Somewhere along the line, I tried meditating lying flat on a bed, in cruciform, and began breathing heavily, slowly, trying to extract and consolidate chi on every inhale and exhale. This continued for 30-45 minutes, the breaths slowly getting stronger and faster. My entire body went electric with a very intense form of what I felt from my temples. I could feel a disc of energy spinning at my navel area. Each time I took a breath in, I could feel this breath pushing down on the spinning energy like a top, pumping it to speed up. I continued breathing in, pumping and speeding this ring of energy until my hands seemed to magnetize and my fingers collapsed on my palms, the collapse was the strength of a muscle spasm, though without the pain, all the fingers just locked into place, thumb and forefinger up and against one another, both pressing against the middle finger, with all the other fingers pointed down, same thing on each hand, and literally forced into this position. I got up and walked around, finding my legs had been locked up somewhat by energy as well--I was unable to fully extend them. The effect lasted about 10-15 minutes, though I remained in an enlightened state (this floaty, passive, simply observant mentality) for maybe a couple hours after the meditation had ended. ANYWAY, I'm here because of the MP nei kung system. I want to be a master. I am hoping to find guidance on these forums. Right now I am at Level 1, and I am wondering how I will know when my dantien is full of yang chi. So that's my deal. Any assistance would be infinitely appreciated.

Thank you. I appreciate the input. Glad I came here. Good job, bums.

To be honest, I am right-brain dominant. You are seeing far more of my creativity than logic. I can only utilize my full logical capacity when I take prescription stimulants for ADHD, like Adderrall. I am taking a hiatus from that medication. I hope to cultivate enough energy through my nei kung practices that I will never need prescription ampehtamines again. I wish to be my own source of energy.

Thanks, Dorian.

At least you apologized.

I am uninterested in this passive-aggressive pseudo-intellectualism. It's obvious to me that YOU are, in fact, the one who is primarily concerned about not being right, but being perceived as right. I will not argue this point any further: "It is plain to me by the fountain I draw from, though I will not undertake to prove it to others." - Isaac Newton, one of the greatest Asperger minds ever. Thanks.

Ya, I responded saying as much. I said energy is not evil in itself, that evil exists within the context of humanity. Maybe you skipped over that? P.S. EVERYTHING in language is a label. "Evil" is a label, so is "yin" and "yang" and every other word you're reading. This is the nature of language. You assume to understand fully my understanding? How can this be? We have hardly talked. Please do not misinterpret my words and then direct me with ill-formed declarations against the current state of my cognition.

LOL. Yes, unlike responding to questions by stating that you refuse to effectively respond, which is a highly efficient use of energy, ya? Sigh.

Informer, I get the feeling you dislike me. I apologize if I did anything to offend you. I wish you would have answered my question, but I of course can't force you to.

What? Clyman? I don't know his character, but I'm worried you are insulting me. I was only asking a question, not looking to start a debate. I would still like an answer to my question, if that's okay with you.

Thank you, Dorian Black.

What do you mean: "something better to do by now?" I don't understand the point of this statement.

I realized you posed the question only to make a point. I responded to show that I thought the point was rather weak. I was going to point this out in my initial post, but I felt it would be rude to do so. Something like: P.S. I know what you're trying to do.

Thank you. I will read the thread you posted, and after that I will contact Waysun Liao, though I feel this is too easy--too good to be true.

I actually consider experience and knowledge one in the same. Imo, when someone is spoon-fed knowledge so that they must memorize it in order to integrate it into their cognition, no learning has occurred. Learning is understanding thoroughly--truly owning the knowledge you possess. This is not to say one can not memorize first and understand later--though this is hardly the case with most people. Understanding is impractical, no? Memorization is easier, and gets the same results on exams and most of life's other standardized, practical measures of cognitive accomplishment. My Asperger's hinders my communicative abilities, and so I apologize if these thoughts are poorly organized.

Well yes. It's called learning. Though I'm not sure why you quoted me, because everything I stated there was either a subjective statement, which must not necessarily be in perfect accord with empirical reality for it to be true (as it is implied to exist only from my perspective), or a general statement regarding the consensus of the scientific community.

I can't even begin to correctly judge you without meeting you and interacting honestly with you. I judge everyone individually for who he/she is; I am pretty decent at this: Asperger's comes with what science has called "hyper-perception." Perception is so intense in the mind of someone with Asperger's that the mind is, literally, forced to shut down temporarily, all the time. Please guys, I'm not here to debate good and evil. Read some Plato if that's your interest. Maybe some Nietzsche. I just want to find a mentor. I'm a good person; I have a good heart, and I really want to effect positive change. I'm simply looking for the tools to help me with the job.

How do I know when my inner spirit has been awakened?

I already stated I didn't want to debate metaphysics. You and I see things differently. Thank you for sharing your opinions, but I prefer not to discuss why I believe you are incorrect about nearly everything you stated. Perhaps I am incorrect, but it seems to me you haven't formally studied philosophy at a university. Your logic is a little loose, imho, and I don't wish for this to turn into a war of semantics and literalism as a means of exercising intellectual bravado.

Evil exists within the context of humanity, not within the context of energy itself. Reality, to me, exists in layers, and at the base layer exists energy, as plainly as it can exist. At the higher and more confused layer we exist in, it seems to me energy can be guided by a good or evil consciousness. This consciousness seems to me to have its root, as all things do, in the most fundamental layer of energy. Which is to say, good and evil, yes, are expressions of the most basic forms: yin and yang.

To be aware and master energy as John has is absolutely to embody an enlightened state--regardless of whether he recognizes it as such. Mo Pai isn't simply mindless training to acquire mindless power, like that of athletics. As for knowingly keeping others in the dark, this is not necessarily evil at all. In fact, it is because of the inherent human predisposition towards ignorance that information and, more importantly, knowledge has been kept from the masses. Knowledge must be earned, actively sought. To state that people refusing to spoon feed others is evil is something I cannot agree with. Do I wish people who knew secrets would divulge them to me? Of course. Every day I am frustrated by my inability to be certain on pretty much everything, especially when I know there are people with experience who could show me the truth, or at least some degree of truth. As for the social phenomena statement, I think this is an interesting notion, but I disagree. All values are relative, but to state that there would be no relativity if only one human being existed is incorrect in my view. One can measure one's value relative to themselves, i.e., their former self, their imagined future self. They can measure their sagacity against animals, plants, all forms of life. Where a certain animal, like a lion, does well in a survival situation, the sole human may fail, and so he could consider himself ignorant relative to the lion, or consider the lion more knowledgeable relative to himself. I state willful ignorance as the greatest evil because it exhibits a complete lack of respect for oneself, one's environment, it totally neglects the notion of responsibility, and this is where entropy enters, causes chaos, hurts oneself, hurts others, and worse yet: it proliferates--as you can see by the current state of the world.