xenolith

I'm saying in no uncertain terms that it doesn't apply to me...don't project your pre-conceived notions onto me or anyone else. My experience indicates other than what you and Vajwhatever are attributing to me...don't project your perceptivity inadequacies onto others...did you not read the "us" in "The rest is the Tao, the fabric of God...it's us."? Word up, us means more than one. Why that doesn't imply an absence of oneness to you guys...unaccustomed to thinking outside of your pre-conceived notions one has to conclude.

You only think you did..."extensive quiet retreat in mountainous regions"...your ignorance is showing. You don't have a clue about anything that you're writing about...little tip for 'ya...neither God or Tao implies oneness...that association was in YOUR mind...not mine. Thanks again xabir. xeno out.

Please refer me to those answers.

How...by what means? (question 1) If you think I am you're mistaken. Why do you think I am? (question 2) What substance? (question 3) Duh... Duh...why do you think I think that? (question 4) Uh, yea. No kidding. Would appreciate answers to my four questions. I've not read anything that you've posted here other than that which I've now responded to...your first impression negatively impresses. Hoping for better. Answers to my questions would be a good start.

Yours is the post that I've been seeking that I didn't know I was looking for. I've seen this every time I've experienced Crown Center Awareness. I didn't know it had a name...Indra's Jeweled Net...thank you...most important post to me possible. You've made my participation in this Forum worthwhile in terms other than contributions...I've received something. You have my eternal thanks. My experience with it has been like this: the matrix pulses with an electricity of it's own but is energized locally by energy given off by the jewels...the jewels are spirits...some mortal some not...possessive of dynamos they all are..as am I. A clear hierarchy exists...up is better, down is worse. Travel upon lines of the web is possible by the simultaneous energizing of one's own dynamo with thoughts of Love for a spirit (person) in particular and focusing one's attention on finding that spirit (person)...combine those, and rapid movement along the web lines of the matrix ensues. These transport phases are excruciating in every way. I'm smiling beyond reason and crying with a joy beyond description as I experience my dynamo revving with thoughts of mrs. x and viewing loved ones, living and passed, streaming by...occupying nodes of the net...deep feelings of loneliness and belonging coincide. What I've learned through my explorations of this space is that finding her is not possible...the thought of her IS her...she and I are together, one. The rest is the Tao, the fabric of God...it's us. Thank you xabir. xeno

Experience DMT released from your body only. The Great Straight Upward Path to Enlightenment it is.

Writing primer on SKF practice...difficult to write...some time will take...in Semen Kung thread will post . By means of preview please consider: When knitting a sweater from the back of a charging tiger difficulty presents not from the tiger but from the ground that the tiger runs upon...teach the tiger to run upon air and a much finer sweater will you knit. Easier than teaching a tiger to run upon air SKF is...but very similar. Later. xeno

Posts #34 and #35 are among the most insightful comments I've seen here in a while.

Please do yourself and others the courtesy of supporting the integrity of your assertion with an intellectual argument. I won't respond to "because I think so".

Do me the courtesy of telling me what it is that you disagree with...

Very good. Thanks for the clarification. The following are meant to addresses your disbeliefs of those statements: In the early stages of SKF training one will experience arousal conditions beyond their ability to control...the result off which is ejaculation. While this is normal and correct in the biological imperative sense, it's a response mechanism that must be overcome in order to facilitate the objective of SKF...distillation of jing...those fluids need to remain in one's body for it to be distilled into the chi vapor that may then be mobilized via the MCO. This is why the flaccid (marginally aroused) condition is advisable for the SKF initiate...end of training is result of over-aroused training attempts. Not sure if I've adequately addressed your first objection, but move to the second I will in hopes that I have...please inform me if not is the case: Once one knows how to sip the chi vapor off of the jing fluids its a situation of abundance making the distillation process trivial...the more available the fuel the more awareness the pilot may achieve. Ha! Of very few things am I sure...not being a Taoist immortal is one of them. Aware of the possible realities which may await my spirit...this I am. Right? I may never know. I value trying...not succeeding. That my trying has succeeded in achieving something that I was aware of only as whispers throughout historical texts is something that I feel compelled to share with others...taking it out of the whispers may be considered a part of my objective. kindly, xeno

Is that in general, or specific to either or both of my statements that you quoted? In any case, I'm sure you have much company in that regard. Indeed, I think it healthy to so be! To inform is my objective...how it's received is not my concern. Having said that, perhaps more detail or experience will cause change in your perspective...the aforementioned post may help...it will take some time to write as there are many nuances that will take some effort to correctly describe...but write it I will. If there's anything in particular that you think would be conducive to such, please let me know of it so that I may see if I can provide it.

Some day I'll add to a post to the Semen Kung thread with descriptions of the training (silly though as Mantak Chia's book Taoist Secrets of Love provided the descriptions to me...you could find them there too)...10 years worth for me...and the preparations and implementation of semen kung->chi kung->CCA...(jing->chi->shen) practice. It's all about getting the first jing distillate past the ming-men...I know I owe you a post on that subject Trunk...that'll precede the aforementioned SKF post...promise. Arousal is only wasteful in the early stages of training (years 0 through 9.5 )...simply put once the means of distilling that energy is learned, the more of it the better. BTW, IMO there's some very disturbing "information" in this thread.

http://www.thetaobums.com/index.php?showto...p;hl=semen+kung Happy to help with anything not addressed to your satisfaction in that thread.

For what shall I watch? edit: the process which results in loss of ego and the experiences within that context takes many years of dedicated practice to learn and a very specific set of training over the course of several weeks to prepare for each experience of ego-less awareness...far from "on demand". I don't blame you for your comment, you simply don't understand...I would however advise you to recognize such and choose not comment from such a place...please don't be offended, I offer this suggestion with sincere Love. Best wishes, xeno p.s. no need to answer the above question.

Mental masturbation thread... Awareness is experience absent ego. No idea what a phenomenon is.

Have done so already here...short version: first time 33 seconds by bee sting to neck, second time 73 seconds by surgery. Count Crown Chakra Awareness experiences, exactly like being dead, the number goes to nine. Simple lesson learned...focus on Love to move toward the light...distractions increase if fail to do so do you...forward only goes the rabbit hole...but azimuth is up to you...wisdom of self-mummified Tibetan monk in more relief revealed...prepare azimuth of departure trajectory is key...to arriving where one intends. Practice makes perfect. Suggest do.

And xenolith...twice.

The art of dying.

Goji berries and a little flax meal for breakfast, apples for lunch, parsley with sun dried tomatoes, pepitas and balsamic vinegar and a little olive oil for dinner.

Sorry about that. Very.

Yin energy is key to transformative goal of SKF...and most Taoist cannons were written by men...therefore its to be expected that the yin component of the Tao is revered in Taoist tradition. As do I for the same Taoist/SKF...and myriad other...reasons.

...much have you made clear....imaginary you know. No judgment, just understanding.

...lots do they...earliest posts reveal... ...reminders few soon will be... ...good luck to you...

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