Shepherd

After a nocturnal nutrient loss and recent lack of discipline, I meditated on how to be more diligent and or how to understand why I seek release even when it doesnt pertain to creating life. The answer I got is that most everyone around me releases their seed, I have no immediate support...in Dallas TX. I need to surround myself with people who have common goals. I do not have anyone around me that also practices retention. Thank you for reading and replying, Shepherd

26 Male, Dallas TX I have, within the last 9 months discovered benefits with semen retention. As with many aspects of my life there seems to be more than a physical explanation as to how I have gotten where I am. My seeking on how to retain has brought me to this web site many times, there are no other men around me that even appreciate retention or especially the transmutation (which I am seeking so VIGOROUSLY) that I practice. Through reading online, in book stores I have read parts of books on Taoism and retention techniques. The retention techniques work, I have tried them. But, what I am seeking is to know how to transmute that energy instead of release it or suppress it. I want to harness the energy not get rid of it. It seems as though my self control and discipline is only getting me so far. Like I am suppressing it until it fights back and I loose. Truth is that I failed tonight, again. I cant even put my words together right. I am getting tired of failing and I really really would appreciate wisdom, knowledge, help. Thank you for your time and the knowledge you have already shared. Shepherd

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

...trying to learn how to post... First of all, thank you for responding. Your insight relieves some stress. I am hard on myself at times. My knowledge as of now started with the Gnostic point of view and now as a Yoga teacher in training. Both dont let any leeway or exception and that point of view might be adding to my frustration. As for the meditation, you have opened the door and I will seek and put into action the meditation techniques....I have been meditating only recently and cant get full lotus yet. And by "forced" you mean intentional?

26 Male, Dallas TX I have, within the last 9 months discovered benefits with semen retention. As with many aspects of my life there seems to be more than a physical explanation as to how I have gotten where I am. My seeking on how to retain has brought me to this web site many times, there are no other men around me that even appreciate retention or especially the transmutation (which I am seeking so VIGOROUSLY) that I practice. Through reading online, in book stores I have read parts of books on Taoism and retention techniques. The retention techniques work, I have tried them. But, what I am seeking is to know how to transmute that energy instead of release it or suppress it. I want to harness the energy not get rid of it. Truth is that I failed tonight, again. I cant even put my words together right. I am getting tired of failing and I really really would appreciate wisdom, knowledge, help. Thank you for your time and the knowledge you have already shared. Shepherd

Thank you, will do.