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i agree in part.... herbs as medicine should be unnecessary if the diet is adequate. however i would consider that an adequate diet would consist of herbs as a part of it. herbs are like superfoods, with higher concentrations of minerals, vitamins, antioxidants and beneficial phytochemicals.... they are just plants, same as the vegetables we eat. sweet potato is a root, so is ginseng. whats the diff? spinach is leaves, so is damiana. almonds are seeds, and so are feonugreek. and on and on...... not much is needed, but some is. otherwise why would have all cultures all round the world used herbs as a part of a normal diet???

here is a bit of second-hand news.... but i trust the person who told me. apparently in the field where Genetically Modified crops are grown (where they bombard the shit out of them with pesticides) the only weed that continuously manages to survive is..... horsetail. to me if that plant can survive excessive amounts of pesticide exposure then perhaps in these times it might be a good one for us to be ingesting? i'm gonna get myself some this sunday at the markets and start drinking regularly, probably as cold tea throughout the day at work. also to combat all that chemtrail activity apparently two very good herbs are elderflowers and chinese wormwood (wormwood for the mycoplasmas that have been reported to be sprayed on us with all the other junk).

how appropriate. i just opened up the latest fiction book to read and there was this quote..... "At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless; Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is, But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity, Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards, Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point, There would be no dance, and there is only the dance." T.S. Eliot.

affirmation. the more i reflect on the illusory nature of things, the less that i am bothered by anything. when i remember that nothing is real.... i can be present. i can be in this experience, in the now. bills, girlfriends, friends, time, nothing is worrying and i feel content and bliss. at times i truly feel this. i am infinite consciousness having an experience. yeah i am constantly stunned these days by my inability to answer virtually any question posed to me without a paradox. it is just a paradox and you are right. so back to infinite consciousness..... i guess simultaneously i am oneness and i am seperate. infinity exists in this moment, right now, which doesn't exist at all. great answer sean, very interesting post. ultimately my opinion on these matters is that if you are engaging in an activity, whatever it may be, that adds to your enjoyment of this experience..... then this is it.

whats your point? this is pretty much what i was saying.... we are within god, we are made of god, we are god. all this seperation stuff, this polarity, this duality.... it's all just illusion. it's the matrix, and we are living right in it. two ways to think about it, which i believe are essentially the same but one has a more positive connotation and the other more negative.... either infinite consciousness (god) decided to see what it was like to have an experience. so it created all the universes, galaxies, solar systems, suns, planets, beings and matter to see what it was all like to live like this. we are now in the process of gathering up this experience (we as seperate identies of what is really just inifinite consciousness, who we really are) and over trillions of 'years' (really just a fart length of time for infinite consciousness) the entire experience takes place, ends and infinite consciousness goes "well that was interesting. what shall i do next?" or as the view that david icke puts forward, which is very similar but more sinister (but still true to an extent as far as i'm concerned) is that the matrix, a self-perputuating free energy device powered by our fear and negative emotions, somehow seperated itself from infinite consciousness and keeps us all trapped here through a massive variety of methods. to me this matrix is definately real, it operates on many levels to trap and confuse us and vampire our fear energy (shit i need to pay the bills. shit i need to be immortal. shit i need to do this or that. shit i'm scared if i say that. shit i'm scared of getting cancer... and so on... it's all bollocks anyway) but i think it is only a part of the story and that still ultimately the purpose for being here is part of the giant experience. what's it like to be divided from our infinite nature? well every single one of us can now accurately answer that question..... when we all meet up together us oneness we'll be able to 'discuss' it hahahaha! i doubt anyone out there will agree with me, and honestly it doesn't bother me as infinite expressions of the one we are all entitled to our experience with whatever beliefs we would like to hold with that.

haha. the nature of the paradox. i have been realising lately that i cannot voice an opinion on anything that is not paradoxical. i can no longer speak in anything that is not paradoxical. its messed up. well.... i guess i am in constant communication with god. but at the same time i am already god. god is something outside that i am a part of... but at the same time it's something that is inside. i can't speak directly to god because there is nothing to speak to and there is nothing to say. one time though i couldn't sleep and i decided to ask myself the question "where am i?". i threw around a lot of answers like "i am here", "i am infinite" and so on.... then finally i got to "i am now" and i had this resounding feeling that shook me right up.... like a voice in my head that didn't use any words but conveyed the feeling "exactly!" i am now. that's it... that's all it is. the rest is just a hypnotic illusion, even the notion of a god as something seperate to us (even though i just previously used the analogy of us being a cell within it) it illusory. there is no seperation, it doesn't exist, cannot exist. some days... like today... everything seems so illusory. i feel like everything i am looking at that is outside me is actually going on inside me. bizarre. i just read your last post, sean. where you say that to be caught up seeing reality as an illusion basically disables having effective relationships with others. on the surface level i agree...... but as this feeling really comes into being, eventually you can only have effective relationships with everything and everyone as you recognise them as just being a part of yourself and vice versa. there is no seperation between me and you. we are made up of the same stuff, and below that the same infinite consciousness is projecting both of us into this world. we are all little puppets being controlled by a trillion armed octopus, but somehow we managed to forget about the strings between us and it and that we aint seperate haha. weird analogy but i just made it up myself

well you are using language too philosophical or intellectual for me haha..... but i think i understand what you are getting at. you have identified that we are not seperate from god. you have also identified that there is a consciounsess of the planet (the matrix... the hypnotic illusion we are all a part of) but the part you are speaking about is what is our relationship to it? i like to use the microcosm/macrocosm analogy of our body to think about this. in our bodies we have trillions of cells, each with its own form of consciousness. we are to god what these cells are to us. IMHO. i don't pray to god because i think god has as much chance of hearing one of our individual prayers as we do of hearing one individual of the trillions of cells in our bodies trying to talk to us. however i do try to listen to god through meditation. we already are, were and will forever be in a relationship with the divine. i think that opening ourselves to that relationship involves listening rather than talking. i think our purpose is to achieve enlightened states of consciousness so the entire being we are a part of can grow itself. the more of us who raise ourselves, the more that the entirety will raise itself. however i do believe that gratitude (even as a form of prayer) is incredibly powerful.

everything in your life is manifested by you. it's all a hypnotic illusion in which we (each individual) plays the main character. our whole situation came about by personal choice. it's all manifestation. but then to consciously do it is another thing. thaddeus made a point when it's about beliefs. it's also about whether you think you really deserve it or not. to want is one thing, but not enough. to really get something is to remove all the obstructions to whatever it is you want. you want a million dollars.... what for? what will you do with it? do you really feel deep within your being that you deserve it? that you will do only good with it? that it will really improve your and everyone else around you life? with whatever it is you are trying to manifest, look inside and see if you really deeply feel worthy of it. for example for myself i began trying to manifest a million dollars. after a while i started to look deeper inside myself and realised that i really didn't feel like i needed a million dollars.... so how would i manage to manifest it? changed to 100,000. still don't need that much. 50,000... still no. 20,000 is an acceptable number... but still i have internal resistance to that. but its acceptable so now i am going about letting go of my resistance, why is it that i don't think i need that much?

i study cheng hsin and the guy i train with considers himself a 'facilitator' and not a teacher. he has more experience so he facilitates the class (although sometimes he gets us to take turns leading it) but emphasises that we always teach ourselves through direct experience. i also understand what trunk says and that a teacher would be someone you consider a 'pillar' that is someone who reminds you of your spirituality and provides a source of focus. noone can ever give you an experience. to ever be worthwhile you need to gain it for yourself. hence we are all our own teachers. but those further along the path can give us guidance and little nudges without which it might take us a lot longer to find the way. perhaps they are the light that illuminates part of the cave so we can see for ourselves what's inside?

found this in a book at my grandma's. it provides no exercises or methodology to go along with these 10 steps.... but then again i don't really think one is needed. the book itself was very average, just talking about one womans experience with slowly becoming psychic, but these 10 points resonated enough with me that i had to type them and print them out to be stuck up on my wall. 1. self understanding - being as honest as possible with ourselves to understand why we think and act as we do and develop insight into our life situation. 2. self acceptance - accepting ourselves as we are. 3. self forgiveness - give up criticism of the self and forgive, no matter what. 4. self love - being our own best friend. 5. unconditional self love - a state where there is NO self judgement and NO self criticism. 6. awareness of our own divinity - realising we are an expression of god. 7. realising the magnitude of the great power (god) - this awareness grows as our consciousness expands (i take it as... beginning to see how all things are interconnected). 8. realising we are beings of 'light' - no judgement of self or others. 9. realising the insignificance and unreality of the hypnotic suffering dimension - the suffering dimension is not real but a hypnotic state created by human thought and belief (i.e. we believe we are sinful, from beliefs of this or past lives and thus we must suffer to atone for our sins.... on a surface level we may not believe this, but dig deep.... is there something deeper that, motivated out of guilt, believes you need to suffer?) 10. realising everything is god - non duality. negative situations are not power but only the result of self judgemental beliefs and attitudes (past lives and this life). i have realised that i don't even fully accept myself.... let alone understand myself! today i lay down and thought about negative situations that have occurred in my life, just tried to let them drift into my awareness. i then tried to understand or figure out what was my motivation for allowing that situation to come across as negative, what reason did i have to allow myself to suffer? i then accepted those reasons and began to forgive myself for the suffering i caused myself. then i just let myself drift into a nap. i like to do some practices lying down, especially one such as this because as you begin to enter the half asleep/half awake state things may become cloudier but they also seem to become clearer to be able to see. i awoke feeling better than when i started and feeling a little clearer to be honest.

i got it from some book about a woman talking about her life experiences and coming into psychic ability. the book was pretty boring and ordinary.... but that list in the appendix was interesting. i don't take it as a literal list, rather just another take on it all. the progression from understanding to acceptance to forgiveness to self-love resonated with me. in the past i had been working with forgiveness (surrender) but never really got the kind of success with it i wanted, then been working with acceptance but to look at it the other way.... how can you accept or forgive yourself for something you don't yet understand? i realise i don't know anything about myself at all, so i am now seeking to dissect myself and gain greater understanding of who i am, what i want and what makes me upset or happy..... in order to begin to accept myself and then forgive myself for any wrongs i may have done to myself. it's an interesting progression.

yeah certainly i meant it about any 'guru's body of work. and yeah i know.... i was holding onto chia aggro for quite a while after i met him and was negatively affected by him. i have let that go, i just brought it up because of this guru thread.

we are all insane anyways for even believing this totally absurd illusion to be real, for believing we are limited to this body. let it be, let it be, let it be, love is the answer, let it be. fear feeds the illusion, love transcends it. re: mantak chia's body of work. something i have been realising is this whole qi gong and energy work stuff..... a particular structure has been given to something that doesn't necessarily need a structure. i mean why are there so many forms of qi gong out there? because each individual 'master' has invented their own..... and what gives them the ability to invent their own over us? nothing really..... it's just energy. literally you can play with it. i just do intuitive energy practices whenever i do them now, and only sometimes. i try not to get too stuck in the energy part of it because that is only a small portion. meditation, and i have realised a meditation that cultivates presence is the really important bit. anyways lets use the analogy of the CST system. you practice the basics, clean the slate, etc.... once you reach a certain point, that is you have made a safety net for your practice to expand, you then intuitively flow and create your own as you go. thats how it all works! there is no need to get caught feeling someone else needs to teach you, we are all masterful beings already.

exactly!

haha i think he is a head case..... beneath his calm exterior i think he is seething with insanity. but then again we are all insane for even believing in this illusion... no? but yeah as far as we are aware he aint guilty of some of the outrages as other supposed guru's. personally though, i think that anyone who tacks 'guru' or 'master' before their name instantly demands wariness. we are ALL masters and guru's!

at the risk of annoyed taobums.... i'm gonna add mantak chia to that list. haha a lot of you know i have personal grievances against that guy!

hey sean *hug* my brother i can empathise with you entirely. i am very much the same.... a million ideas, a million goals, a million projects. i got so many books stacked up i don't know where to begin and i read several at a time, many go uncompleted... set aside for 'another time'. anyways what is the common theme between every single one of these things you try to do? what is it? for me it's because i want to progress/evolve and deepen my experience of this life, this universe and to realise my true potential. because i want to 'be'. wow. but sometimes i get so lost in trying to 'be' that i forget i already am! the journey through all this stuff is the reason we came here..... my dear friend isira gave me an example of when she was swimming with dolphins and she observed that the nature of their world under water is essentially gravity free.... in that respect they do anything they can to get above the surface and 'sip' at gravity. that's what we are here for man.... to 'sip' at this dense, overwhelming experience that this planet and this dimension offers. i have had to cut a lot out of my life that i just don't see going anywhere. there comes a time when you have to ask... is this really necessary??? to just 'be' to experience love.... do i need to do all of this? so my friend i wish you all the best and i know that you will succeed because you are so driven, it is the only possible outcome.

i'm sure cold water would boost the immune system. just in a book i read it stated that cold water down the spine would help to tone the nervous system.... thats all i know about it really. and personally, i like it! i can't finish a shower now without the cold water on my spine... it don't feel right.

ive found finishing a shower with cold water down the spine and on the jade pillow and sacrum is also great for toning the nervous system. also i drink water with himalayan crystal salt in it sometimes, this seems to be good too.

i'm with yoda on the limited breakfast. but i do think its good to have a little something. i usually have a cup of water with oxygen supplement added. a cup of herbal tea. some days a bowl of miso soup with seaweed (this is fantastic for breakfast. light and high in water and minerals as well as a little bit of protein and also very warming). but i personally think you can't beat fruit for breakfast (no bananas or avocados though - too heavy). it goes along with the natural cycles of the body which are a little something like this: 4am - midday: elimination cycle. the body is moving everything into elimination channels to get rid of it to make room for the new stuff. midday - 8pm: acquisition cycle. the body needs stuff! 8pm - 4am: assimilation cycle. the body uses all the stuff it got in the acquisition cycle and puts it in all the places it's supposed to go. fruit is great because it is digested rapidly (in about 30 minutes) entirely in the stomach, is light, high in water and vitamins and also aids in elimination/detoxification of the intestines. i generally only eat fruit (along with my miso soup and occassionally some veggie juice) in the morning. and i find i have a lot more energy throughout the day than if i have a heavier breakfast. i have been thinking more about fruit recently and i am coming to the idea that is the perfect food. nothing has to die in the eating of fruit. it is a trees gift, and totally natural. nothing is destroyed. with vegetables we either have to destroy the entire plant of tear some of it off that the plant was actually using for its functioning. i think we can easily live on just fruit, but as its a mucuos free diet, you would need to be in a place with much cleaner air. living in a city we need mucuos to capture all the pollutants we breathe in and help to move them out. fruit = love! haha.

hmmm.... nahhh.... i don't think its the same. i would never carry the sledgehammers with me, but clubs, i would. my lifestyle aint that jetsetting, i do intend to stay fixed for at least 6 months in thailand and i will have a homebase when i intend to move again that i will keep coming back to..... so.... fuckit, im gonna get them. they will outlive me anyways i'm sure, so when you think of it like that... it's not really that huge an investment (besides being on unemployment benefits and living at home with parents... it is actually the government paying hahaha!)

oh yeah... balance. forgot to mention that, my balance has gotten way better. i still have problems in my knees, so i am going to go and get that seen to by an ART therapist. i'm just about to buy my first set of big clubbells (15 lbs).... i think. it's so expensive to have them come to australia, but really it's not the money which bothers me (i mean can i swing my money around and get incredible strength and agility and so forth???) but its the weight when travelling..... i am intending (subject to change, of course) to go to thailand in about 6-7 months for about 6 or more months. want to go there and chill without working and just write my stories and exercise. i will definately want to take them with me...... but it means i will be so limited in anything else i can take (although if i fly with thai airways, being a frequent flyer i can take 32 kg, and the 15's plus the mini's will take up 18 of that... still enough i guess).... and then say i decide to travel onwards from there? haha see the predicament i am in? i guess i could always just sell them or leave them with a friend....... i don't like to stay in just one spot, but my aim is to eventually (1-2 years away) go to US and become CST certified, so i definately need to begin working with the clubs!

the two most noticable elements are, firstly the weird degree of mobility now in my joints. in particular my thoracic vertebrae and hips. i am becoming more and more 'rubbery'. the second is my level of fitness. i do no cardio workouts but do be-breathed and do the xtension circuit yet somehow i have managed to get very fit. i ride my bike long distances without getting puffed. also when riding i seem to be able to get into a 'flow state' as i read it defined by steven barnes.... in that i am riding and suddenly i am at the end of my ride without even realising i got there.... i was just so involved in it that the time dissapeared. i expect a lot more benefits to occurr as time passes.

i love the CST system. the more i work with it, the more i love it. i feel that it is a system which if practiced faithfully (meaning you develop yourself within the system to such an extent that your training becomes entirely intuitive, innovative and spontaneous, thus transcending the system itself) will lead to physical mastery, mastery of the third dimension. i am enjoying the ride and i am still very much at the beginning, but i'm far enough along to realise i have definately moved.