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I just thought it was interesting that's all. Learning about science, especially when it's put easy like that is fun (:

lmao dude you're jokes XD

Been sleeping on the floor with just a blanket under me for about 2 years now. I always sleep like a baby but lately I've started to feel pain in my hips from no support in that area. FUTON HERE I COME

Some new school sheeeet for MH

Are you making "yo moma" jokes about the tao? XD

Things are always great at the beginning. When I first started my journey into spirituality it was with some wayne dyer books and cd's about a year ago. That led to Taoism and when I was there, everything was great. It was all so simple, I loved it. Than slowly I started to let go of Taosim as Buddhism started to intrigue me. Thing's were still simple yet it got a little complicated. I became more strict with myself to the point where I just let loose(not blaming buddhism in anyway, I myself was weak). Now it's been over a month that I have left my practices, broke many promises I had made to myself, and ignoring the truth. Fear has come back which I thought was a thing of the past. Ever since I was a kid I was afraid, afraid of what I never knew. It wasn't until I got into this spiritual journey and introduced love into my life that fear was completely gone. I was a new man, no longer afraid. But as I slowly turn away from spirituality that fear is starting to come back which I know is no good. I don't know why I'm writing this but I just felt like it. I will be starting my practice again because I can't live like this, being afraid. Ignorance may be bliss, but that bliss definitely does not last. Sh*t starts to get real XD

Goodmorning everyone (: I just wanted to say today is going to be an awesome day just like everyday(not because of the numbers, forget that). Much love to all the bums even though we don't talk much. Whenever I feel lost I come here and read anyone of your kind words and it brings me back to the path of good. Thank you everyone, I LUH ERRR ONE OF YALL, I really do (: <3

Always listening to Damian "Jr. gong" Marley (: Vexation of spirit is a waste of time Negative thinking don't you waste your thoughts Verbal conflict is a waste of word Physical conflict is a waste of flesh People will always be who they want And that's what really makes to world go round Unconditional love is scarce

^I see what you did there XD

First off anyways please correct me if I am wrong because I could be talking out of my a** XD. The way I see it the ego is one tricky bastard, being on a spiritual journey can be like drugs for the ego. I've had so many times where I feel like I understood everything, enlightenment, bla bla bla but than poof back to normal. Spiritual highs, they can feel so real but the thing is they don't last. I myself don't know how to distinguish between true feelings of bliss/enlightenment and spiritual highs. DAMN EGO!!!!! blame it on the ego, it's the easy way out XD p.s. ignorance is bliss

SUPERHEAVY!!!!! They are friggen awesome I can't stop listening to them. Bandmembers: Mick Jagger, Joss Stone, Damian Marley, Dave Stewart, A.R. Rahman song starts at 0:50 ENJOI (:

tulku you need to chill out dude. Go outside or something, get a girlfriend, go have a drink, DO WHATEVER MANG cause the way your going you will be crazy in no time. PEACE MY BROTHA (: <3

Pursuing a spiritual path is almost impossible for kids now a days with all these influences around, it's sad. I have many friends who are younger than me and the path's they are going down and the influences that are around them are far from spiritual. Everything from themusic,movies,tv,facebook,internet,porn,food,friends,drugs,alcohol is holding these kids back. My brother was showing me this new rapper he listens to, it's friggen retarded(sorry I couldn't put it any other way). Kids skateboarding these days are putting upside down crosses, triple 6's,satan lives,jehovah(I don't know why they put this XD), and all these stupid things on there skateboards thinking it helps them land tricks. I try talking to my brother about spirituality and what not but there's no point. It's kind of like the movie the matrix, they are in this sort of matrix. Below is a part of a song these kids listen to including my little brother, they don't even try to hide the things they say anymore they just say it. You don't have to read the lyrics if you don't want to because it is pretty explicit. "I erupt like a bomb, so give up the baton, I'll slap you after busting a fucking nut in my palm,why you muggin me like something was wrong, just take a puff of the bong, and let me leave your mind corrupt from the song, see you can't stop me, cause I'ma brainwash teens and create false dreams, cause it pays off clean, I'm just an idiotic, ironic, symbolic, illuminatic, product that's gonna be killed if I talk about it, shh, this industry business is all screwed up,I have no favorite rapper because all you suck, I sever the weakest niggas who not on my pedigree, cause on a tombstone is as hard as their name will ever be, I'm judged by my wild image a lot, and everybody seems to think I have a sinister plot, I do, be offended by every sentence I jot, I got some militant thoughts, and you aint killin them off, so listen (Chorus) I sag my pants until my ass shows, I even slap hoes(bitch), yeah I'm an asshole, yeah yeah, and your parents hate me cause I love you, tell em I said fuck you, yeah I said fuck you, yeah yeah"

Immortal dude how old are you lmao. I remember watching this stuff when I was like 8 years old

What if the person who wrote that is your ego XD, I kid. How do you know that you have died to the self? I think I've felt it before after just sitting around for a while but the thing that gets me is how to define between spiritual highs and true glimpses of dying to self or becoming enlightened. If we truly felt this way wouldn't it stay around instead of slowly downing the dosage. Sometimes after I meditate I feel awesome and completely alive. I'm just smiling from everywhere but this slowly fades after time, how do I know if that wasn't just a spiritual high that ego created? LOL I just realized I asked a bunch of questions when I didn't even answer yours. So Everything, the part when you wrote that when you realized everything was "fake" are you basically saying that everything we see is an illusion? I read somewhere that true realization is knowing everything is an illusion, I know that might tick some people off XD. Anyways this post is just a bunch of stuff mixed together and whatever popped in to my head sorry if it isn't productive toward your initial post.

I was just sitting relaxed today reciting the mantra Om Mani Padme Hum. A couple months ago I learned about this mantra and fell in love with it, reciting it over and over but today something else happened. I didn't pressure my self into proper posture or closing my eyes falling into emptiness and what not I just let it be. As I was reciting the mantra I began putting more emphasis on the Om until I felt a sort of vibration past my ears. Slowly I began reciting it from my throat without any effort at all. The sound was as if I wasn't making it. I recited it this way for sometime than just began reciting long Om's randomly. I did that for about a couple minutes than went back to the mantra, I closed my eyes and I felt this surge of energy engulf me. Light flickered as my eyes were closed(sort of like pages of a book being passed through quickly)it was almost as if I was being lifted and I felt this energy so intense I wanted to be immersed in it but I felt scared so I opened my eyes. When I opened my eyes I slowed down the mantra and felt as if I was being brought back(I don't know from were). My body was very hot and I was almost sweating from the experience. I just sat for a while after wondering what the heck happened. It was something else, I also had never recited the mantra like that before at times I couldn't tell if it was me reciting it. I don't know if any of you have experienced this before but I'm still trying to get my head around it. Maybe thisis what's supposed to happen when you don't just recite it anymore you feel it, but I don't think I was ready. It was intense. Do any of you bums have an idea of what might have happened? p.s. I recite the mantra in the Tibetan form which sounds like: Om mani payme hung, I don't know if that matters.

My favourite song by Bob (:

My father has been into Eckankar for a couple years now. He has never forced anything upon me or tried to teach me anything of it. Today he asked me if I wanted to go to a seminar with him next weekend. I know it will make him happy if I tag along but I have some doubts. I know Eckankar is mainly about soul travel and astral projection and what not. To be honest, I'm kind of scared. All that astral projection stuff never really made sense to me and I don't want were I'm at right now to get messsed up. I however know it's good to be open to things so I will still go but I would like to know if any bums know anything about this spiritual path, Eckankar. Thanks a lot everyone (: BTW thank you all for replying to my last post, I greatly appreciate it and took all of your views into consideration. I know everything will turn out the way it should, thank you (:

I had a great opportunity to become an electrician but it wasn't something I could do forever. I had lost myself in the job, my whole life revolved around work doing 12 hour shifts a day coming home to just sleep. I quickly got myself out of that after 9 months. I have been jobless for 3 weeks now and my parents keep hitting me in the head(not literally). I just went back to highschool to see if I can upgrade my courses but they said I must stay back for a year and half in order to take grade 12 university courses. I don't even know what I would do if I go to university, I would just be there to make my parents happy. Right now as I typed that my father walked in telling me I F***** my life up and I have to go work for $10 an hour for the rest of my life and all this bullshit. They want me to be at a high leval so people recognize me but I don't care about that. I just want to live a simple life but to them that isn't good enough. I don't know what to do, what the heck am I supposed to do? How do you guys do it, cultivating the way but at the same time living in this system. I'm only 18, I'm guessing you're all over 20 so please tell me how you do it I need to know. This goes against everything I've learned to ask others for something only I would know but I don't know! I don't know what my interests are, what I will be doing for the rest of my life I am stumped. This is all giving me a headache and my father wont stop rambling.

wow I just realized what that all looked like, what a mess. Ummm....yeah sorry about that XD

It said I had posted too many quotes so I deleted the quotes and just left the names of those I replied to. Sorry if it's difficult to read XD.

Full moon tonight for the bums that didn't know, enjoy (:

Thank you Deci Belle for replying. It's not that I don't want to go back to school, I honestly do. I went into school today fighting to take the university courses but the guidance counsler insisted that I can't do such a thing and she threw a bunch of college books at me. If I want to go to university I must stay back a year and half in highschool and to my father that is too much time. I already tried the whole dive in see what happens with electrical and yes I learned a lot of skills, I don't regret it but that didn't work out. My mother says to just choose something and go even if you don't like it but that's what I did before and it didn't work. I don't know Deci, thank you for taking time to reply.