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i went to see a this woman isira today for some counselling to help me out of the rut i have been feeling i have been in. she was really something else, very intelligent, spiritual and loving. we were discussing concepts and acceptance. the problem with spiritual or philosophical concepts is that they encourage duality, perhaps they create a split between thought and between practice. something like "this here is the thought or concept that i base this here practice on." can you see how now there is a divide between the two? concepts are all well and good, but they take away our ability to just be present. to be, which really is in great part the ultimate goal.... by constantly reasoning everything out, by analysing, intellectualising, philosiphising... we are giving power to the divide we have ourselves created between us and the universe or the god-force or whatever you want to call it. the point is we create this divide ourselves and we perpetuate it by constantly feeding it and giving it power. i just brought this up because someone mentioned about simplicity. it is simple and being in a state of enlightenment or bliss should be simple too. sean said this: "Philosophy, the pursuit of wisdom, was at one time almost universally considered inseparable from genuine spiritual practice." and maybe this is the way it should be too..... there is no divide. the philosophy is the practice and the practice is the philosophy. i don't know if i am making all that much sense, my head is still reeling from the conversations with isira and the thoughts haven't had a chance to crystallise properly. but i leave you with this.... "the entire ocean is contained within every drop."

the king of bhutan is called "the dragon king".

apart from my grandfather who i was not close to at all, and a couple of pets... i haven't had any loved ones die on me yet. there have been a couple of people from school that have already gone, but again i wasn't close to them.

welcome! enjoy being in an environment of eccentric but interesting and lovely people.....

well herbs are really just (super) foods anyways. i was reading about calamus and it's actually used as a vegetable in some places..... this herbalist is of the general idea that most herbs can be taken in any kind of combination without too much in the way of adverse effects. ginger is a pretty regular part of my diet anyways.... i add it to me fresh veggie juices but yeah i have eased up a bit on the calamus for now.

interesting. actually i have read virtually the same kind of thing but worded entirely different in my brief readings into scientology materials. please be noted i am in no way interested in the church, but their philosophies (before they were infiltrated and corrupted by the CIA) were strong and valid. interesting reading here... scroll down and have a look at the free e-books by L Kin. ohhhh.... another interesting website, i started playing with this stuff quite some time ago, but i never got that far into it..... intriguing though. maybe i will devote a couple of minutes daily to these exercises. they are pretty brief.

a herbalist sold it to me. she is a very well known and reputed herbalist in australia, designing courses at universities, etc. she seems to think there is no problem experimenting with my own dose. i've actually grown an incredible aversion to the calamus.... the taste or even smell of it now gives me instant nausea. i experienced the same effect with wheatgrass juice. however i'm not sure if this is a reflex saying it's not good for me, or if it's a reflex because of the benefits it is giving it is causing me to have to change myself and there is a part of me that rebels against it. anyways i'm not sure..... i didn't take any today, but i did smoke a little in a herbal ciggarette. it tastes good to smoke and i even felt it working on my brain after....

how about "the tao of physics" by fritjof capra? this book was my first reading on my journey into the science of spirituality.

i have the powdered root. i take it in hot water in the morning mixed with a powerful antioxidant called astaxanthin. i have started adding honey.... the taste of the calamus aint too nice, its powerful. sometimes i can taste it all day and my stomach feels funny.

that would be useful. i have just made the conscious effort to stop cannabis use and i'd love to get rid of the residual effects... actually i am using a herb called "calamus" which is apparently the only known herb to be able to detoxify the brain of thc residue. short term effects of the herbs use are very positive already.... the dark circles under my eyes from years of pot smoking have been dramatically reduced. i'll just have to keep taking it and see how i feel after long term cessation of smoking. but homeopathic support would be great. is it something you think most homeopaths would be aware of?

i usually drink miso soup in the mornings. i find it a great start to the day as it's liquid and doesn't strain the digestive system and it's also packed full of minerals as well as being warming. i have also found that just as good or even better is to boil a shitload of veggies in lots of water and consume the broth for breakfast...... that is powerful stuff! a lot of cleansing happens with that.... (oh and for soup you just got to use herbamere salt, it's the best!)

yeah totally. but rather than apologising to a seperate entity i have focused on apologising to myself...... never really thought about it in respect to dissolution of the ego, but makes a lot of sense. surrender. a really good practice to do.... no wonder i have forgotten totally about it. notice how sometimes you forget about the really good stuff? it's like you sabotage yourself constantly.... the need to be ever vigilant!!!

sean you never stop researching. keep up the great work. i have been slightly derailed in my endeavours recently i have discovered, but i am seeking at putting myself back on track. did you just receive certification in CST? if that was you.... congragulations, you are an inspiration with all your hard work.

who do you surround yourself with? are they like minded people with a similar interest in self-development/progress/evolution? when you made a conscious choice to pursue a path of evolution did you find you had to give up old friends that were not interested in development? did you find that new people who could challenge you and have you provide challenge to them began to enter your life? i believe that as everything speeds up that tribe is going to quickly become something of great importance..... how many people out there are ready to embrace the idea of communal style living where fellow inhabitants work towards higher goals and ideals? where children are co-educated by all inhabitants and people of all ages mingle freely together. how many people think it can and will work?

i been totally digging spinal breathing before my meditation, which is pretty much stillness meditation. sean i like your description of how it stirs up all the impurities to be dissolved and i get that from my practice too. actually the spinal breathing goes really well with my practice in which i am concentrating on the ltt, heart centre and third eye. its like the spinal breathing goes up the back route and then with my stillness/energy meditation it goes up the front. the other night while lying in bed the orbit spontaneously opened up for me but it was running both directions simultaneously. very nice.

i don't mind at all. i'm 24. possibly it's hormonal changes.... but that be the case i would still attribute that to spiritual practices or seeking a healthy life. i know that meditation, exercise and healthy foods affect hormones. however i don't think this change in my feelings is a 'natural' thing that happens to all men as i can easily compare myself to other men my age and older and the difference is very large. most guys that i know who are my age talk incessantly about sex and the focus i feel is very much on the instant gratification of the act along with bragging rites. animal styles. i don't deny the part of me that is an animal. our body is animal in nature and in origin. it comes out when i eat.... especially when i eat meat now, i eat as an animal, because it is the animal aspect of me that needs nourishment from food. however i go to the act of eating through intelligence and eat very healthy.... through intelligence i then let the animal instinct of eating come out. and it would come out during the coital act i am sure too. much the same as in the example of eating, to get to that place of intimacy is through the direction of the heart, once engaged through love then that primal nature can let itself come out without any fears of negative repurcussions. i don't deny any part of myself, rather i just change the hierachy that dictates my behaviour. to move from the heart chakra aint to deny the sex chakra or any of the others, it's just to put it at the top of the hierachary of importance, and to let the others respond accordingly to the direction the heart chooses. a meaningful relationship is definately when two people come together and create something bigger. it's not two halves becoming one. it's two wholes becoming something even more. i would consider a perfect partner to be a mirror of you. not a mirror of your interests, habits, hobbies, personal characteristics, etc..... rather a mirror of your goals, ideals, expectations, etc. if they reflect this side of you then no doubt you will encourage and challenge each other to constantly progress. when the encouragement, challenge, comfort and support diminishes.... then the relationship will likely finish. my attitude to love, sex and intimacy have changed from both my spiritual practice, my lifestyle changes and from being aware enough to learn my lesson in my past relationship. i met this girl on the weekend who was totally my mirror. we hit it off really nice straight from the beginning and she left me feeling so nice. i don't have her number which is a shame, she has mine but she hasn't called.... i hope she does. it's ok though cos i know i will see her again, and even should nothing occur between us, meeting her helped me to realise that there are beautiful people out there who would fit with me perfectly if i am just patient enough to wait for them. my past relationship left me very messed up and i thought i'd never be able to find someone else like her. now in retrospect i realise that she was not a mirror for me, she provided no challenge or encouragement to me and it was inevitable that we would end. all about the balance

i understand. for me too the desire to fuck has entirely dissapeared. now i move from the heart, and its so much more beautiful. however i feel no grief for having lost that primal excitement. instead i feel joy that i know the next time i am with a woman it will be entirely of the heart and an intimate connection. i am content to wait as long as it needs to occur as i have no desire whatsoever to engage in anything else. ---"love is not two people looking at each other, love is two people looking in the same direction."---

it is intense. and it's reasonably enjoyable.... provided you don't swallow any! if i accidentally swallow some i have this bad taste in my throat for hours. its kind of numbing but stimulating at the same time.

so damn jealous. from the impression i get, working directly with scott can break through so much stuff in a very short period of time. if i was in america i'd be there without a second thought. i'll just have to satisfy myself with the flowfit dvd too.

gum care ingredients: common alum, black pepper, gum benzoin, sea salt, oregano seeds, cloves, acacia catechu, phyllanthus emblica, turmeric powder and neem. i just rub it on my gums then loads of salive comes ou. unfortunately its not good to swallow this stuff so i gargle with the saliva, herb mixture, swish it around my mouth then spit. then i brush my teeth with the saliva which keeps coming for a few minutes.

info about bardon's course...?

replace... combine... coordinate... supplement up to how you feel about what you are doing. something i have been doing is trying all kinds of exercises, etc. when i find good ones, i keep them. bob cooleys... is that the meridian stretching? it looks very good. i really dig intu-flow and scotts whole approach to the body. so i keep it.

i registered for the course but got no info email detailing the students page. will have to wait for the next one....

i haven't started working with the mini's yet.... keen to, but it did say to wait till advanced.... still i'm so impatient so it's likely i'll start anyway. after all i did get to advanced with ww, and i'm going back to beginner now cos it's fun to learn all the new little bits and pieces scott has added! also if you do intu-flow every day, yoda, be amazed in 6 months time at how your body begins to move.... i can't imagine yet what several years of this practice combined with body-flow, etc is going to do for me!

cheers mate. i'll check it out too then.