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superb examples of positive affirmations and goal setting. having a goal does not mean you have to give up creativity and spontenaity. a goal doesn't mean that's all you do.... a goal is just a direction, that thing you are looking at over there..... and heading towards. it's something to get you moving. now in that movement you can hop, skip, jump, whistle and stroll along merrily, or grumble and groan.... you can zig zag all over the path and admire all the other beautiful things along the way, or you could just bolt towards it as fast as possible. once you get there you will likely decide now you want to go somewhere else.... or even upon the way you might see something even better you'd like to go to. the point i'm trying to make in a garbled way is that having a goal doesn't mean you cannot be effortless, doesn't mean you cannot become like the flowing river..... as even the river has a goal, and that is to get to the ocean! so as a goal is necessary as a space to have action, why not be clear, positive and concise about what it is you want and where it is you are going? you got a much better chance of achieving anything that way.

you stopped playing with your clubs? man you change styles/systems as often as i change shirts.

goals are important, even in exploration. if you have no idea of where you want to go, you are never gonna get there! it doesn't mean they need to be static, they can change and fluctuate as you do.... they can be refined, added to, etc. but, for myself, i have truly realised the sincere importance of them. consider a goal as a focal point, a place where you can direct your attention, something you can use to be coherent with your intent. without it you can easily become scattered and lost.

nope... it's all CST. you'll see when you get intu-flow. it's all three dimensional (i.e. circular) and all of it is to do with strength. intu-flow is about joint strength. CST is more to do with the methodology and aims than it is to do with just swinging a club, as was brought up on a recent topic on the forum.

just something interesting i was experimenting with today while i was driving..... doing the sexual chi-kong breathing as outlined by dr lin, but using the structural breathing from cst. that is using the muscles of the abdomen (combined with movements of the spine) to dictate the in and out breaths.... in breath - pushing stomach out to pull air down and then rolling that push down towards genitals. letting that transition easily into a compressive out breath (the wave sucking in the follows the push out) and then on the out breath also pulling up on the anus and sacrum (even using that to aid compression). it's nice.... and very sustainable, that is can do it indefinately, while doing anything. a real pumping/bellows situation begins to occur. it's just the performance breathing, but taking it lower in the abdomen to include the genitalia. i see awesome implications of applying this to partnered love-making too...... so much potential now i just need a partner.

only MOST of the time??? c'mon you can do better than that.... it's possible, i think, to feel good ALL the time. i reckon on an emotional level i am now in the 90+% of the time category physically however still wavers. yesterday was feeling achey and nauseous. didn't waver my emotional balance though......

these are my short-long term goals. 1. recover, coordinate and refine my movements (i.e. physical mastery). 2. have easy and meaningful relationships with all beings i encounter. 3. obtain increasing levels of freedom to go where and do what i want without resistance of any sort. 4. increasing levels of bliss and contentment. 5. increasing levels of spontenaity. 6. father children to several different mothers which i am definately working towards. ultimate long term goal: -to reunite with oneness. to become everything and nothing. but... the first set of goals i see as more important to deepen and thoroughly enjoy my experience as an individual human being

sure.... because once you have cultivated self properly, i think one realises that ALL IS SELF anyways is anyone on here up to the point where they feel they no longer have to do any self work? i certainly aint.... i'm more involved with myself than ever, but it's not how it sounds.... rather the more i become involved with myself, the kinder, more compassionate and understanding i become towards others. in other words, i continue to become a "better person" whatever that might mean....

really??? are you supposed to be able to get the energy back from this practice of consumption? i'd consider giving it a try.... i mean i've drunk my own urine plenty of times, administered to myself coffee enemas, probiotic implants and sesame oil implants.... i've eaten tadpoles and insect larvae.... this would be another weird thing i'd be able to say i've tried hehe. honestly, i'm trying to have the attitude of trying anything (within beneficial reason, i wouldn't try anything outright stupid) once and with an open mind.... hahaha. but then again only time i ejaculate is with wet dreams every other week (and occassionally something really weird happens, when i defecaete some ejaculate also comes out - not from my bum for anyone thinking dirty). got no partner and no time for masturbation either.

i agree and include such things as astral travel, healing, clairvoyance and so forth as also tools for disintegrating the hold the matrix has on us. it's just a matter of not getting caught up in any one of these skills, but recognising that the ability to perform all of them comes from the same place. but then hey, as of this moment i can't do any of these things! although i am participating in the gnostic web astral travel course, but still struggling on week 1 haha. either i fall asleep while relaxing my body, or finish relaxing it and can't lie still anymore! and as for lying there in the morning in an attempt to recall dreams..... not possible so far!!! although my dreams do seem to be getting really crazy lately. those that i can remember parts of, that is.

one of my teachers also speaks about this in a way, but rather than indulging the emotion or analysing it... to go with it and see where it's point of contact lies. ummm difficult to explain, but when we have an emotion it's not the first point, it comes from somewhere.... so to go back to that track and find out where it actually comes from (and no the lotto is not where it actually came from) and by doing that emotions seem to lose power. it's weird, i apply this kind of process subconsciously and i no longer have much in the way of emotion anymore. occassionally there are times when i lose my balance, or slight deviations from this content state..... but most of the time i would actually say i'm without emotion. that doesn't mean i don't feel anything, i just wouldn't call what i feel an emotion because it's not the way i used to feel. cool. yeah everything is energy. if you can describe it, it's energy ('tonal' in the words of don juan.... as opposed to the opposite of it (nagual) which could be emptiness but isn't because we can describe that?) nice story. you are doing some nice things, but you yourself really do come first and foremost..... there is no other way. cannot give what you don't have. cannot take someone somewhere you haven't been. can't help someone if you haven't helped yourself. cannot love someone if you don't love yourself. self really is first.

i'm younger than twotrees..... perfectly imperfect. selflessly selfish. the great paradox, neither light nor dark. neither here nor there. infinite nothingness, is where i reside.

haha... sorry cameron. only posted it because it could have been brought up a while ago with what was going on. rmax aint better than anything else out there, thats not the point i realised because it's all the same and it's not what i was trying to show. honestly i thought i was able to grasp weird asian concepts too, but i realised after more than a year of dabbling in taoist esoteric practices.... i didn't honestly know what i was doing haha. but now as i look deeper into western culture (and no, not only science) i find the parallels easily and can actually go back and understand what it was i was missing before. ahhhh.... forget it hahaha. i'll leave it alone. whatever you are doing (everyone!), if it provides a happier, healthier life to you.... continue and feel comfortable that what you are doing is great.

yoda, i understand what you are saying. a phrase i coined myself to represent this is: "selflessly selfish" indicating that by being completely involved with the self and betterment of the self, we can't help but be anything other than selfless. ultimately what truly benefits us, benefits everyone else and the environment too. we are infinite consciousness having an individual human experience. i, too, choose to be and enjoy that individual experience until the point when i once again return to the infinite.

the other week i was looking at a friends copy of one of the Emoto water crystal book. i was so impressed to see the impact negative words had on the water crystals. whether these crystals really occur like this or not (i have heard evidence against them, but this is common to any discovery) it is very obvious that words have a powerful impact on us. they are the final result in the 'Thought -> Emotion -> Action' (from Edmund Szelekely's work) cycle, they are the action. looking at the water crystals caused me to decide i will no longer use swear words, like the 'f' word or the word for excrement or any other derogatory word aimed at any individual or anything as it is obvious this will have an impact on the vibrations of the water both within our body and the person who we aim such words at. instead i have been seeking replacement words. e.g. for the 'f' word i now say "love"..... so for f'n h#ll i'll say instead "love in heaven" ..... instead of the s##t i'll say "wheat" and so forth.... to take it even further.... over this weekend i went to an alternative living festival. i have been in a great place lately but this all disintegrated at the festival as i sought desperately to foster interactions with other individuals and ended up feeling depressed, miserable and lonely. refusing to succumb to these negative feelings i instead chose to pursue the problem i had in interacting successfully with other individuals, especially in large groups. on introspection i have been discovering that due to all my studies into food and all the negative things that impact our lives (e.g. banking, chemtrails, politics, food, pharmaceuticals, poisoned water supply, and on and on and on) i have become very critical with my language and addressing stuff. always seeming to focus on the negative like "oh that is no good, i wouldn't eat that" and so on, always informing people of how bad certain stuff is. i realise that speaking like this is probably very confronting and uncomfortable for people to be around. this being the case i have decided in addition to no longer using swear words i will no longer use negative language about anything and instead speak positivitely and focus only on the good things. as for fostering awareness about the bad things, i can do this more constructively by looking at the good things and by leading as an example. this requires disciplined awareness of everything i say, and so far has been going great and i can already feel the differences in the way people respond to me. i constructed an affirmation around this (along the lines of "i speak without judgment, criticism, etc and without looking for reward or to impress, etc and speaking only with love, positivity, to inspire, etc) that i say every morning before my meditation. i allow myself to have whatever thoughts occur, it is just what i express verbally that i am concerned with at this stage. the next step is to increase awareness of emotions or feelings towards people and things and become more conscious of how i feel about stuff and convert that to more positive and finally move to the same process with thoughts...... however i think just the very act of being aware of my actions in language will spill over very strongly to these other areas. just some thoughts....

i was looking this morning at a little printout i had put on my wall a while ago (i put all kinds of reminders up on my walls) that talks about steps to ascended consciousness. i was musing on how far i have come since putting it up. the very first step is self understanding. this, i think, ties into what you are saying todd. becoming aware of ourselves, regardless of how we like or dislike the truth, is the only way to drop our own limitations. i have been finding the best way to do this for myself is by becoming analytical of my behaviour patterns. why do i behave in this way in this situation? what am i trying to get out of it? what do i want? and so on... i think the understanding of myself has jumped immensley since realising that this is an important step in our self-progression. the next step is to accept, and i feel like i have definately moved into this state. i accept that this is the way i am, and anything i am unsatisfied with i am changing..... it's actually pretty easy to change oneself, holding the pattern of change is where the difficulty lies. we are all actors anyway. this whole "this is me" thing going on is all an act. who we think we are, who we show to others and even to ourselves is all acting. ALL OF IT IS AN ACT! circumstance in combination with ourselves chose the role we are currently playing, but there is no reason we can't act a different role. but this role is so ingrained/conditioned that vigiliance is required to make permanent change.

huh? you are now in the CST with your purchase of intu-flow....!!! anyways as you'll soon find, there is no reccomended order, there is just YOU and YOUR journey. the order is wherever you are at and what you are working towards. intu-flow is reccomended first, because that is the base level, everything else builds upon it. flowfit is a great introduction to the world of prasara body-flow, and with it's broken down levels.... more accessible than diving straight into body-flow or prasara. welcome to the tribe. stick with intu-flow and be amazed at the results that WILL come over time. it's very gradual, but completely sustainable. the mini-clubs are cool. they will come in useful in time, with active recovery, with experimentation, and you can take intu-flow a level higher when you are ready by undergoing "mobilized strength" which i am currently practicing. and you'll be amazed when you lift them out of the box and realize how heavy they actually are, and then your mind will boggle when you consider that some of these CST athletes heft "bruisers" (45lb clubbells) single handed!

perhaps i misunderstand this, but i disagree with some of it. from my studies into RMAX and performance breathing..... the breath doesn't enhance the movement, the breath and movement are interrelated. breath happens BECAUSE OF the movement and structure. movement happens because of breath and structure. structure happens because of breath and movement. it's impossible, when performing at an efficient level, to seperate any of these three. i do agree that we don't force inhalations or exhalations to match the movements.... it just happens, as above. however this does need conscious awareness to retrain the breath to do this, as years of counter conditioning has caused us to lose the ability to truly breathe efficiently. in running or walking, again the movement and structure are interrelated with the breath. compression for exhalation leading into a naturally occuring inhalation upon expansion. you can do this in any number of ways. pick a stride when running.... perhaps every fourth step, compress on this step.... then on the next 4 steps the body is slowly returning to it's upright position and inhalation is occuring. it's really very good way of running, and enables the ability to run much further without ever getting puffed. however the running itself has to be natural, and i believe RMAX are going to produce a dvd on this shortly, covering all the gears of locomotion. i have the video on slavic running, which deals only with second gear (trotting) and is very nice and simple, but very efficient. i believe performance breathing to be applicable to absolutely any activity, including qi gong, yoga, tai-chi, etc. to integrate the breath with the movement and structure is to attain flow state. this is why i have been experimenting with qi gong style activities to see how it fits in, and i'm not suprised to find it fits perfectly...... pick any activity, insert performance breathing.... and notice how much more efficient and easy it becomes.

yeah... cool clip. two trees.... was just admiring this quote from you: nice. the first part sounds a lot like my word project going on. perhaps intuitively i'm following the seers path

add to this experimentation..... i have also been doing a little experimenting using the performance breathing (abdominal muscles driving the breath) with the 4-square breathing from yudeloves book "taoist yoga for better sex life". nice results from this too. plus the chi-kong breathing is getting much more efficient with very noticeable waves travelling down my abdomen and then around the pc and up to sacral area.... as i said it's easy to maintain with very little awareness.

there is an RMAX pushup.... it's a screwing one-arm pushup. there is an article in one of the online magazines about it (and about the RMAX pull-up too). the push-up is also detailed in "forward pressure". warrior wellness became intu-flow. be breathed is a great core strength program. it highlights very much how to integrate breathing into movement and structure. but everything CST does that too. intu-flow has a great breath section at the end of the joint stuff. intu-flow i would reccomend as the entry-point to CST.... go from there feeling what you want to work on. there are many ways of achieving EXACTLY the same goal: that is to integrate breath, movement and structure..... body-flow is great, but need to either already be very mobile or a solid grounding in intu-flow before i suggest moving into it. flowfit on the other hand can be begun immediately, along with intu-flow. personally i'd advise against the makeshit bells..... but that is your choice to make. enjoy the journey!!! keep us posted.

i'm sorry todd. i'm not sure what you are reffering to here....?

michael, i'm not saying you or anyone else worships science i was merely putting an answer to this comment obviously to mandrake, science is the most important thing with regards to this..... my question is, if science is so important why then are you on a taoist forum? last time i checked science hadn't validated internal alchemy or any of the other weird things we discuss here either. and my comments about science were in general, not specifically directed. smiles anyway.

i love hugs. i don't think we get enough of them. i think it's sad that people can even give false hugs. i think it's sad that people can be closed to giving or receiving hugs. i think too many of us suffer from touch deprivation. lets hug more!!! hug me! *hugs for you all*

that's nice.... what do you believe in then? what western science has told you..... have you done any of the studies yourself? have you validated any of the laws of the universe yourself? you are just believing in other people's words just as much as anyone else. regardless of who does the scientific study IF IT'S NOT YOU THEN IT'S JUST YOUR BELIEF. if you 'know' you know, and if you don't.... then you just have to take someone elses word for it. science is just an exploration, it's not truth and will never be truth... it is in constant flux and will never have a complete answer for the universe. i studied science for years at uni, so i'm not just speaking out of thin air. regardless of emoto's work, i feel quite strongly the impact of words. it's not such a far-fetched thing to say that words have power..... you are entitled to your belief as much as everyone else, it's not for you to say what is truth and what isn't.... and as for the emoto water crystals... why don't you replicate the experiment yourself to invalidate it and hold it up as truth for all. some people will believe you and some wont, but at least you can be sure of yourself when you make any claim.