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Pick your dinner guests more carefully? Did you forget to say a blessing before the meal? Were you left unfulfilled? If so and you want to experience more feel free to join me over in the is enlightenment really desirable thread ...

A koan this effortless effort? Like a completely dark light? Or infinity here and now? Mind on a leash yet foot loose? I fancy that for freedom. And will happily settle for that. I am holding out for the possibility, now matter how remote, that death may lead to enlightenment ... And even those whom haven't read The Tibetan book of dead see the light. Ala Hank Williams speaks of this effortless effort I suppose : " I saw the light No more darkness No more night peace

I suppose an afficiendo of Russian roulette might say something like that. I knew a few in my youth And someone who has done strong examinations of their beliefs, goals in this life and in the hereinafter. However I suggest almost everyone else has an aversion to death. For many this aversion is described as fear. I have a friend who has "clinically died" on at least two occasions. His fear of death abated for a time. I attended some seminars on hospice after having both my Father and an Aunt (I was very close to both) avail themselves of hospice services. They both lived with terminal illness for months. Palliative care is often offered to those suffering illness can treat / address emotional, social, practical and spiritual issues. Funeral directors Doctors and Nurses who work with cancer patients and others who are terminally ill commit suicide at higher levels than the general public. Go figure? But back to spirit existing separate to mind. Does one's spirit have a ego? Peyote along with other mind altering substances have been used for spiritual exploration. Aren't they called mind altering for a reason? I admit I'm a little slow and won't be bothered in the least if and when you repeat your self.

Fear is a great motivator to a point. Personal thresholds vary as to the amount / level of thrills one chooses to expose themselves to. The culture one develops in also plays a role. My mind minus it's content is not void? I will ask again, do you consider my awareness separate from my mind? My awareness lays outside my mind? Why have a mind then? Why the fear of losing ones mind, or life for that matter?

smoking weeds

The world is truly filled with blessings. Today a Great Blue Heron reminded of that fact by gracing me with its presence. For that I am greatful

hoi poi

Hotel

Clark

service

to sweet

Mind physically? Or mind magically? What causes my fingers to type on this keyboard? Isn't a great part of self medication be it drugs, booze, shopping, and or even meditation an attempt to mute or destroy ones awareness?

Faith or trust both come to mind at times like this. I imagine being caught in an undertow the water rapidly and uncontrollably carried away. Both panic fear are natural. And at the same time the worst reactions for that particular situation. When I feel powerless I swim sideways to the current of my thoughts. I acknowledge the fear "hello darkness my old friend, I am a bit busy to entertain you right now". And move on, not in denial because I know its just a matter of time before I am visited once again. But rather to gain a different perspective. And have faith (or trust if you prefer) that I will persevere. I have found some numbness is a natural part of this process. And also can be a blessing at times like this. Set that heavy burden aside if only for a few moments... Peace

Describe or define spirit if you please. Tia.

I liken it to a small boat at sea wave after wave some larger some smaller. For me it continued for quite some time before I noticed any improvement. Remember you are not alone in the experience, many others are also grieving. Consider joining a grief support group. I did and found great comfort in sharing my experience (s), fears and worries with others in similar circumstances. There is no explaining it to the uninitiated. The greater the love the harder the loss. But it is much better to have loved... Wishing you ever increasing peace!

Danger Will Robinson. Danger! Awareness without feeling = possible out of body experience ?

Tantrum?

Yeti with a uti

Lack of vitamin D worsened with less sunlight.

Ouch!

love is a burning thing

Money is a tool. Like a hammer or a gun it may be used for constructive or destructive ends. The key is who "owns" what. There are many routes up the mountain. Some are quicker and harder than the other slower less arduous routes. Too much baggage makes the easy way difficult and the hard way nigh on impossible.

& pa kettle

No doubt.

is it live (life) or is it memorex